I sat in the back, trying to be invisible. I had worked late the night before and got up early that morning. The lecture hall was warm but I kept my coat on and flipped up the hood. Why did I think an 8am class was a good idea? People started trickling in a little at a time, and I began to tell each of their stories in my mind. Nerd. Loser. Pot head. Campus slut. Oh my gosh... serial killer? Jock. Total fuckin' hottie! Wow! I sat up in my chair a bit. He sauntered in like a supermodel. Hair still damp- fresh out of the shower. How was he not cold? Hmph, I'll warm you up, boo...with your fine ass.
"Welcome to Introduction to Economics, my name is Anil Patel. Please come and pick up a syllabus if you have not already done so."
Yeah, I knew better about the syllabus. I had peeped them on the way in and grabbed mine. The hottie had perched his sexiness two rows in front of me. I watched him as he scrolled through his phone and flipped through the syllabus. The lecture was long and boring. Professor Patel dove right into the deep end, assigning two chapters from the jump. Ugh.
"Everyone needs to grab a partner before you leave today. This person will be your accountability partner. Exchange telephone numbers and emails. Meet with them at least once a week to study and check in. I have found that students are much more successful if they have a buddy to help them through the class. That's all for today. See you all Thursday morning."
I felt like running down there and sitting on Hottie's lap crying 'pick me, pick me!' But to my surprise he stood up, turned around and fixed his eyes right on mine and smiled. "Got a partner yet?" I resisted the natural instinct to look over my shoulder to see who he could have possibly been talking to- I remembered I was sitting in the last row in the back of the room.
"Nope not yet" I raised my eyebrows a little as if to convey 'we might as well' when I was really thinking 'peel my panties off, please.'
"Marc." He stepped up to my row and extended his hand. "I saw you in the registrar's office yesterday and I thought you looked smart" he shrugged. He saw me? How did I miss him? I gave Marc a coy smile. "Jada. Give me your number and I'll text you."
"Yeah, it's 443-324-4556." Brrrp-brrrp.
"Okay, cool. Saving... it... right... now."
"Do you have another class right now? Wanna get breakfast?"
"Umm, no I'm free 'til this afternoon and I'm starving, so sure." And just like that we started talking and getting to know each other. Marc was the youngest of three brothers. He played football. His family was from Arkansas. He had never been around this many black people before. He admitted he watched me from a distance in the registrar's office a few days before. He'd been fascinated with my very dark complexion and wondered if I had butt injections. I assured him I was all natural and owed my deeply hued skin to my Sudanese grandmother. We sat in the cafeteria for over 2 hours laughing and talking. When we finally parted ways, we had already planned our first study session in the library the next day. And I could not wait.
Wednesday after my classes I met Marc in the library. He had reserved a study room for us on the 4th floor. We actually studied. I watched as he furrowed his brow and brushed back his dirty blonde hair when we got to the hard stuff. He huffed in frustration and leaned back in his chair. His massive biceps bulged under his shirt. I had trouble concentrating. We worked through all the assignments, glancing at each other periodically. A quiet tension began to build. I shifted in my seat and bit my bottom lip.
"Fuck. Your lips look so luscious." Before I could respond Marc had slid his chair over, cupped my face in both of his hands, and pressed his mouth into mine ever so gently. I melted into him, barely breathing. His warm, soft tongue probed entry and I engulfed him with my own tongue more forcefully. Books and pens went crashing onto the floor, I slid on the papers under me as he lifted my bottom onto the table. I promptly encircled his rock solid body with my legs and pulled him in closer.
A rigid bulge pressed into my body and my breath hitched. I wanted him then and there, but we were interrupted by a knock at the door. Startled, we both froze and glanced toward the door. He lifted his head, and I noticed his hand had found my left breast. I had a fist full of his hair in my hand.
"Hello? We have a meeting starting here soon" a man's voice said.
Great. Beautiful timing you cock blocker! Me and Marc were panting and refused to move from our embrace. "Sure man, we're just packing up. Be right out." Marc closed his eyes in frustration and took a deep steadying breath. "Jada," he whispered against my neck, "My apartment is just off campus, and I really need to finish... studying with you."
"Mmkay'' I immediately responded. A grin spread across his gorgeous face. We composed ourselves quickly and headed downstairs and right out the door. I didn't feel the cold outside because I was on fire. I never imagined I would be in this situation with a guy my first week of college. I had planned on staying celebate for a while.
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I had just lost my virginity a year before with my high school friend Nathan. It was a little awkward and over very fast. Definitely not how I had imagined. After that, I looked at every attractive guy and wondered if they were all lousy lovers like Nathan. It was so disappointing because I thought Nathan had some experience. Lots of girls liked him, he dated some of them. But, he clearly needed more practice.
Me and Nathan had known each other since middle school. He lived across the street from me. We always walked to the bus together and our parents talked sometimes. We clicked from day one. He was like a cool older brother, even though we were the same age. I never thought he would like me as more than a friend because he was always messing with really light-skinned black girls or white girls. In high school, he started asking me what I thought about this girl or that one, "What the hell do I look like, your damn matchmaker?" I asked him. We laughed about it, and I proceeded to give my opinion every time. Around May of our senior year, he asked me why I never messed with anyone, I told him "because all you guys want is to bang a girl and then you're done with her. I don't want anybody using me like that. Plus, I'm a virgin and I don't want my first time to be with someone who doesn't care anything about me. He needs to be a good friend." When I said it, Nathan raised his eyebrows like he was thinking and said "hmm."
I eyed him suspiciously. "Really?"
He laughed and shrugged. "I mean think about it though Jada. It makes perfect sense. I'm already like your brother...no wait..."
"Ew! That don't even sound right, that's freakin' incest you dirty motherfucker!"
"Naw, naw... you know what I mean J, we're cool with each other. We're already good friends and you know you can trust me. Seriously think about it."
I looked him up and down playfully. "You ain't my type."