"Hi, Cynthia!"
"Uh... Hi?"
I looked uncertainly at the guy standing behind me in the bus queue just across the university campus. Did I know him?
"I'm Richard. You do remember me, don't you? We met at Gabby's party."
"Oh, yes. Yes, of course!"
Well, I recalled the party two nights ago but not Richard. The only new face I remembered that night was a handsome Chinese guy, like me who came from Hong Kong. But I guessed that Chinese guy must be Gabby's boyfriend for I stumbled on them, cuddling and kissing in the kitchen right after the party. Ugh, fancied a gwei-mui (western girl)! I bet that I looked more attractive than Gabby, except for her big bosom. Shame on you!
I was about two weeks into my first university term and there seemed to be a disco here or a wine party there practically every night. It was getting rather tiresome and I hoped that would stop soon.
It was my first time away from home. I must admit that gweilo (westerners) all tended to look very much alike to me at the time. In any case, it would take just one little zip of wine to turn my head woozy. So, I shouldn't blame myself too much for not remembering Richard.
Looking at him, he was not particularly handsome but was very tall. I guessed that he must be about 6', towering over my, well, almost 5'4" frame. He had a head of short dark curls. But it was his long eyelashes that caught my attention, so long that would make girls jealous. And his eyes were so blue.
Suddenly, I realized that he was waving a hand in front of my eyes, bringing me round from my daydream.
"Oh, I'm so sorry. It's been a hectic day..."
The bus came and he sat beside me, a bit too close for my comfort. During the 15 minutes trip, I told him the story about coming from a co-ed school in Hong Kong and how I found this university. The same story that I must have told everyone I met here in England. When my stop came, I tried a polite goodbye but he said he was getting off too. There was no use seeking refuge in the grocery store because he was buying something there as well.
"It looks very heavy. Let me carry it for you, Cynthia."
Before I could decline he already grabbed the brown paper bag.
Awkwardly, we headed back to my student house. At the kitchen backdoor, I tried a polite goodbye a second time and it worked. He waved cheerfully, turned and headed for his hall of residents that was some 15-20 minutes walk away.
"Cynthia, is that your boyfriend?" Jane, my roommate asked as she peered out of the kitchen window.
"Of course not." I replied.
"Why not? He's very cute."
"If you say so. You want me to introduce you?"
Jane took another look at the departing Richard, grinned but shook her head.
It was a quiet and relaxing weekend, no disco or party. Rested and feeling refreshed, I went to the bus stop early on Monday morning but was surprised to see Richard there. His hall of residence was two stops down the other way. I hesitated whether I should turn and come back for the next bus but he saw me and waved.
"Morning, Cynthia."
"Hi."
"You're so early?"
"Yeah. And you? More shopping?" I said coldly.
The shops were not open yet. For some reasons, I suspected that he was waiting for me. So, I was just being my sarcastic self.
"No, actually I was waiting for you." He said while and then he pulled a silly grin.
I could think of no glib remark and my face just turned crimson. Luckily, the bus came. During the journey, he kept chatting cheerfully, if only one-sidedly, but I wasn't listening. Was he really trying to chat me up?
"See you." He said when we got off at the campus.
I nodded coldly but uttered under my breath, "I hope not."
However, I couldn't concentrate on my lectures the whole morning as I kept thinking about Richard. Well, I must admit that he was kind of cute. But was he really interested in me? I mean I wasn't unattractive but with all those tall and voluptuous gwei-mui around and Richard chose me? No, that couldn't be possible. In any case, I wouldn't want a gwei-chai (western boy) for a boyfriend. I could do without gossips from among the Chinese community in the university. Yet, I was suddenly confused.
That afternoon, I checked the coast was clear before slipping behind the bus queue. Richard wasn't there and the trip suddenly turned boring. The next morning, Richard wasn't at the bus stop either. I didn't know why but I kind of felt disappointed. Perhaps, I was so rude to him that I had driven him away. Otherwise, I was just imagining things. In any case, that was not an issue any more.
The following day at lunch, I was going through my lecture notes half-heartedly as I ate a plate of soggy rice with cubed beef in thick gravy at the canteen. People there just didn't know how to cook rice properly.
"Hi Cynthia, is that seat taken?"
I looked up and there was Richard holding his lunch tray with both hands, with a big box-file under his right arm. I didn't know why but suddenly I felt so flustered.
"Yes, uh... No, no Richard." Hurriedly, I tidied my notes to make room for him to sit beside me.
He set down his tray but dropped his file onto the floor with a loud bang.
"Shit!" He muttered but added quickly, "Excuse my French."
I knew that rude word, but why French? The British could be so puzzling. Then he was grinning almost childishly while flashing me his long eyelashes and sparkling blue eyes. My heart was suddenly thumping and my cheeks were heating up. What was wrong with me?
He chatted cheerfully away and I tried a little conversation. Was I merely trying to be polite or was I thinking of something else, making amends perhaps? Time flew and suddenly I had to leave for my lecture.
"Cynthia?"
"Yes, Richard?"
"There's a party at my hall this evening. It's Phil's, a third year guy's 21st birthday. Would you be interested? It's nothing fancy, just some wine and cheese..."
I didn't need to invent an excuse to say no as I had had enough of parties already. Therefore, it came as a real surprise to me, and probably to Richard, when I heard myself said, "Sure."
Suddenly he was smiling radiantly.
"Then, shall I..."
"Hey, I'm getting late for my lecture but shall we meet later at the bus?" I scribbled my mobile phone number on his notepad and hurried away.
"Yes, see you there." He said behind me.
I was so confused that whole afternoon. I thought I hated those wine parties. Then why did I accept the invitation? What was wrong with me?
I became so flustered again when I met him at the bus stop.
"Uh, Richard. I mean... uh, what shall I get for the party?"
"Nothing."
"Well, you said it was somebody's birthday. I can't just go there empty-handed."