This is another true story which began while I was on vacation on Hilton Head Island a couple of years ago. (Look at Hilton Head Massage.) My sexual experiences in the past have been usually conservative and I have tried being faithful to my boyfriend. One night stands are definitely not my style, but a massage from an older black man at the hotel spa on Hilton Head had gone way beyond professional. Something about the sexual experience had struck a nerve with me and had become a recurring fantasy to relive it.
It had been over a year since I met Alan on Hilton Head Island for my massage. My relationship with my boyfriend had been growing stronger during that time and it was possible we would end up getting married. He had given me a ring but we had not officially become engaged. I never told him how my massage had gotten out of control. Some readers have given me feedback that I should tell him, or that he might have even liked that it happened, but that is not him at all. Part of me felt guilty, but I had never regretted it had happened and thinking about it always turns me on. It had been the first and only time I had been with a black man and what was intended to have been only a nice professional massage had turned into one of the most thrilling experiences of my life.
I thought I would never see Alan again; that had been the first and only time I had been to Hilton Head. While it had been a nice vacation, I doubted we would return anytime soon. When the opportunity to attend a business conference on Hilton Head Island came up, I will admit the thoughts of getting another massage from Alan immediately crossed my mind.
I had carefully thought about what still attracted me to even considering a repeat performance. I was absolutely not romantically motivated. The sex had been intense and unbelievable, but I wondered how much of that had been "lightning in a bottle," a one time thing that would be difficult to repeat. There had been the unplanned surprise and ongoing allure of being with a black man, to some level within my innermost thoughts still a forbidden thing. I was certain the spontaneity had contributed to my consent. If I had walked into my massage thinking sex was a possibility, I know it never would have happened, realizing the paradox. Finally, I also realized even though I had only just met Alan that time, I had felt safe and comfortable with him. With a stranger, usually I would feel the opposite.
I speak at a variety of technical conferences. The conference to be held on Hilton Head was easy to justify from a business perspective.
I had kept Alan's card from last time. I had thought about sending him a message shortly after I got back home, but ended up deciding it would be better to just let it go. I thought about it for a week before deciding to contact him and let him know I would be coming back. I sent him an e-mail reminding him who I was and telling him the week the conference was going to occur. While I was not yet certain of the trip, I wanted to see if he was going to be around.
I got a reply the very next day which was very warm and inviting. His comments included "of course I remember you!" and it would be great to see me again. However, he told me that he and his family had moved to New Jersey because his wife's mother was very ill and they wanted to be near her as it looked like she did not have that much longer to live. They had been there since winter and had bought a house and gotten jobs as they really had no idea how long they would be there. Alan was doing massages at one of the fancy New York Hotels and his wife was working as a nurse.
I replied to Alan I was glad to hear from him and explained I come to New York from time to time (which was true). I would let him know when I was coming back that way, but I wondered whether this was just a good reason to just forget the urge and keep it part of my memories.
A few months later I needed to visit a supplier in New Jersey. With Alan working out of New York City, I wasn't sure if I could work it out or not. I sent another message telling Alan I would be coming and some of the travel details so he would know what time constraints I had. He seemed enthused and mentioned the hotel he was working at so I could get an appointment, but he gave me another option if it was more convenient.
He lived about 30 minutes from New York and had been doing massages at his home on days he was not working in the city. He was leaving it my choice, but doing it out of the house would be less costly as he only gets a fraction of the money they charge at the hotel. I wondered how it would work out with his wife being around. As if he had read my mind, the next comment in his message mentioned he was not sure what day my schedule would allow, but his wife worked long shifts on Wednesday and Thursday. It seemed he was hoping I would pick one of those days, but he also said the other days would be fine and he was sure we could work something out.
After looking at the map, it would be much easier for me to do the massage out of the house rather than going through New York City. I don't know if he thought I was trying to save money, but I do well financially and money did not enter into the choice at all. I decided to fly out in the morning, meet with my customer for a couple of hours that same afternoon, have the obligatory dinner and then finish our business the next morning. After all this complicated scheduling mess, I told Alan I thought I could get out to his place on Wednesday afternoon. He thought that would be great and would plan to finish up early and meet me.
It was a really hot day, perhaps about 90 degrees and humid, but no surprise in the middle of June. I finished my meetings and went back to my hotel to change and check out. I was wearing beige shorts and a lightweight white tank top; it probably looked like I was going to go out to the golf course. I had arranged a late checkout and the timing was really working out well.
To say I was anticipating meeting him again would be an understatement. I wondered whether I would feel the same way. During the drive to Alan's house, I had all kinds of mixed feelings and guilt again, but also I was getting horny. It was the forbidden aspect that was intriguing, knowing there was a strong chance we would end up having sex, but also the safety of him being a known quantity without any strings or implications.
I got on the road for what would be about an hour drive. I arrived around 3:30 pm and walked up to the door. Alan's house was in a nice middle class neighborhood, something close to what I grew up in. They had a nicely kept up colonial and from an attitude and environment aspect, so far so good for my "nervous factor."
I was surprised when the door was answered by a young man who looked to be in his early 20's.
"Hi, you must be Beth. I'm AJ, come on in."
"Nice to meet you."
He told me his Dad was running late. He got backed up at the spa and he would arrive in about an hour. He was very apologetic on his father's behalf, but I realized it was my own fault. Alan had no way to contact me to let me know as I had not given out my cell phone number.
AJ said his Dad had hoped I would wait, but he would understand if I did not have time. I felt really dumb. Somehow when you imagine these things it always works out smoothly and I had not thought about dumb things such as traffic or delays. AJ said his Dad had called about 5 minutes ago, and he would call again when he was ready to leave.
I was a little disoriented and I tried to think. I noticed my surroundings while I thought about my options. There were several pictures around the house and I saw one with Alan and his nice looking family. His wife looked to be in her 50's; you could tell she had been very pretty in her day. It looked like AJ was the baby of the family as the other son looked to be in his 30's.
I was good on time. Really I had nothing else going on, so I decided to wait for Alan. AJ had answered the door in a pair of shorts and a flowing baggy silk shirt. He said he had been out vacuuming the swimming pool and said his dad wanted me to be comfortable. He could turn on the TV or some music.
He also said I was welcome to use the pool and asked if I had a bathing suit. It just so happened I had a couple of bathing suits in my bag. This was my 'emergency kit' in case Alan's wife was there. I trusted what Alan had told me, but what if she was home sick that day? I thought to wear a bikini for at least the start of the massage this time to give me the option of control if I ended up deciding I only wanted a massage. Who knows, maybe I would not have the same attitude the second time around. With an hour to kill, I thought getting some sun would be a great idea, so I thanked AJ for the option of using the pool.