Snow Bunny Diaries

March 10, 2025

Dear Diary, I got to meet this girl named Wren today. She seems really cool, she's a little older than me but she's all gothic and kinda spooky. She and I met at the library, it turns out she's a little bit of a sucker for romance novels just like me! We had a long chat about books which turned into a talk about our lives and now we're kinda friends. It was nice to be able to talk to someone about this stuff. I know David will listen to me all day when I bring it up with him, but I know he's more just enjoying the sound of me talking than really taking it in. Though I do think it's sweet the way he gets excited just because I'm excited. Still, having in-depth conversations about the characters and the books are so refreshing to have in person instead of just arguing about it on internet message boards. I'm hoping I get to see her come by the library again tomorrow.

Aside from meeting her, David and I had a good day today. Once I was done volunteering, we got to enjoy some takeout together and hang out. It was nice to spend some comfy time together just cuddling on the couch and watching funny movies. When it got boring, we even made out a little. We didn't go too much farther than that, but it was still really nice to be able to have moments where we could laugh together and other moments where I could feel his hands touching me. I know he's mostly just trying to respect the fact that I'm still a virgin, but sometimes I don't think it would hurt to go a little bit farther, you know? I don't know how to bring it up to him though, I know he's just doing it out of respect. I wish it was easier for me to say what I wanted to him but I don't want him to think I want to move too fast or something.

March 11, 2025

Dear Diary, Wren came back today to give me her phone number! Apparently when she left yesterday as the library was closing, she had forgotten to give it to me so now we're texting and we've been talking all day. She's so cool, she has all these really neat tattoos and the way she does her makeup is so pretty. I told her that too, and she said she would be happy to teach me how to do it sometime. We're thinking of doing a sleepover this coming weekend, I haven't ever really had one so I'm really looking forward to it! David seems happy for me too, especially because he'll be going out of town for work this weekend so he's glad I won't have to be all by myself again. We're still trying to work on a proper date night but it's going to take a little while to figure out with his work schedule being so unpredictable.

It's been a little frustrating to be honest, I keep having to take care of myself when I would rather he do it but he's either not here or too tired. I won't make him, but I don't think toys are really doing it as well as he does. I'm sure he'd be happy to hear that too, but I don't want him to push himself too hard. I think the age difference kind of bothers him a little more than he's willing to admit to me. I don't think he's THAT much older than me but I guess he sees it differently. I still remember once on my birthday we spent time making out and touching each other, it was the first time he's put his fingers inside of me and it felt really, really good. I miss that night a lot, it feels like he's really reluctant to do anything beyond that, aside from us doing oral every now and again. I know I should just ask him for what I want but it's... difficult to put it into words in front of him. Especially when I know he's spent a lot of long hours at his job and he might not be up for it.

March 12, 2025

Dear Diary, we're having the sleepover tonight! Wren said she's looking forward to teaching me how to do my makeup and I'm really excited to learn. She texted me the address to her apartment and sent me pictures of it. It's a bit tamer in terms of decoration than I thought, but she also has this altar thing? I've seen one for the virgin Mary and stuff, but hers was very different. It was all black and the statue was one I didn't recognize. She said she works with a different kind of goddess for her witchcraft. I won't deny that makes me a little nervous to know she believes in stuff like that, but it's also kind of cool? Like, it still feels weird to believe that magic is real and she tries to make potions and spells and stuff, but it's also kind of cool to know she does all that stuff. I've only ever known about Christian stuff, so we got to talking about it some more. It really seems kind of cool, and I said I was fine with her giving me a talesman talisman for protection when I come over. I'll even get to see how she makes it, she said it would be good for me to be there so I can add some essence of myself to it. I just hope she won't ask me for something extreme like blood or something...

She also warned me that she has a roommate so I'll be meeting him too. I hope they're nice. I wonder if they're gothic like her or if they do magic stuff also. It would make sense I think? David and I also had our goodbyes today, he promised to bring me back souvenirs once his time off is over. I've been thinking that maybe I can leave my diary out where he can read it, maybe that could kind of subtly get the message across that I want to do more with him, but that's only going to work if he wants to read my diary. I don't know if he's the snooping type, and then again if he is would I want to be with him? Ugh, these questions are so stupid and complicated, I'm just gonna finish packing my overnight bag and get going.

