‘No… no he doesn’t…’ I can barely talk at this point, feeling another orgasm approaching.
‘How does it feel?’ he grunts, moving faster.
‘Oh, God, you’re driving me crazy!’ I squeal. ‘Don’t stop…’
‘Does he fuck you like this?’
‘No, oh, God, no… you’re so deep… ohhh….’
I clutch his arms as I cum again, wrapping my other leg around his hip, trying to pull him even deeper into me.
‘Oh, John, don’t stop, please, don’t stop! Fuck me with your big cock!’
This sends him off. We’re shaking the table, now. His balls are smacking into me, and my leg is numb, but I don’t want him to stop, his pounding feels so good. I can feel his body stiffening, and as he pumps his seed into me, he releases a loud groan, making me mewl with pleasure as my pussy milks him dry.
In the heat of our passion, I’ve forgotten about the plates, and my hand has fallen into a heap of potato salad. I hold it between our giggling faces and we greedily lick it clean, between sharing deep, sensuous kisses. John has freed my legs now, but he’s still leaning on top of me, feeding me broken bits of a chicken sandwich, and fingering potato salad into my mouth. Just as the idea of licking the salad off of his cock presents itself to me, he raises his eyebrow.
‘I know what you’re thinking, but I’ll have to take a rain check. It’s getting late, and I have some patients to see this evening.’
I look over his shoulder at the wall clock, noting the time, and feeling a little sadness strike my heart when I realize that I need to get back to the Harpers’ in time for supper.
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It seems that my haircut has caused quite a stir in the beauty shop. Word has gotten around about my strangely simple hair do, but no one in town is brave enough to give up their bee hive, that is, at least until they see this new “New York fad” displayed in the pages of some magazine. When Alice finally saw me, she looked so disappointed that I thought she’d go and apologize to Miss Ethel for my lack of style.
The Harpers have been busy this week, and luckily, I’ve been staying with them long enough for them to stop feeling beholden to entertain me. They’ve left me alone this week, for the most part, and I’ve managed to see John three more times. Wade will be back today, and I don’t know what I’m going to do when we’re finally face to face.
I’ve grown so used to John, that the sound of his voice makes me wet. Just thinking of him makes my knees weak, and I still can’t sleep through the night, because I’m used to lying in his arms, dozing after sex in the afternoon. He talks to me as I drift off, telling me stories about his childhood, how he grew up, and how he went to college early. Wade had looked up to John, as an older brother. He and Wade had been buddies up until Wade turned sixteen, and developed an interest in girls. John was twenty at the time, and he said that Wade had begun to distance himself from him. This was a natural thing, he explained, in friendships like theirs; it was time for Wade to make friends with white boys his own age. He couldn’t have John hanging around, especially when he started dating girls.
John had been courting a sweetheart at the time, and had intended to marry her when he returned from college. During that time, though, he’d found out that Wade had been seeing the girl, while John was gone. John had forgiven Wade for this transgression, because they had been such close friends, and he admitted that the girl had been a willing participant. He was still angry, but he decided to move past it, and to get on with his life.
After he broke up with his sweetheart, John poured over the books. When he decided to become a doctor, his mother cried. When he told Wade, though, he was met with an incredulous laugh and an immediate put down, with Wade asking him just who he thought he was, believing that he, a country Negro, could become a doctor. This, of course, was the final insult that permanently broke up their friendship.
I’ve been wondering if John is seeing me just to get back at Wade. I’ve been so wrapped up in him, that I didn’t think that I cared one way or the other, but now that Wade is coming back, I can’t help but wonder. I’ve convinced myself that I will be strong enough to give up seeing John. I have to; it will be impossible to get away from Wade this time, and the whole thing is wrong, anyway. I’ll be marrying Wade next spring, and I need to focus on making our relationship better.
