As we walked away from the courthouse, heads held high, I felt a sense of relief. Rose was being sentenced at this very moment. I'd grabbed Shavonda and split with my dark-skinned beauty because I'd seen enough. All the pain Rose had caused to everybody close to her, and I still got the feeling she didn't get it. Rose didn't get just what a disaster her blind hatred of us had caused. She'd gambled everything on breaking us apart and failed. We were still standing, married, stronger than ever. But everything else around her had crumbled. It was such a waste. So much time, stress and money wasted for what? A pointless exercise in self-destruction?
We walked up Grant Street to the busway, and got on a bus to Wilkinsburg, where we'd parked the car. We'd left Althea comforting Barbara in the courtroom. I hoped they were okay, but I was so stressed right now, I couldn't even eat. So, we'd passed up our traditional lunch downtown at Villa Reale. We waited at the old train station for the bus, and rode it east. Though it was standing room only, somebody took pity on Shavonda, who was now in her 24th week of pregnancy, and gave up their seat for her.
We got off at the park n ride, quickly finding the Cruze among the sea of parked cars. Shavonda was on the phone. Calling her mother, no doubt. I really wasn't paying attention to her conversation, being lost in my own world.
"Mama says Rose got 12 to 20," Shavonda told me as she hung up the phone. "They took her into custody right there. She's gone. Barbara is a mess. Althea's bringing her by the house. She shouldn't be alone."
Great! But what if I wanted to be alone? I needed to calm down. I wasn't angry, just upset. I'd seen enough misery to last me a lifetime. Rose's mother Barbara in tears, faced with the loss of her daughter. Brittany and Ethan losing their mother. Though they didn't know it yet, last weekend was the last one they'd spend with their mother. In 12 years, Brittany would be 18, Ethan 16. It didn't have to be that way. Now we'd have to pick up the pieces.
It wasn't like we didn't know this day was coming. I'd actually been happy when Rose had been arrested after trashing Shavonda's shop. I'd been ecstatic when family court awarded the kids to us, first on an emergency basis, then permanently. I'd even been relieved when Rose had taken the plea deal. But the sentencing hearing was different. This was playing for keeps. I'd gone in this morning with my queen, intending to ask the court to throw the book at Rose. I'd even had a prepared statement to read, just as Shavonda had. But in the end, Rose was the woman I'd been married to for six years. And try as I might, as I contemplated the misery around me I couldn't ask them for that. In the end, I had asked the court to get Rose some mental health care. I hoped she'd get it, that they'd listened to my plea. In the end, after all we'd been through, I had forgiven Rose.
I headed for the day care to pick up the kids. We were picking them up early today, for neither of us was working. Arriving there, we quickly strapped them into their car seats and headed back across town to our home. Traffic was rather light for midafternoon, we'd beaten the start of rush hour traffic and were home by 3:15. Althea had already arrived with Barbara. Since she had the key, she'd gone in the house and made tea for a distraught Barbara. The kids were glad to see her, and bounded up the steps shouting, "Grandma!"
Barbara smiled and gave them each a hug, before pulling Ethan on her knee. Shavonda and I sat on folding wooden chairs she'd had on her porch forever. She put her feet in my lap and I instinctively unstrapped her sandals, rubbing her feet.
"Don't worry," I told Barbara. "You won't lose the kids. Von and I have discussed this, and we want to transfer Rose's visitation schedule to you. You can have them every other weekend, and you're welcome to visit them here any time." That seemed to ease her mind a little. But there was still something bothering her.
"Rose told me you won't take the kids to visit her," Barbara stated. I nodded my head, not sure what to say.
"He can't," Althea defended me. "State prison rules won't allow victims to visit convicts. He has a good heart, and if he could I'm sure he would."
"I didn't know that," Barbara said softly. "Rose made it sound like you were doing it out of spite."
"You heard the statement I just gave the court," I replied. "Did I sound spiteful to you?" Barbara shook her head no.
Althea had the solution. "He can't, Barbara, but you can. Jason and Von have given you Rose's visitation rights. That means you have full control of the babies when you have them. What's to stop you from taking them to see their mother? You have no restrictions on visiting her."
"I don't know," Barbara said sadly. "I don't know if I can bear to see her locked up like that. In spite of what she did, she's still my daughter."
"Ms. Barbara, that's a decision you have to make," Shavonda said respectfully. "We can't make it for you. But we will be behind you whatever you decide. You can stay here for a few days if it will make you feel better. We won't turn you away. Jason's birthday is tomorrow and we're having a party. We want you to come. And, even though it isn't Rose's week to have them, you can take the kids this weekend, unless you decide to stay here. Whatever you decide, know that our family will be there when you need us."
I gently lowered Shavonda's legs to the floor and got up. Walking to the kitchen, I found the bottle of black cherry rum we had left over from the honeymoon. It had sat untouched for two and a half months, because Shavonda couldn't drink during her pregnancy, and I didn't want to touch it without her sharing it. I made a stiff drink for Barbara with the Dr. Pepper we had on hand, and brought it to her.