Alexis sighed to herself as she came up to the door, seeing the pentacle made of wooden sticks hanging on the front door. She double-checked the apartment number on her phone before she confirmed it and reached up to knock. It took a moment before the door was answered but rather than the tall, curvaceous goth girl she had met earlier that week, it was a taller black man whose skin had a deep chocolate color. He looked her up and down and Alexis got a bit nervous as he asked, "Can I help you?" In a deep, gravelly voice.

"Um... does Wren live here?" Alexis asked.

"Oh yeah, you're Alexis?" He asked, and when she nodded, he opened the door more to let her in, "Yeah, come on. She's just dealing with some stuff she'll be done in a sec."

"Thank you," Alexis stepped inside and looked around the apartment. The pictures matched up well with what she saw before her now, darker turquoise walls housing black leather furniture in the form of a couch facing a small tv that hung on a wall. On a wall perpendicular to them was the altar that Alexis had seen before, the candles no longer lit and a six-armed woman statue in the middle of it standing over an empty plate. The ground under her shoes looked plushily carpeted and she could see a little space by the door where there were a few pairs of black boots alongside a pair of athletic sneakers, all underneath a space where a black-framed mirror showed her convex reflection back to her. She looked so small compared to the image of the black man next to her in its shining surface. "Should I take my shoes off?"

"If you want," The man shrugged, heading over to the couch and getting comfortable as he settled in to keep watching whatever he had paused on TV. He wore a tank top and basketball shorts, seeming very comfortable already as he continued to watch the show. Alexis figured the polite thing to do would be to follow the traditions of the house and took off her shoes next to the boots, lining them up carefully before she stepped further into the apartment. She could make out the small kitchen and saw the carpeted floors didn't continue into the space as it was lined with linoleum floors. It looked clean, but also somewhat cluttered with cereal boxes and other snacks lining the back of the counter in different spaces along the wall.

"So, uh," Alexis stepped over to the couch, "I guess you're Wren's roommate?"

"Yeah," He smiled at her, holding out his hand, "I'm Jamal."

"Alexis," She shook his hand with a polite smile, feeling the rough skin of his darker palm contrasting with her softer hand, "Nice to meet you." She caught a bit of a whiff of a musky scent as he pulled his hand back.

"You too," He said, "Sorry if I stink a little, I just got back from the gym." He was a very well-sculpted man the more she looked at him, seeing the muscles in his arms and shoulders and in his chest too.

"Oh no, you're fine." Alexis said, glancing around the apartment. She saw a hallway leading down to a set of three doors. Wren had mentioned it was a 2-bed, 1-bath apartment that she was sharing with him. Before she had a chance to ask where Wren was, the door at the end of the hallway opened and she could see her finally. She was just as cool looking as she remembered, dark hair cut into a sharp bob that framed her face so nicely, walking out in a black sweatshirt with the name of a band she didn't recognize on it, as well as a pair of comfortable black sweatpants that hung around her body loosely. It looked frumpy, but it was easy to tell that she was hiding a very curvy body under the fabric with the way it hugged around her hips and generous chest. She still wore that black lipstick and thick eyeliner around her blue eyes. She smirked as she made contact with Alexis.

She was mousy in comparison, wearing a latte-colored sweater and a brown and green tartan skirt as she stood there in her knee-high socks, looking ever like the perfect image of a student. "Hi Wren!" She beamed when she saw the older girl. "Your roommate Jamal let me in."

"Hey, good to see you made it." She said, coming up to the little nerdy girl, glancing over her braided pigtails for a moment and then looking back at Jamal. The man glanced up at her, and she smirked a little more before she looked back at her friend, "So, you ready for the best slumber party?" Wren asked as she reached for the girl's backpack, "Come on, you're gonna sleep with me."

"I brought a sleeping bag, so I'm okay to sleep on the floor!" Alexis said, enthusiastically following the woman to her room down at the end of the hall.

"What? Girl, you're not sleeping on the floor." Wren laughed, "I got a queen-sized bed, it can fit both of us just fine."

