I started thinking about Chad and if he would call before he left when the phone rang.
"Hello love, good morning."
"Morning Chad."
"Love, I will be flying to San Francisco at 11 AM this morning. Could you drive me to the airport to catch my flight? I would like to see you before I leave and we could possibly have breakfast on the way."
"Yes Chad, I would love that." I looked at my bedside clock and saw it was only 7: so I would have plenty of time to get ready. "I'll meet you at your place at 8:30 and we could stop at Shari's along the way. I need to shower and get ready so see you then." There was a little more small talk and we hung up.
I wondered what Chad would think of me if he knew about the dreams and the guy. I was looking around the room searching for the clothes I had been wearing yesterday. They weren't in the bed room. I got up and walked to the bathroom to pee. The clothes weren't there either. More puzzled now, I entered the living room and saw my t-shirt and shorts scattered by the front door. No sign of my panties. I looked around the room and not seeing them, I went to the door picking up the scattered clothes. The panties weren't caught in the shorts or laying anywhere else. A thought hit me so being cautious, while holding my clothes in front of me, opened the door and saw them laying on the step. The shock hit me. The dream! Had it been real and I opened the door for him? I reached down and snagged them and quickly closed the door and locked it.
No, this couldn't have happened I was thinking as I staggered to the bathroom. No, no, no. For the first time since the dreams had started, I stood in front of the mirror and really studied myself. I looked closely at my body now noticing there was moisture seeping from me and dried cum matting my golden patch. I ran my finger through it and sniffed. This was no yeast infection. I tasted it. It was a man's cum mixed with my own moisture. It wasn't Chad's.
The realization was hitting me hard even though my mind was still having a hard time excepting it. Suddenly I was afraid. A guy had been raping me, a stranger and I had been ignoring it thinking it was just dreams. I shuddered, goose bumps forming along my body thinking of the show I had put on for someone. How foolish and stupid I had been. I allowed it to happen.
I felt dirty and stepped into the shower. I had to think. I washed several times not really feeling clean when I decided I couldn't let anyone know. I had to continue with my life and find my way out of this mess. I quickly finished, dressed and rushed out the door to meet Chad.
We were kind of rushed as I was a little late. I was quieter than usual and Chad was trying to get me to talk but all I could think about was what had been happening to me. I had to get myself out of the mess I had gotten myself into. Chad assumed I was quiet because of him leaving and I didn't argue the point. My mind was elsewhere. Meeting him and driving him to the airport was a blur for me. I hardly remember it.
My mind had formed a solution. I was going to go to the club tonight and see if I could find him. I was going to confront him and somehow I was going to convince him to stop. I found myself back home, I didn't remember the drive.
I spent the day planning what to wear and the time I would show up. I hoped he would be there. I knew Amber and the girls would not. It was Thursday night. We all usually went out on Friday nights. The rest of the day drug by slowly. I showered several more time trying to feel clean. I splashed on a lot of lavender body splash. Nothing I did made me feel better. I was nervous and couldn't eat. When the time got close, I dressed conservatively and slipped my 38 special into my hand bag. If he didn't listen to reasoning, this was going to be my convincer.
It was 9:00 when I arrived at the Den. The club was quieter than usual, not being on a Friday night with the weekend partying starting. I waited for several hours in a corner booth nursing a margarita, several guys showing their interest but my glare chasing them off. He showed up at 11:15 with a girl on his arm and sat in a booth not far from mine. He showed no interest in me even though he looked my way several times and smiled. His attention always turned back to the woman he was with. I was beginning to doubt myself and whether he was the one. At one time when he went to the bar to get drinks I met him there and tried to strike up a conversation. He didn't take the bait and I doubted myself even more.
Thinking I was wrong, at 12:30 I got up to leave and walked to the car. I didn't see him leave behind me. It was dark. I was unlocking my door when I felt someone behind me. Startled I turned to face him and stood there glaring at him. I was just inches from him. He didn't grab me or anything like that to constrain me. His hands went to my face and he lifted my chin so that I was gazing into his eyes, our lips inches apart. Alarm bells went off in my head but my body seemed paralyzed as he kissed me. His tongue darted into my mouth searching, probing. I closed my eyes and kissed him back. Part of me was conflicted with the fact I was kissing him, the guy in my dreams, the guy that had been raping me, the guy I was going to convince one way or another to leave me alone. Another part of the conflict was fighting the urge I had for him to take me. It had been incredible sex I was getting in my dreams.