This chapter of my story is dedicated to a very special friend who has shown me I'm not alone.
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Two days later... in Todd's car, my mouth on him, lapping sucking. He leans back as he always does while I please him.
I stroke him softly, "Are you having a party soon?"
His hands wrap around my head, "Always a party, baby."
I suck and stroke him, "The day at your house, Smooth he said there is a special party. He said I should come, but you said I wasn't ready yet."
"You aren't."
"He said I should go. Why won't you let me?" I mutter on his balls, lapping them.
"Riley. Shut the fuck up."
I suck on his balls more, put my mouth on him and glide up and down.
"I'm willing to do anything you ask. I'm ready for anything. I want to be special for you."
He laughs slightly, "You've got no idea, baby."
I pull his cock out of my mouth and look him in the face. "I'm ready for anything."
He stares at me. I think part of it is he's amazed I would question him. Finally he shakes his head. "Ok. Fine. You're invited." Then he suddenly grabs my head, twists my hair in his hand and pulls it up to his face. We stare at each other; I've never seen him violent like this. "Don't fuck it up." And he releases me; I finish his blowjob without a word. I left his car and went back to work.
That night, I get a text, date and time. "Be perfect. This Friday."
I spend the week working out and getting my nails and hair done. I'm not sure what Friday has in store for me, but I'm excited and eager to prove to Todd how much I love being with him.
My husband, Mark takes an interest in my activity. Anxiety overwhelms me.
"You've been different the past few months. You just seem in a good mood a lot and you are spending a lot more time on your appearance." He rubs my shoulder, "It's nice. You look good."
I blush, panicking, what should I say? "I just want to be healthy, and am motivated to treat myself right."
"I understand. I support that." He takes me in his arms and kisses me on the forehead. "I'm happy you feel good. You know I want to make you feel good. Do you think you might be in the mood tonight? It's been a little while."
I hold him back, but nausea settles over me. What I'm doing. The truth. It's so wrong and so destructive, but I don't know how I could give it up now. I need this now. I have to separate it from this life somehow. My life with Mark, and my life with Todd, I have to be like two different people to make this work so guilt doesn't consume me. I have to do this.
I think of the video on my phone and immediately am turned on. "I don't foresee any headache tonight."
He holds me tighter, and a twisting sensation takes a hold of my insides. Like my intestines being turned in a meat grinder. I swallow and force it away, telling myself it's ok. I can be a good wife and still satisfy my desires. I can do this. The twisting subsides. I force it away.
Friday. Luckily Mark left for more insurance adjustments. I can have the house to myself, with no excuses or explanations. I bought a brand new dress, dark blue, form fitting, that gives me at least little hips, and shows off my breasts a little.
I took all afternoon getting ready and dolling myself up. I put on some fake eyelashes for the first time, quite an experience, but I did a passable job I think. Finally I stood in front of the mirror and looked myself over. I was quite stunned. I don't think I had ever looked hotter before.
I arrived at 8 pm sharp. It was a nice house with vehicles crowding the driveway and street out front. A heavy bass beat permeated from the residence. I nervously rang the door.
The door opened a few inches and a black man in a tight white t shirt answered the door. He looked at me with menacing suspicious as music blared from the open door, a hostile sneer on and a skeptical scowl creased his face like they were cut with a rusted scalpel. His muscles bulged from under his shirt.
"I'm Riley," I stutter, "Todd's friend?"
His hostile look immediately turns into complete acceptance and friendliness as a wide honest smile fills his face.
"Well come on in! My are we looking fine tonight! T is gonna be pleased with you! I'm G-Man," he put his hand out.
I walked into the home and was amazed by his size. The door had been blocking most of him. I saw now he stood well over six feet tall, and was rippled with muscles. I moved to shake his hand and he laughed and pulled it away, engulfing my small frame in a big bear hug.
"No handshakes here, baby. We all fam, hugs only. Come on, let me get you something to drink."
We walk to the kitchen, there were a few people along the way whom G-Man slapped his hands with. They all looked at me and grinned, nodding their heads. I politely said hello, good evening, nodded my head in return. The house was nicely decorated, spotless. There was even some tasteful art adorning the walls. We found the kitchen.
G-Man slapped the island counter. "Whataya have, pahtnah!"
"Umm, what do you have?"
"Ha ha!" When G-Man laughed his whole body laughed. "You funny, baby! What do you drink?"
"I guess a mai tai would be nice."