I was so sick and tired of hearing the same old line time and time again, "I like you as a friend".
Not popular with the guys while in school, I almost gave up on men completely. I even announced to family and friends that I didn't ever want to marry. Give me a condo or a townhouse and I'll be myself a dog and I'm all set. I don't need a man in my life.
Most of my friends were always dating and getting laid and going out with their guys or just fucking any guy that would put their cock in their cunt. I had all types of friends and then I had a few that weren't into that scene, some were gay or lesbians and I loved them just the same.
I always felt the the odd man out when it came to going out and they did ask me on occasion to join them and I didn't always accept. Most Saturday nights were spend in the privacy room and then my condo with my two favorite guys - Jack and Jim. Well, my two guys were Jack Daniels and Jim Beam. They got me through some tough times. They heard me laugh and they heard me cry. I just couldn't get enough of those guys. I could have become a real full blown drunk but I knew when to stop and I never drove drunk.
When I first got my condo which as two bedrooms besides mine, I would have parties and party crashers out in my spare rooms with their date or boyfriend/girlfriend. I never minded much but then they I guess got tired of the same old same old and went out more. I met this great guy so I thought through a friend and we hit it off. My first real guy. We did everything together and we were soon falling for each other and talked about of all things - marriage. I told him I swore it off because of the way my life was headed when it came to men and he told me how glad he was able to get me out of my funk and I was glad too.
I was a bridesmaid or maid of honor for a few friends and now it was my time to be the bride and get back some of what I have been doing for them all these years. I through bridal showers, engagement parties and I was good at it. I guess I was swept off my feet and thought that my life would be good.
We were married and had a great marriage, so I thought until he start hanging out with a few guys that frequented strip and go-go clubs. I know he did this before me and I never had a problem with him going, but it became more frequent and costly. We found out after a year that we wouldn't be able to have children. My plumbing was not up to par. I never knew this and we always engaged in safe sex while dating and enjoyed condom and birth control free sex after we were married. We had a lot of fun trying and it just wasn't happening.