Chapter 2
I woke up on the couch and didn't see my husband anywhere. I was still naked and smelled of round after round of sex; musty and dirty. It brought a smile to my face but I went upstairs to shower.
I picked up my clothes and my shoes and carried them up the stairs and went directly into the bathroom, barely sparing a glance to the bedroom. My husband was in the bed, but he didn't stir and I didn't speak
I threw my clothes into the hamper and turned on the water, turning it all the way to hot. I used the bathroom while waiting for the water to heat up. When it did, the steam immediately filled the bathroom. I put my hand under the spray and adjusted the water until it was hot but a heat I could tolerate.
I climbed in the shower, pulling the curtain shut, and just stood there for a moment letting the hot water wash over me, feeling the sweat and cum running off me while at the same time feeling my pores opening up. As I stood there, I let the previous evening fill my mind.
I had been out of control. I had never been that farout of control and I had never liked sex as much. No, I had not liked it. I had loved it.
I had never been with a black guy before. In reality, I had only been with my husband and before him only one other guy. Neither had been as big as the smallest of the black guys. Neither had been as confident or as aggressive as the black guys. Neither had made me feel like those black guys had made me feel.
I soaped up, concentrating on my sore pussy and my tits, the areas that had been most violated the night before. I smiled at the internal thought of the word violated. It made me tingle to think of it.
After I finished my shower, which also included several minutes of letting my fingers explorer my tingling pussy while I thought of being fucked the night before. Over and over I saw everyone at the bar watching me as black guy after black guy stuffed me from behind as my finger touched my clitoris.
Finally showered and dry, I went to our bedroom to get clothes. I didn't even look into my dresser for panties, but went right to my closet. I looked at jeans and other pants and skirts and a couple of dresses, but nothing struck me, so I finally went to my dresser. I opened the second drawer, again bypassing the panties, and took out a pair of white micro-shorts.
I slipped my feet in and pulled them up, shimmying my ass to get them over the swell of my hips. I pulled them up tight, feeling them pressing against my swollen lips. I then opened my third drawer and tok out a white corset/bustier top that cradled my large tits, holding them erect and high. Top drawer. A pair of thigh highs with lace at the top. Closet. White hooker heels.
I looked in the mirror and I did indeed look like a hooker, but I smiled at the thought.
"Are you actually wearing that?" my husband said behind me. Obviously I had awakened hinm getting dressed and I guess now was as good a time as any for the argument we were going to have.
I shrugged my shoulders as I began to brush my hair.
"What were you thinking last night? I know you were drunk, but what the hell was that?" he demanded.
I didn't answer, or really even notice he had spoken to me. I just walked out of the room and down the stairs, with him trailing behind me demanding that I talk to him. I was in no mood to talk. I was in the mood to be fucked. And, when I looked at him, I didn't want to be fucked by him, so I picked up the car keys off the end table and walked out the front door leaving him standing there unable to follow. He was wrapped in a blanket yelling for me to come back.
I backed out and drove away with him standing helplessly at the front door.
I was excited, but I didn't know why. I had no plans. I wanted to be fucked by them again, but had no idea where to find them. I knew I would be at the same bar tonight, but had no idea what I would do until then.
I drove around for a couple of hours and everytime I stopped the car, I hesitated getting out. I knew I was dressed like a whore and I felt amazing but I also knew how inappropriate my attire as for most situations. I knew if I was in a group of black guys I would feel amazing and empowered but in every other circumstance I would feel embarrassed.
So, I eventually just went home.
My husband was out on the deck sitting in the hot sun, shirtless, with a beer in hand. Even though it was only 11 am he had already had a few apparently. He seemed sullen when I walked out on the deck.
I expected angry, hurt, or any variety of emotions but not the apathetic, resigned man I was looking at. I think that is the moment my contempt for him began.
I walked out onto the deck and sat down opposite him. I looked at him for a moment, appraising him from head to toe and he seemed like a beaten man.
"So, about last night..." I began.
"You acted like a slut and rubbed it in my face" he spat back at me.
"I did...I don't know why. I enjoyed the flirting and one thing led to another." I began to explain.
"One thing led to another?" he shouted. "One thing led to you doing a public gangbang with a bunch of black guys and then fucking them while I had to watch?"
"You didn't have to watch." I said sarcastically.
"No, fuck you. If it bothered you so much, why didn't you stop it. You could have stopped it at the bar instead of being a little pussy and leaving." I shot venom at him. "Maybe you could have fought for me."
"Is that what you wanted?" he asked.
"No, I started out just liking the attention but when I felt his hands pulling my pants down from behind while I was in full view of everyone, I did exactly what I wanted." I explained. "I was down for anything they wanted as soon as I felt his cock sliding into me. It actually turned me on when you left."
"Why are you dressed like a whore today?" he asked.
"I went looking for them. But, I don't know where to look. I guess I'll go back to that bar tonight." I said nonchalantly.
"Like hell you will" he exclaimed. "You aren't going anywhere tonight."
"You think YOU"RE going to stop me?" I asked mockingly.
Suddenly, he shot up from the chair and pushed me in the door to the house, pining me against the wall. His hand shot to my face and as he pulled close, I could smell the beer on his breath. As his lips got close to mine he seethed "you are going to stay home with me tonight."
My knee shot up into his groin and as he doubled over I said "No, I am going out to find someone to fuck. Hopefully that same bunch of black guys."
I walked out and back to the car leaving him in agony in the kitchen.
Once I left the house and calmed down, I was in a bit of a quandary. I still felt as out of place in the clothes I was wearing as I had earlier and it was hours until the bar opened. I only knew one thing. I wanted cock and I wanted it badly.
I simply drove around, trying to find somewhere that I could go where I would feel comfortable, but never having the nerve to go in anywhere. Even the places that I normally hung out held fear and trepidation knowing that I was dressed too provocatively.
After a time, I found myself driving through downtown Wilmington, Delaware. It was about thirty minutes from my house, but seemed a completely different world. I decided to get lunch so I parked near Trolley Square in a parking garage and headed to MLK Boulevard on foot.
As I headed to the elevator to get to street level I passed several people. Most of them were business people dressed for work obviously going to lunch. The couple of women that I passed looked at me as if I were a prostitute and took a wide berth, but I noticed every man looking at me, most trying to obfuscate the fact that they were looking.
When I saw someone looking, I exaggerated my prostitute walk, making my tits bounce and my ass swing wildly. Most turned their heads so as to not be caught looking, but a few were honest enough to let me see them looking. Only one, however, looked me in the eye making contact after my display.
He was, of course, a black guy. He was wearing a pair of baggy, black athletic shorts and a very baggy white T-shirt. He looked me in the eye and maintained the gaze as I looked intently at him, a little smile crossing my lips.
I watched as his eyes moved up and down my barely covered body and when his gaze returned to my eys I smiled briefly as I stopped, allowing him a moment to gather his thoughts. Then I began to walk, albeit very slowly and provocatively
After the night before, I had this image of every black guy having an enormous cock and I pictured what he must have in my mind as I walked, my ass swaying explicitly for him. I slid my hand around to the elastic of my shorts and pulled them down just a bit in the back, hopefully revealing just a hint of my crack but definitely expressing an invitation.
"Hey" he said in a deep, rumbling baritone voice that seemed to emanate from a hidden subwoofer somewhere. "Where are you headed?"
I didn't say a word. I just pranced slowly away, giving him time and an implied invitation to follow.
He did, staying just slightly behind me.
"Are you staring at my ass?" I asked after a few steps.
"Yes I am" he said musically,