Part One: At The Art Museum
A thunderstorm had caught me off guard while I was out in the open pushing my two children in a baby stroller, so I was glad to duck out of the heavy storm into the first doorway I could find. It was an old established art museum, but the sounds inside were surprisingly modern.
"Would you look at that fucking pencil dick," a young gravelly voice laughed out loud. I could tell from his street tones that he and his friends were all black and very male. "Shit, if I looked that small and sad, I wouldn't let no painter put it in no picture."
It was an exhibit of Nicolas Poussin's Renaissance oil painting of "Midas and Bacchus," painted on canvas in 1625, and on loan from the Pinakothek collection in Munich. And the lads were right. The guy in the painting did have a pencil dick.
"Nicolas Pissin--" one of the others said. "Yeah, that's about all that dick's good for is pissing."
"Little saint Nick and his little saint dick."
"No wonder all the other paintings have little robes and cloths dropped over their cocks," another young black man said. "They're too embarrassed to show what they got."
"More like what they ain't got."
More laughter.
"Looking at things like that you gotta wonder why there's so many white people."
"Oh that's easy," the gravelly voiced young man answered. "'Cause their women are so easy to find in the dark."
A long collective groan of snickers filled the air. I had just stepped around the corner, and I couldn't help myself. I laughed out loud. Naturally that garnered their attention.
"Whoa, hey mama! Did you think that was funny?" a smooth faced adolescent asked me.
"I'm only laughing because it's true," I replied. "My two men have no trouble finding me in the night. But I have to reach out and feel for them in the darkness."
"You got two men?"
I nodded. I stooped down and rolled back the mini-tarp that kept Darcie and Kane Michael's stroller covered up from the rain. The four young black men let their jaws drop at the sight of my children.
"Are both your men black like these two babies?"
"That's why my guys are so difficult for me to find in the dark," I added.
"Oh man, oh man, oh man!" All four of them crowded around the carriage to examine my two little mixed blood riders. I could see the wheels turning in four different heads as they looked down at the babies features and then looked up at mine.
"There's no way you'd ever have any difficulty finding me in the dark," the leader said. "Just follow the long handle."
The others laughed again.
Darcie smiled. Like both her mother, Shaleen, and I, Darcie loved the attention she got from men. But Kane was fussy from being out in the rain and wet. So I gently picked him up from the stroller and cradled him in my arms, while I helped Darcie to climb out as well. Once Darcie was out, I found a bench to sit down on and checked my son's diaper. Not too bad, really. But he shoved his fist into his mouth and I knew he wanted to be nursed.
Well, one thing for certain, I knew this particular crowd wouldn't mind at all if some white woman breast fed her biracial baby here inside the museum, and so I settled onto the bench, slipped my jacket open, and plopped out one milk engorged pale boob.
Four overgrown adolescent males were even more thrilled with that than my hungry little infant boy. But Kane Michael claimed first rights to my brownish pink nipple.
The group of them continued to ask me questions about my guys and my kids. I sketchily filled them in on my schedule and how my guys have to work nights.
"In fact I have to go home to wake them up pretty soon," I finished. "And one or both will be more than ready for a wake-up fuck."
Again a long impressive moan from the crowd issued forth.
"Do you all sleep in the same bed?" the smooth faced one asked.
I smiled and nodded. "Wouldn't have it any other way."
I could tell that they wanted to ask me for my number so that they might have the opportunity to fuck some forty year old white woman as well, but I wasn't quite in the mood for such games at the moment.
Finally the storm stopped, and I rounded up my wandering granddaughter, put both her and Kane back into the stroller and started to leave.
"Wait!" the gravelly voiced young man shouted. "Take this."
He handed me a piece of museum note paper with a phone number and a name written on it. I smiled. First I folded the paper in half and stuffed it down into my nursing bra. Then I put my hand out to his cheek and brought my lips close to kiss him. His other buddies began a chorus of "Oooo's" as my lips touched his.
"Someday I'll call," I whispered.
I think by the darkening of his skin, that he actually blushed more than I did.
"Really?"
I nodded. "Really."
*
Part Two: Five In One Bedroom.
Now, my bedroom is crowded. Very crowded.
There is the big crib on one side which holds my granddaughter, Darcie, and the smaller cradle in the corner where my son, Kane Michael sleeps. Desmond Emmons, both children's father, is most frequently found on the left edge of the king sized bed in the middle of the room, while is best friend, R.J. Tolliver is found on the right side.
That leaves the middle of the big bed for me to sleep or to try to sleep.
Often I have been awakened to two softly snoring men pushing against me in the middle of the morning and three or four hands clutching at various body parts while I try to sleep. And of course I've encountered two "morning erections" at full attention. I've never had so much affection and loving attention in my entire life as I do these days.
My neighborhood friends have pretty much stopped speaking to me, but I honestly don't miss them very much. Apparently a forty year old white woman has no business letting two black ex-convicts--one thirty-one and the other twenty-four live inside her home in a decent neighborhood like ours used to be.