It is two years after Sun Suk’s “Summer of Awakenings.” Her first crush, long before Brenda and Brad comes back into her life. They meet at a party, and this time she is able to act upon her innermost feelings.
Every time I used to see him, I would feel all warm inside. My heart would begin to beat so quickly and loudly I felt as though everyone around me could hear it. It always seemed like I made such a fool of myself whenever he was around. I had trouble removing the smile from my face, all my words seemed to slur, and the few words that didn’t slur were not really what I mean to say. He was my 12th grade trigonometry teacher Mr. Evans.
I went through my senior year of high school the same shy, naïve Korean girl I had always been. That was two years ago, and I have slept with two different guys since my first time with Brenda and Brad (read my previous story “Summer of Awakenings”). One of the guys had blonde hair and looked a lot like Brad, while the other guy had really dark hair and looked a little like Tom Cruise (not as cute though). Still to this day, my crush on Mr. Evans never really ever left my mind like most crushes do.
Everything about that crush had been taboo. He was my teacher; an adult nearly twice my age (33), married, and even had a daughter. I was just one of his many students, only 17, and still considered a child. Mr. Evans was also a black man. Now I never really considered myself a racist before, but I don’t think I ever got past the fact that he was black. In fact, it was probably one of the reasons I was so attracted to him.
Mr. Evans stood about 6’3 and was built like a football player. I later found out he had played running back in college, but badly tore the ACL in his left knee and never played football again. He did, however, continue to stay in great physical shape and coached our high school football team. That is probably why I went to every home game; to see him. He was quite simply the best looking man I’ve ever seen.
Over the past couple of years, I have fantasized and even dreamt about Mr. Evans and I being together. Last weekend, a friend of mine asked me if I wanted to attend a big party she had heard about over in Riverside. Usually, we only go to parties on campus (USC), but lately I had been in a dating rut and decided to go with her.
The party started out like they normally do for me because I am very shy – a little on the boring side. My friend started dancing with a guy, and I had a few drinks to try to lose my shyness. A guy asked me to dance, and I said yes without even looking to see who he was. He took my hand and led me to the dance floor. It was then I realized it was a large black hand. My little white hand looked so small in his. When he turned and we started dancing, I realized it was Mr. Evans.
My heart skipped a beat, and if it weren’t for the alcohol I had drunk, I probably would have fallen on the floor as I became so nervous. He looked as handsome as ever, and even more so as he had grown a sexy goti. All the old feelings came back to me and more. I was so nervous I had a little trouble dancing with him with my two left feet. My nipples became so hard they ached. When the song switched to a slow song he put his arms around me and moved in so our bodies were touching. I was like putty in his hands as he began softly grinding against me, and I could feel my panties becoming damp.
It was then I wondered if he recognized me. With all the students he had taught, he probably did not. I didn’t think I had changed that much, maybe a little taller and fuller (5’4 and a “B” cup). I was now 20 and I guess no longer that little girl from high school. When the song ended, I did not want to let go of him. I am happy he escorted me from the dance floor because I had trouble moving my feet on my own (smile). He got us a couple of drinks and we sat down on one of the couches to talk.