"Are you sure?" Alexis asked, "What if I snore or something?"

"Then I'll push you out," Wren joked as she closed the door behind her. She dropped her backpack on the bed and gestured for her to open it up. Her room was much more the vibe that Alexis was expecting, the walls hadn't been painted, but there was a black rug on the floor, a black bedspread on her comfortable-looking queen size bed that stayed along the back wall of the room, a small black desk with a laptop on top, the computer wasn't black but it was covered in the stickers of metal bands that Alexis didn't recognize, and along the opposite wall was a dresser, also painted black and covered in trinkets, glass bottles filled with various spices and leaves, and bits of leftover trash alongside an incense holder that had a burnt out stick sitting in it. Her room smelled like jasmine, and Alexis thought it was a fitting scent as she went to her backpack and began pulling out everything.

"I didn't bring too much," She said as she pulled out her sleeping bag and pajamas, "But I did bring this." She smiled as she pulled out a pack of Uno cards, "I thought we could have some fun playing this."

"Ah, the card game that tests every friendship." Wren said, taking the pack and smiling at the wholesome gesture from her. "Sure, this'll be fun. I'm sure we can find time to play after we watch a couple of scary movies. It'll be a good way to wind down before bed." She handed them back to Alexis, watching her pull out her toothbrush and a few other toiletries, "The bathroom is the door on the left in the hall, you can drop those in there if you want."

"That's okay, I can just leave it in here until tonight." Alexis said as she put it back in her backpack, looking over the bed. It was a queen size, definitely big enough to fit both of them without any issue, and the black pillows did look pretty plush and comfortable. "Are you sure it's okay for me to share your bed?"

"It's not like you wouldn't be the first," Wren joked, "But if it makes you more comfortable, we can do a little pillow barrier so we don't end up accidentally cuddling each other in the middle of the night."

"Do you cuddle?" Alexis asked, finding it hard to picture her doing that. She seemed so cool and aloof, she couldn't really see her being the cuddling type.

"If the sex is good enough," She shrugged, and saw how Alexis's face instantly turned red and went back to her backpack. "Oh, right. I forgot you're still a virgin." Wren came up to sit on the edge of the bed, watching her unpack and get comfortable, "How is it you're still a virgin when you look like that? You must have guys banging down your door for a chance to get at you."

"Well, telling them I have a boyfriend usually makes them leave." Alexis replied.

"And you guys haven't fucked yet?" Wren asked.

Alexis shrugged, "David wants to take it slow, I asked him to so it's not like I'm upset about it." There was a pause following her statement and Wren's brow quirked up curiously, hating the sound of the silence and the weight of it around them, Alexis continued to speak, "I-I mean, it feels like really, really slow sometimes, we haven't really done more than just make out- which is great, don't get me wrong! But sometimes I feel like I'm ready for the next step but... I don't know, maybe he just gets a little nervous because he doesn't want things to go too fast? And I can't really blame him, I mean I don't want to rush things either and I still need time to get comfortable with everything but uh..." She glanced up at Wren, who was still quietly listening, nodding at her to continue, "I don't know I just think... maybe he's going so slow because he thinks I'm a little too young? There's kind of an age difference between us, you don't care about that stuff, do you?" Wren shook her head, "I mean, it's nothing huge or anything but I feel like he still kind of sees me as a kid sometimes. It's not even that big of a gap, and he says he does like me but he just... doesn't want to overwhelm me or something."

"I get that," Wren said, "You

are

pretty young, you only just turned 17 what, 3 months ago?"

"Eighteen," Alexis corrected.

"Oh, okay," Wren shrugged, "Well, you're a legal adult and I don't really care what you do or who you do it with, not really my business. But if you want to speed things up, why don't you tell him that?"

Alexis blushed and she fiddled around with her backpack as an excuse not to look Wren in the eyes, "It... feels kind of embarrassing to ask. Like, it's not like he's doing anything wrong, I just... I don't know." She shoved those feelings down a little, trying to change the subject rather than focus on her sexual frustrations in her relationship, "A-Anyway, what's Jamal like as a roommate? He's not going to be upset that I'm staying over, is he?"

