Naked, I wrapped a towel around my waist, grabbed soap and shampoo and headed for the shower. As I turned the knob and stepped under the hot water, I had to blink away the image of Leoni standing there waiting for me.
It was easy to imagine she was there. Let me paint a picture for you.
She was five feet and three inches of perfection. Long brunette hair, halfway down her back, wavy, dark brunette but not black. Dreamy brown eyes. Perfect lips, like you'd find on supermodels in those lipstick commercials. Skin the color of butter. Small boned. Petite figure. A body that looked like it was sculpted from stone but was softer than a cloud. Slim waist. Small shoulders. Slender arms. And perfect buttery breasts with eraser-sized cocoa nipples surrounded by matching cocoa areolas.
That was Leoni Miranda Owens.
It was true that I haven't taken any new lovers lately, not since Leoni left. And I knew why. She was the best thing to happen to me. Ever. She made life a whole lot easier to deal with. I'm still not sure how I lost her. But I did.
It really sucks. I miss her.
Buddies of mine have suggested that I take this time to play the field and get back in the game. That's what guys do. But I'm content to sit on the sidelines, if you follow me, and mourn a little longer, until I'm ready to move on. Sorry about all the sports metaphors. That's how guys look at things.
Yes, guys do mourn. I read somewhere in one of my men's magazines that when we lose something, like a relationship, that it's important to take time to mourn the loss properly. Maybe in a few more months, I might feel like dating again. But definitely not at this time. I'll be honest and say up front that I compare every woman I meet to Leoni. And nobody comes close.
To be honest, I didn't really feel like going out tonight. But it's also true that I haven't been out in a long time. I owed it to myself to let off a little steam. After Leoni left me I pretty much threw myself into my work.
All work and no play make Matthew a very dull boy.
Once I finished my shower, I got dressed again, in the same suit I'd been wearing all day. This was one of my favorite suits, dark grey with light grey pinstripes, and I didn't want to go out in it and get club smells in it, but since this was business, I supposed I needed to have it dry cleaned, anyway. So I put it back on, without the necktie this time. I towel-dried my hair and just left it as is.
Finally I left the health club, went to my hybrid SUV and fished out my keys. I tossed my gym bag in the back seat, got in and turned the ignition.
I pulled out and drove into the gathering darkness, all the headlights letting me know I wasn't the only one having a night on the town this Friday evening. But now I couldn't get Leoni off my mind. Why did she have to leave me? I couldn't believe Rob brought that up. Brought her up.
I remembered that weekend like it happened yesterday.
* * * *
Friday night after work, I went to this adult-novelties store looking for something to surprise Leoni with, but nothing was leaping out at me - at least, not until I got to the wrist cuffs, feathers, and blindfolds.
A crafty expression took over my face.
Considering how I had never done this before, this meaning tying someone up, I took the wrist cuffs made of soft rope. After all, the box did say For beginners. Then I got the feather. And the blindfold. I also got the purple patent-leather bra with peek-a-boo nipples, too, and the matching crotch-less purple boy-short panties and took it all home.
When I got home, Leoni was already in my kitchen, making something for dinner. She stood at my kitchen counter, wearing a cute blue camisole and baggy pink velour drawstring pants, barefoot, her shiny pretty hair up in a teeny tiny bun, humming happily as she dumped whole grain pasta in a pot full of boiling water.
I came up behind her and covered her eyes. "Guess who?"
She played along. "Well, I hope it's my boyfriend Matthew, or I guess this is going to be a home invasion."
I uncovered her eyes. "Good guess."
She laughed, turned around and gave me a big hug. "Hi, honey!"
I smiled back. "Hi."
"You're a little late getting home."
"Yeah, I'm sorry about that."
"Traffic bad?"
"Nope. I stopped and got something for us to play with."
"Oooh, goody! What is it?"
"Leoni-"
"Don't tell me! You bought a puppy."
"Nope."
"You bought a kitten?"
"Nope."
"Aw, come on, tell me! What is it?"
I grinned. "It's a surprise. But I promise that when we're done, you'll wish I'd gotten it sooner. Much sooner."
"What on earth-"
Placing my finger on her mouth, I shook my head. "Dinner first. Then we can devote our full attention to it."
Leoni grinned back. "Oh, okay. Guess I'll just have to wait till then, huh?"
We kissed. "Guess you will."
"Yes, I will!" We kissed again.
"What's for dinner? It smells good."
Leoni released me and turned back around. "Thanks. I'm making my spaghetti for our six month anniversary."
I nuzzled the nape of her neck. "Sounds good. Do I have time to change clothes?"
"Mmmmm. Yes you do, naughty boy."
"Cool."
"Can you believe we've been together six months?"
"No, only in so far as it doesn't feel like six months. If you know what I mean."
"I know exactly what you mean. Go change for dinner."
From the kitchen, I went upstairs to the master bedroom and set about arranging the presents I'd bought. I briefly feared that she wouldn't like them.
But Leoni usually liked what I bought for her.
I put some of the items on the bed where she could see them, the bra and panties, and the blind fold. The feather and cuffs and rope went into my dresser drawer. Then I changed out of my suit into blue sweats and went back down the stairs for dinner.
By the time I pushed my chair away from the dinner table, I was full and satisfied. Leoni looked at my plate as she took it to the kitchen sink. "My goodness, somebody was hungry."
I patted my tummy. "Yeah, a little bit. What can I say, you're a good cook."
Leoni laughed. "Thanks. But not as good as you are, though."
"Nah, you're just saying that."
She came back to the table, went over to my chair and put her arms around my neck from behind. "I hope you're not so full and sleepy that we can't play."
I grinned. "Nope."
"Good. So why don't we go see what you bought?"
"I thought you'd never ask." I stood up, took her hand and led her up the stairs.
Leoni said, "Come on, just tell me! What is it?"
"I told you, it's a surprise." We got to the last stair, where I said, "Close your eyes."
"Honey, what-"