By 8:15 we were back in the living room listening to music. I guess Briana recovers faster than me. She washed her face and came out of the bathroom looking almost normal. I went in but when I came out I still looked like me.
She was still working hard to settle me down. I had no idea where I was going from here. I had loved Alicia so long and so hard. Call me an idiot but even then I felt like I still loved my wife, almost as much as I had ever loved her. I could still feel it in there. I was still proud of her for what she accomplished and was maybe (probably?) about to accomplish. So yes, I loved her, but there wasn't even the pinprick of dark to hold on to. I was alone.
Alicia told me that night in bed, without trust there isn't much to a marriage. She actually said that. I had always been supportive of her goal to be fucked by Pharaoh, to use her skills to please Pharaoh, to serve Pharaoh with all appropriate submission. It made sense, following the rules, her being a good girl, me being a good husband. It was patriotic. Alicia and I had never lied to one another about it. It was our goal together.
But this stuff? Letting Dray fuck her before we got married? Letting him use her pussy whenever he called and told her to make up some lie? Lying about her virginity, her Certificate? Lying about Eric? Lying about the source of her special skill? Stabbing a good friend like Briana in the back? For her morals of all things? Now trust would be nothing but a stupid joke.
We sat quietly sipping wine. There were no more tears, we were both all cried out.
Briana said, "Jeff, can I ask you a question?"
"Sure." What else can you say when someone says that?
"Are you fucking Stony?"
"No. Absolutely not." That one caught me by surprise.
"Too bad. Maybe you should." Bri gave me her cutest smile and a wink. "I know I would."
"You?...you would fuck her?" I was aghast.
"mmmmmm"
"But you...you're both girls."
"It's called lesbianism Jeff."
"I know."
"And you're really not? For real? Scouts honor?" She was asking again about me and Stony.
I realized then I shouldn't be like Alicia skirting around the actual truth. So I told her, "Well, we kind of did some...you know..."
"Aah. She sucked your cock," said with another cute smile.
My blush gave her the answer. At least I hadn't lied.
"Good for you both. Good for her. I think the girl is crazy hot." Bri had this cute giggle and said, "Damn, I'd sure let her blow me."
Briana had always had a pretty funny kind of radical and dangerous way of putting things.
"Is this...really?.. you do think that?...you're a lesbian?"
"Only in my brain dude. Only cause at this point I think I'd fuck anything that moved."
"Briana! You're nuts. Why?"
"Well, a) I guess a girl gets super horny when she's married to a cool guy who barely touches her cause he's too busy chasing all the other white sluts in town, and b) I did get super turned on at the competition watching all those beautiful white girls bring it, so c) I wasn't just kidding what I said about feasting on that girl, and d) but I think Stony would be even better, would be perfection. You think that covers it?"
"Oh my God, you really are a lesbian. Stony asked me if you were and I was like I doubt it cause I didn't think it was a real thing to begin with."
"Oh fuck, oh fuck! She asked you? What did she say?"
"Said...I don't know I'm supposed to tell you...she's a good girl...was private you know...but I..." Bri fixed me with those stern eyes of hers. I went on, "Well, she did say it made her hot, when she got home that night after White Girl Pride Day."
"mmmm yum, yum, yum, yum yum! Girl makes me nuts. But was she serious, like might actually be interested? In me?"
"I...I don't know...maybe."
"Oh my God! Be still my beating heart." Briana gave a comical fan of her face so she wouldn't overheat. Was cute. We laughed together for the first time that night.
"I'm just saying maybe...I can't tell...I'm having some trouble these days figuring out how girl's think. And it's so hard to picture, you know? Girls doing stuff with girls?"
"Not for me it ain't," she said with a giggle.
I didn't want to tell Bri about how Stony thought about it too, doing stuff with her, with Briana, or how she thought about touching herself. I felt like I had said too much already. It was Stony's business after all.
Briana kept fanning herself and laughing and smiling and giggling.
I got her another glass of wine. Her face changed and she became more serious, thoughtful. Her color was still high. We sat quietly till she said, "Can I ask you another question?"
"Go ahead." I realized then for the first time I hadn't been checking my nose. Somehow I knew it was OK. Without even checking. A first.
"Would you like to fuck me?" Which also took me by surprise, especially now I was picturing the two girls together.
I knew I had to save us both, for our morals.
"Oh. Come off it Bri. You're just trying to get back at those two."
"Not really. I'm not. I told you. I've given up on that. More than ever now we both know. Really and truly."
"Then why?"
"Well, I do think it's kind of fair. Symmetrical. My husband fucks your wife. You fuck my husband's wife, which is me. That's not bitterness, just symmetry."
"Yeah, right," I said sort of sarcastically. But does sarcasm get you out of having to fuck one of your wife's friends? It would be hard to say.
"And it's not the only reason. You're nice. I like you. I've always liked you, always thought Alicia didn't really deserve you."
"Wow. I mean thanks." Just flattery of course, but I'd be lying if I said I didn't feel a little jump n my pants then. "I mean, you're nice too, Bri. Is that all it takes?"
"When you get to my state, yeah, that's all it takes," and she laughed.