"Nah, he's fine." Wren brushed it off, "I told him you were coming over yesterday and he's all for it. He's even gonna help us pick out a scary movie to watch." She hopped off the bed, "But if you want, I can probably make a little something to help you with that boyfriend problem." Alexis looked up at her curiously, "If you're open to more... alternative solutions." She said, nodding to a collection of glass bottles on her dresser.

"What, like magic?" Alexis asked, feeling the urge to wrinkle her nose and refuse but decided not to out of fear of being rude, "I don't know that it would necessarily work."

"I mean, it's either this or you could just tell him yourself." Wren said, reaching over to the bottles, "A little bit of this," She shook a bottle of mixed herbs in front of her, "And you might get the courage to actually say something if I mix it up right. Could give you a little courageous charm or something."

"I don't know..." Alexis was clearly hesitant, and Wren put it away. "Isn't this kind of one of those things that only work if you believe in it?"

"Yes and no, it's not as simplistic as that," Wren said, "Sometimes it's definitely a placebo effect, but knowing it's a placebo doesn't necessarily negate the effects." She reached for a rock on her dresser, "Like this? This is just a normal quartz stone under normal circumstances, but because I infused it with whatever magic I put in it, it makes my spells more powerful just because I believe it did. And because of that, I'm more confident and you can see my spells working more and more, it's not just me." She put it back down and continued to explain, "I've made a whole online business doing spells for folks who ask, the only unsatisfied customers I've had are the ones I turned down without doing anything."

Alexis didn't speak up, humming as she looked over the collection of ingredients on the dresser, unsure how rosemary and lavender would help her be able to convince David to speed things up a bit more in the bedroom just because she wanted to without having to ask him. Wren could see her still trying to figure it out, shrugging and saying, "I just wanted to offer, you don't have to take it if you don't want to. Not everyone's comfy involving magic in their love lives and that's a valid way to live. Just think about it. In the meantime, you wanna order some pizza?"

"Ooh, yeah. Pizza sounds good." Alexis smiled, happy for the change in subject as the pair walked out to the living room. As Wren placed the order, she looked over the altar she had set up there, the plate and the collection of candles in front of a feminine statue. She wondered if it was some kind of goddess but the more she looked at it the more she was sure it wasn't any actual goddess from a mythology she knew, just a statue that matched the vibe well.

While waiting for the pizza, Jamal was sitting and watching a basketball game on TV while the two started talking, "So... this magic stuff," Alexis began, "How... exactly would it work?"

"Oh, it's easy," Wren said, "We do a little spell casting and I make you a tincture, something small you can drink that will help spice up your love life. I've made it like a hundred times," She pointed her thumb at Jamal, "He's bought a couple from me too. Right Jamal?"

"Huh?" He looked over at the sound of his name, barely processing what she had said to him before that.

"You've bought a couple of my romance tinctures, right?"

"Oh yeah," He grinned as the memories of using her "tinctures" came back to him, "Good stuff, solid stuff," He looked over at Alexis, "You thinking about buying?"

"Maybe," Alexis said, "I mean, she said it's good for... speeding things up in the bedroom."

"It does that, 100%." Jamal said with a wide grin, nodding his head as he was clearly reminiscing, "I've bought those things like four times. Every time it made for a great night in bed with my favorite girl." He winked at Wren, who just smirked back.

"You are such a perv," She flirtatiously replied, rolling her eyes a little before looking back to Alexis, "Ignore him, he's a hopeless flirt. Likes to say shit he doesn't mean."

"I didn't know you were dating?" Alexis asked.

"Hell no," Wren dismissed it immediately, "We just get along well enough to have a... good night or two every once in a while."

"Damn good nights..." Jamal murmured before putting his attention back to the game he was watching.

"Oh," Alexis sat back, a little uncomfortable but not saying anything else about it, "But I guess that means you've had a lot of satisfied customers?"

Wren nodded, "Plenty, and again I'm not gonna push this on you if you don't want it. You seemed kinda iffy earlier and you grew up Christian right?" Alexis nodded, "Yeah, I can see why you would be a little hesitant about it. It's good stuff though. If you want, I can give you a kind of sample? Something you can try out safely here and if you like the effects, you can bring it to your boyfriend, see how it works on him."