Then the jets of cum slow. Robert pulls his still rigid cock from my mouth slowly, me sucking and kissing along the bottom while trying not to choke on all the cum. And no matter how hard I try, a little -- or sometimes a lot -- escapes through my lips when he pulls out all the way. Then I'm on my knees looking up and waiting, the still hard cock lying softly now along the crease of his hip bone, wild and slimy looking. And then he looks down and invariably wipes a bit of cum off my lips or chin to feed to me. His finger comes out of my mouth clean and he nods that it's ok to swallow now. And I do even though it's nice sometimes when he lets me hold the cum in my mouth longer, tasting and swirling it for my own pleasure. Robert's not one of those guys like in a porn flick who has to see my mouth filled with sperm before I can swallow. But he does decide when I swallow, which for me is an amazing turn-on. Because he never suggested I needed to await his command to swallow. It was just something natural to me.
By now my panties are completely soaked. I nuzzle up to his spent cock, kissing and licking it very gently. Robert reaches down and grabs my tit, lovingly patting and squeezing it and tweaking the nipple as he lets us both rest. I kiss the head and the slit and smile to see little drops still oozing from his slit. Enough for me to taste even though his flavor and aroma are already everywhere in me. And I smile again as I imagine the little fishies all swimming around now in my belly, all the little sperm trying wildly to swim towards an egg that's not there. And I dream about the times when Robert takes me and fucks me hard after one of these blowjobs, and wonder again whether he's going to do me today before he takes off. Instead he reaches down and slaps my ass hard. Great, more red marks all over me. I gaze up lovingly and he says "How bout a brother gets a glass of water after all this hard work?" And I jump up and run over to the little fridge I keep there for us and pull out water for him. He says "Get one for you too." Which even if I do love the taste and texture of his cum is nice since a girl really wants to wash her mouth out a little after that sort of thing. So then I go back to kneeling between his spread legs and kiss his cock again as I hand him the water. I find one more nice thick droplet of sperm on his cock to lick and swallow. Then we both drink the water, him a lot and me a little.
Somehow I know he's not going to fuck me this time. He's too relaxed. And when he's going to fuck me after he almost always stays totally hard and has me bent over on all fours after just a few minutes. Or he has me on my back with one big hand holding my ankles up over my head to open me up. But today he's probably going to run off to one of his black brother study groups. He rests. I try again not to wonder about Jevon and Beth and 'being ready' and my inadequacies and it's harder now without the stimulus of his thick black cock penetrating my throat. Obviously it's going to be a sex thing -- why have a slut if you're not going to use her for sex? I shiver even in the warm dorm room trying to figure out what though. And Robert gets up and pulls on his underpants, his pants and shirt, leaving me kneeling on the floor watching just in case he changes his mind. But he doesn't. He leans into me and puts an index finger in my mouth to suck. He tells me to keep my cell on. And then he's gone.
I got all dreamy again. The taste of his cum was still in my mouth and I was just sipping the water in careful little drops to get some of it without washing out all of Robert's flavor too soon. It had been a good blowjob despite some lapses in attention. None of them had lasted too long and I wasn't sure he was even aware of them while they occurred. My fingers went inside my panties and found my clit. I idly rubbed and teased it while I replayed the scene in my head. I almost always do after he leaves. This way I could get off while I enjoyed the moment over again. The sight of his cock approaching my lips. The first feel of the rubbery head on my tongue and of the steel shaft when he began driving it deeper in my mouth. The gagging over the phone for Jevon. The wonderful thick, salty splashes of sperm in my open wet mouth and the slutty swallow for him. By now I was fingering my clit just the way I like small little gentle circles closer and closer to my little friend inside, and then back out to start the slow circles over again.
I thought Robert was being pretty unfair about my cocksucking. I mean geez! Give a girl a little credit. If he would stop and consider how much I'd improved in the last couple of months you'd think he'd at least commend me for trying. I had worked really hard for him, because I loved him of course but more than that because he wanted me to be good at it and I was determined not to let him down. It was a pride thing for me. I guess maybe that was part of the problem along with my daydreaming but still. I took his cock almost all the way in now. You try it with 10 inches of thick black cock. I was obedient on my knees. I kept it slow and slutty without ever trying to rush to get him off faster. I always swallowed on command and even if it took a finger two or so off my face and tits at the end, all the cum ended up in my belly. But all I ever heard was like what he said to Jevon: needs a lot of work. Well screw him (ha-ha!) I did have my pride but I was also totally committed to his pleasure and you'd think he'd acknowledge at least that.
Of course I realized that he wanted me motivated, and that no guy training you at cocksucking is going to give you much praise so long as it's not totally O.K. That way he had it all: me gagging down 8 or 9 inches into a throat he knew was too small for him, me swallowing all the cum he could produce, and still he got to complain about it like I was an amateur girl giving her first blowjob on prom night. Not that he was ungrateful in general. I mean if anything he was too effusive in his praise of my cunt from the very first time he fucked me. He just loved how tight and slick I was there and how a slender, feminine girl could make his entire cock disappear inside of her. The thought made me realize I was getting close to cumming and that this replay Robert's generosity was part of what was making my little clit sing like lark. It turned me on so much to be serving him like the slut I was, like his slut. And oh my God the image of his balls churning out sperm into my pink pussy finished me off. I came so hard I felt like I was blacking out. Afterwards I licked my fingers clean, wishing there had been some trace of his cum there too for me to enjoy. Then I got up and showered.
In the shower I was wondering if he was going to let Jevon fuck me. Would he want another guy cumming inside me like that? Cumming in my cunt? Or even in my mouth? Or maybe the idea was just for me and Beth to get it on together for them. I'd never been with a girl although Robert told me almost from the beginning that I was going to be. He had never mentioned other guys getting the use of my body. Now I let the burning water run over my tits as my fingers opened me up again. I came for the 2nd time trying to picture Beth and Jevon -- without luck of course since I had nothing to go on. Still the images that flashed of what they might do to and for me got me off again, softer and gentler and sweeter this time. Then I got out, dried myself, fell into my soft warm bed and then into a deep sleep. Just before losing consciousness I softly spoke the words I used every night: "Good night Robert. I love you."