This is a continuation from Sudden Obsession Pt. 01. Stay tuned for Pt. 03, coming soon.
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In the days after their rendezvous, Lauren could barely contain her emotions. Wracked with guilt over cheating on her husband of 15 years, she tried to portray her normal self around her husband. But after he fell asleep she would cry herself to sleep.
Why had she done this, she continually asked herself, and why would she sacrifice a loving relationship of over 15 years. She felt ashamed. Ashamed that she had been unfaithful. Ashamed that she had lied to her husband. Ashamed that she had taken such a risk with a coworker.
In her depressed state, Lauren contemplated calling in sick for work. She didn't want coworkers to see her in this state. She also couldn't bear to think about seeing Ryan at work. She worried, what if he had told other coworkers about their tryst. Or what if he is overly flirtatious at work. This is why people say not to shit where you eat, she thought.
But eventually, Lauren composed herself and decided she couldn't avoid work. But she also decided that she had to do everything possible to avoid Ryan for the time being. So, she made a point of staying in her office the majority of the day. When she had to leave her office, she steered well clear of Ryan's workspace. She also came up with excuses to cancel any meeting that involved a project that Ryan worked on, to avoid having to see him.
Lauren was successful in her workplace avoidance of Ryan. After a full week of work, she had managed to avoid seeing him completely. She was still wracked with nerves about others finding out that she'd fucked the intern, but she did breathe a sigh of relief that she'd made it through a week.
Meanwhile, at home, Lauren struggled to act normally around Matt. She had trouble looking at him without feeling guilt and shame about her actions. She decided to try to keep herself busy at home to avoid her emotions getting the best of her.
Lauren started making nice homemade dinners for Matt each night that week. While it wasn't out of the ordinary for Lauren to cook, it was generally quick and easy meals that she typically stuck to. Matt even noticed after the third night in a row.
"I haven't seen you cook this much in a week in a long time," Ryan said.
Lauren, not knowing the best way to respond, managed to sputter out a lie "Oh, I've just been really into watching Top Chef lately and it made me want to try some new recipes." Stupid response, she thought to herself. But Matt apparently bought it, as he nodded his head and changed the subject.
Lauren also took to cleaning the house to keep herself busy. Each night that week, she was vacuuming or cleaning the kitchen or dusting. Anything to keep her busy, avoid Matt, and avoid having an emotional meltdown.
On Friday night, after a full week of cooking and cleaning at night, Lauren was in the bathroom, wiping down the vanity. Matt, who had been downstairs watching television, came up from behind her.
Matt kissed her on the neck and whispered in her ear, "Maybe it's time to take a break from all this housework you've been doing all week." He continued to kiss her neck and started running his hands along her sides and stomach.
Lauren was hoping to have avoided this and was not ready to be intimate with her husband after her roller coaster of a week. But she felt guilty about her actions last week and realized that she owed it to her husband.
So, Lauren turned around and started kissing her husband back. She quickly moved them to their bedroom hoping to speed her husband through sex as quickly as possible. She quickly stripped once they got to the bed and pulled Matt onto her.
Lauren was happy that Matt followed her lead and was skipping prolonged foreplay and was getting right to it. She resolved to close her eyes and hope that Matt would finish quickly. He pulled down his pants and entered her. He immediately started going in at out of her at a quick pace.
Lauren, trying to just close her eyes and block everything out, couldn't help thinking something that she knew she shouldn't be thinking: Matt's dick felt awfully small. Stop thinking that, Lauren internally said to herself. So, she tried to block her thinking and focus on something else.
But in no time, she found herself back to thinking how small her husband's dick felt. She thought back to Ryan fucking her with her huge cock and how stretched her pussy felt as he was fucking her. She thought about how hard she orgasmed when Ryan fucked her.
Again, Lauren forced herself to snap out of it and stop thinking about Ryan or Matt's comparatively smaller dick. Matt was still rapidly humping her, but she could tell he was close to cumming. Moments later he finished and rolled off of her and went to sleep.
Lauren laid there with mixed emotions. She was happy that Matt seemingly hadn't suspected that anything was amiss with her. But she felt ashamed that she had trouble focusing on her husband and was instead thinking about her one-time lover's large unit and their steamy encounter.
Lauren went into work next week feeling a little better. She had weathered the storm, she thought. Matt hadn't suspected anything. No one at work appeared to have found out. Everything seemed normal.
That Monday afternoon she saw Ryan for the first time since their encounter. She had been purposely avoiding his work area when walking around the office. But there he was in the break room, eating lunch as Lauren sat in a meeting across the hall in the conference room.
Lauren was trying to pay attention to her meeting, but she quickly realized that Ryan was eating lunch with Jennifer. Jennifer was the recently hired college graduate. She was blonde, slim, and perky. She attracted a lot of attention from the men in the office with her fashion which mostly consisted of tight short skirt, heels, and cleavage baring tops.
Lauren felt pangs of jealousy as she watched Jennifer constantly giggling and touching Ryan's arms. It was clear that Jennifer was flirting Ryan. Lauren couldn't blame her. Ryan looked every bit of sexy as the last time Lauren saw him. He was wearing a black polo shirt that fit him tightly enough that you could see his bulging pecs. And the short sleeve of the shirt barely covered β of his upper arms, putting his large biceps on display.
Lauren couldn't take her eyes off of Ryan - his silky chocolate skin, his muscular arms, his sexy smile. She felt like she was in a trance. Then suddenly she snapped back to it when she heard someone say "That's it, thanks for attending the meeting everyone." Lauren realized she had zoned out for the 30-minute meeting while oogling Ryan.
Lauren walked back to her office, scolding herself for letting her attraction for Ryan interfere with her work again. Once back in her office, though, her thoughts turned to something else.