Author's note: This story follows the events of several other stories I've written. It can be read as a standalone installment but makes some references to a few of my earlier stories.
If you don't want to read any of my previous stories (boo), then here's what you need to know in order to enjoy this one:
My name is Lola, and I'm a half-Asian girl with big tits and serious daddy issues. My dad is white, and we've been estranged since I was 18, so I mostly fuck older white guys as a way to fill the void he left in my life (or so my therapist says). I have major submissive tendencies that are triggered by aggressive, big-dick alpha males who act like they own me.
I'm in my late-20s now, but this story takes place the summer after I graduated from college.
Hugs,
Lola
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"Ladies and gentlemen, this is your captain speaking. We've begun our descent into San Francisco and should you on the ground in about 20 minutes."
I shifted in my seat, looking out the window at the California coastline below. Although it was a short flight from LAX, I was beyond antsy to touch down. That's because two things were waiting for me on the ground at SFO: my best friend, Marcy, and my boyfriend, Chase.
Almost three months had passed since I'd graduated from USC. I was still living in LA, and while I hadn't found a permanent job yet, I was teaching private tennis lessons during the day and hostessing at a nightclub on the weekends. The money wasn't great, especially by LA standards, but it was enough to cover my rent at the little sublet I'd found near the USC campus. Fortunately, I didn't have many expenses other than rent and groceries because Chase had paid for almost everything else.
I'd been with Chase ever since our explosive hookup at the end of the school year. Unlike me, Chase wasn't a recent college grad struggling to pay the bills. He was in his 30s, a high-powered software salesmen for a successful startup. The downside of his job was that he traveled a lot for work, so I rarely got to see him during the week. But the upside was that he made a shitload of money, which he used to make sure that I was taken care of even when he wasn't around. If I texted him that I was hungry, he would have sushi delivered to my apartment for lunch. If I said that I was bored, he would Venmo me $200 and tell me go out and buy something sexy. When I complained that I couldn't use the USC fitness center to work out now that I had graduated, he got me a membership to Equinox.
To a mostly-broke 22-year-old girl, this felt almost like magic: I wished for something, and within minutes--poof! There it was. But for a girl who had been without a father since she turned 18, it was even more intoxicating than magic. Because for the first time in my adult life, it felt like I had someone who could take care of me.
Don't get me wrong: I love my mom, and I know she will always have my back. But she's a single mother with two kids, one of whom is still in high school and lives at home with her. She's also a Korean immigrant who--despite being fluent in English and having lived in this country for more than 20 years--still struggles to navigate many aspects of American society. I'm thankful for everything she did to raise me, but you have to understand that when I left for college, I promised myself that I would never be a burden to her. When it comes to taking care of me, she's the last person I would ask for help.
And why would I ever ask her for help when I had a handsome, older guy with a big dick delivering chirashi to my apartment on GrubHub?
After spoiling me gifts all week long, Chase would return to LA on Friday nights, and then it was my turn to spoil him.
He knew from our first hookup that I liked to tease, so he made a habit of showing up at the nightclub where I worked on the weekends. He would enter quietly and pretend not to know me, watching from the bar as other men would approach me at the hostess stand. They would flirt with me, trying to get my number or coax me out onto the dance floor with them. I would smile demurely as these men ran game on me, gently removing their hands from my waist or lower back when they tried to get frisky. All the while, I could feel Chase's eyes on me, watching me perform for him as other men vied for my body. And then, just as my shift ended, Chase would walk up to the hostess stand, drape his arm around my waist without saying a word, and escort me to a car waiting outside.
As the car drove us towards whichever expensive hotel he had booked for that night, Chase would lift me onto his lap, my legs straddling his waist. He would begin pawing at my black contour dress, pulling the shoulders down, trying to expose my big, soft tits.
"Chase, baby, the driver," I would whisper, protesting even as my body betrayed me. "We're not alone..."
But he wouldn't stop, and I wouldn't dream of stopping him. Within moments, my full, round tits would be out, both nipples engorged and slick with Chase's saliva.
"Oh, godddddd," I would moan softly, bucking my hips uncontrollably, grinding myself against him as he licked and sucked my nipples luridly in the backseat. "Ohhhhhh Chase..."
Between moans, I would glance over my shoulder, making eye contact with the driver as he stole long, lascivious glances at me. I could see in his eyes how badly he wanted to see my bare tits instead of my bare back.
"Baby, he's watching us," I would whisper, turning back towards Chase. "He's watching what you're doing to me..." But this never deterred him.
Soon, we would arrive at the hotel, and I would tuck my tits back into my dress before dismounting Chase. Then, avoiding eye contact with the driver, I would climb out of the car, and Chase would usher me through the lobby and into an elevator. By the time we reached the hotel room, I would be in some state of partial undress, Chase's hands barely disengaging from my body long enough to unlock the door. Then, once it clicked shut behind us, the very last vestiges of his decorum would disappear. Every weekend, he would push me onto a different hotel bed and fuck me like it was his last night as a free man. And every weekend, I would give him absolutely everything that my taut, tanned, tennis-toned body had to offer.
My thoughts lingered on Chase as I disembarked the plane, my nipples hardening visibly against my top as memories of torrid, sex-drunk nights mixed with the cold, sterile air recirculating through SFO.
Sex with Chase was beyond anything I'd experienced before, but I still couldn't put my finger on exactly what made it so intense. If you've read my previous stories, then you know that I've had plenty of wild nights, some of which involved more than one man. I've been with older guys and younger guys, white guys and Black guys, athletes and Marines and college professors. I've cum so many times for so many different men, yet there something undeniably different about the way it felt when Chase pushed my over the edge. But why?
My therapist says that I feed on male validation, and because of this, I often lose myself inside the fantasies of aggressive men. It's almost as if their lust is a contagion that infects me, a parasite that invades the reward systems inside my brain and rewires my drives to align with its own. Even with my submissive tendencies, I sometimes feel that my body is just a host for male desire, and that I am just a fuck puppet being remotely operated by a dominant man.
With other dominant men, my submission felt somehow inevitable, as if I were being compelled by some dark force to give them what they wanted. From the very first time I had sex, these men had conditioned me to enjoy being conquered, to revel in my own ravishment as they claimed me. But being with Chase didn't feel like that. He fucked me with the same aggressive, big dick dominance that I had come to crave, for perhaps the first time, I felt complete agency over my submission, like it was a gift I was giving to him rather than something he was taking from me. There was a freedom in submitting to him because, despite how violently he fucked me, I trusted him with my body.
And yet, despite that trust, I still felt a gnawing sense of insecurity about him. Because even though we were having sweaty, urgent, mind-blowing sex every weekend, we hadn't actually talked about what our relationship was. I'd been extremely hesitant to have "the talk" with him, and there were a variety of reasons for that.
Some of this was just down to normal male-female power dynamics. As the man in our relationship, I thought Chase should be the one to initiate this conversation, especially since he was more than 10 years older than me.
In addition, I was nervous about appearing needy or clingy, which was something I'd never had to deal with before. In the past, I was always the one being pursued, so I'd never had to worry about liking a guy more than he liked me. But the thing was, I actually did like Chase. In a lot of ways, he seemed like just the guy I'd been waiting for.
He was a catch in all of the obvious ways: tall, handsome, and athletic, plus well-educated, professionally accomplished, and a very high earner. But he was exactly my type in all of the less obvious ways: a dominant and charismatic, sexually aggressive, and exceptionally well-hung. Chase was the closest thing I'd found to my ideal alpha male, the rightful heir to my body, deserving of all the exquisite pleasure I could give him.