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It’s been two weeks. Wade doesn’t suspect anything. I haven’t seen John in all this time, I haven’t even talked to him, but I miss him like nothing else. I think about him all of the time, and I’ve been longing for his touch, especially when I’m alone at night. I lay in bed, in my narrow, stuffy room, and I touch myself, rubbing my clit and plunging my fingers into my pussy, but nothing moves me like John does. Wade doesn’t even begin to compare; I find his ministrations to be teasing at best, annoying at worst. I’ve been aching for John, enough to cry at night, but I haven’t tried to contact him.
After the third week of being away from John, I’ve grown so distracted that even Wade has noticed. I’ve told him that I’m sick, and he’s offered to call a doctor, but I’ve managed to talk him out of it. I know that he’s probably afraid that I’m pregnant, and I’m playing off of this assumption, just for a little while, hoping that I’ll get a little time to be alone, to think all of this through. Wade has been smothering me with attention, as if he knows that I’m longing for someone else.
My heart skips a beat when I receive a word from John. He’s heard, through Tillie, that I’m not well, and he’s surreptitiously sent me a note, slipped underneath a napkin on my breakfast tray. I open it and read it, five times, running my fingers along the looped script, and pressing the paper to my face, as if I’ll feel John’s hand on my cheek, just because it once held this slip of paper.
I’m to meet him tonight, at one thirty, a little down the road from the house. It will be a long walk, but I’m determined to see him, throwing all of my attempts at fidelity to the wind. If I don’t see him now, I think I’ll go crazy.
The day drags on, with Wade picking my brain, trying to diagnose me himself. It takes Jill to shoo him away, explaining to him that I’m probably having “female problems”. I cringe at her explanation, knowing that Wade knows my schedule, and also knowing that he’ll worry even more.
He’ll soon be panicking about pushing the wedding up, and about what the family will think.
I have to make myself wait until the clock strikes one a.m. before I head out, tiptoeing down the hall, and inching away from the house until I break into a full out run once I’ve passed the first grove of trees separating the house from the road. Remembering John’s directions, I run at full speed, heedless of the mosquitoes and ignoring the bramble scraping my legs. I finally find his car, sitting in the shadow behind some trees. I’m wondering how he managed to pull it so far off the road without getting stuck.
He’s sitting in the back seat, listening to the radio. I climb in, wrapping my arms around him, kissing him as if it was going to be my last day on earth. We’re already groping each other, pulling on buttons and tugging on zippers, undressing in what must be record time. I’m reaching for John’s gorgeous cock, but he stops me, turning me around, so that I can sit on his face as I suck his penis.
We’re starving for each other. He laps me as if it is his first meal in days; I’m trying to take his entire cock into my mouth, pushing my head down with gusto, licking underneath the ridge of his cock head. We’ve forgotten about breathing; as soon as I remember to come up for air, feeling slightly lightheaded, I wonder if I’m smothering him, because I’m almost to the point of orgasm. The car smells of sex already, and we’ve only just started. Again, I’m determined to make him cum by sucking his wonderful black cock, but he’s never let me reach that point.
He tries to move me off of him, but I refuse to let go. I can feel his balls churning and his cock twitching as I swill my tongue around it. He’s trying to say something, babbling, but before he can make it sound sensible, he explodes in my mouth. His cum shoots down my throat, almost choking me. His cock is still spurting as I take it out of my mouth, cum oozing out of his hole. I stroke him up and down, making it shoot again, into my mouth, so that I can taste it. His back is arched off the seat and his body jerks every time that I touch him. I take his cock back into my mouth, sucking more, cleaning it, savoring his cum.
After I’ve cleaned his cock, I turn around to face him again, holding his handsome face in my hands, staring at him for a few moments. I want commit each detail of his face to my memory, because I know that it will be a long time before I can see him again. He has lust in his eyes, and he pulls me up to him, so that my breasts are positioned right above his mouth. He takes a nipple between his lips, tugging and teasing, and running his fingertips down my back, over my ass, and between my thighs. I can feel his cock stiffening, so I gyrate my hips, grinding it between our bodies. His fingers have found my slit, and are sliding in and out of my pussy. My clit is rubbing against his veiny cock, and I can feel my pussy start to quake at our constant friction.
‘I want you inside me.’ These are the first words that I’ve spoken since we started.