It has now been about six weeks since I was seduced by Jamal. My period which is pretty regular, had still not come. The last one was about 2 weeks before I had sex with Jamal.
I bought a home pregnancy test on the way to work one day. The day at work was uneventful as nothing happened.
On my way home I decided to stop at a coffee shop to relax.
I brought the pregnancy test in. I ordered a coffee and went to the ladies room and opened the box to read the instructions. I took the test, it showed negative. I was relieved at that.
I had another hour to drive before I got home. During the drive I started to think about how my cycle was regular and the timing of the power failure, the test had to be wrong.
I was so worked up over the thought of the possibilities by the time I got home, I could not sleep. I paced the floor all night trying not to disturb my husband. I had today off from work so I called the doctor for an appointment.
There was a cancellation so I was able to get in. I got called into the doctor's office. I still had not figured out how to explain my situation, "What seems to be the problem?"
"I don't really know how to explain it."
"Lets start with why you called," she said.
"Okay I guess that will work," I said. "I think I may be pregnant."
"That's what you wanted isn't it?"
"I'm not positive it's my husbands."
"I see, I'll schedule a pregnancy test then."
"I took a home pregnancy test and it was negative," I said. "My cycle has always been regular, My last period was about 8 weeks ago."
"Well you work a high stress job that could cause an interuption in the cycle."
"I had sex 6 weeks ago, the timing and all tells me I may have been fertile," I told her. "Stupid me didn't use birth control," I started crying.
"I'll have the lab do the test now."
She told me to check back in an hour, I went to the lab. I gave the lab all the samples they needed and went for a coffee.
Drinking my coffee, I started with the questions to myself. It is against my morals to have an abortion. What do I tell my husband? I don't know his feelings about blacks. Our families never showed any racism. Will he understand? I was confused more now than before. I finished my coffee and went back to the doctor for the results.
"Dani you are pregnant," I started to cry.
"How could I be so stupid?" sobbing.
"Dani calm down," she said. "You have choices here, you are only about 6 weeks along."