"All ready!" I said, slamming the car door for good measure.
"Are you sure that's everything that you're gonna need, Love?" Mama asked me, tearing up.
"I'm pretty sure," I said, wrapping my arms tightly around her, "I'm gonna miss you so much!"
I had played the way this day should go several times in my head. Never once did I expect my heart to feel like it was getting ripped out of my chest.
"I'm gonna miss you, too, Ren," she said, kissing my forehead, "It's going to be so weird not having my baby around!"
I felt sorry for my mom... First, she lost Dillon, now, it was my turn. If there was anything left in this town for me, I would have stayed. James came outside, giving me a hug. "Good luck, Ren," he said, nodding in my direction after releasing me.
"Don't worry, Coach...Miss Laura... I'll take good care of Lauren," Logan said, pulling me close and kissing my temple.
"That's what I'm afraid of," James grumbled under his breath. As much as he acted like he hated the fact that Logan and I were together, he knew I'd be safe with him. Logan flashed him a broad smile as if he didn't hear him, though I know damn well that he did.
Logan walked over to James and extended his hand. James took it. "Good luck, Chadwick... You're gonna do great, you're one helluva quarterback and it's gonna be harder'n hell to fill your shoes," he said, shaking it, "but I swear to God, if you hurt my daughter in any way... I'll murder you."
"Dad!" I squealed in embarrassment. This was so unreal.
Logan nodded and took it in stride, "I understand, Sir."
We hopped into our vehicles and began the hour-long drive to Norman. We had barely been out of high school for two weeks and here we were: driving to school. I always knew that I'd be taking Summer classes but when I mentioned it to Logan, he looked at me as if I'd lost my mind. When it became obvious that I was going early with or without him, he decided to enroll in some as well.
It also didn't hurt that I did the math: If we did six hours a Summer for four years, we could knock two semesters off total. It would be tough but if things went according to plan, it would definitely be rewarding.
After about twenty minutes into the drive, my phone began to ring. I pulled it out and looked at it: Logan.
"Hello?" I answered after putting him on speaker.
"I can't wait to get there so we can break in our new apartment," his voice growled into my ear. I felt shivers up and down my spine.
"Well, you're gonna have to wait," I said simply, ignoring everything that my body was screaming at me, "I still have to unpack." Just because I knew that I was full of shit didn't mean that he had to.
I couldn't help but think that I was making a mistake by moving in with Logan but I had a full ride scholarship, including my choice of on-campus housing or a stipend just in case things didn't work out. Right now, I'm taking the stipend.
"Babe, you have all summer to unpack," he whined.
"No, I have all weekend," I corrected him, "Classes start on Monday."
"Oh yeah," he said quietly, sounding a bit deflated. We had both signed up for English and History together but I was taking Math alone, since six credit hours was fulltime during the summer. It was gonna be hard enough to keep myself afloat this fall, let alone him. I would definitely hate to overload him before school really started.
"Well, the least you can do is unpack naked," he suggested, eliciting a laugh from deep within my being.
"Anyway, tell me about the new place!" I gushed excitedly. He wanted to surprise me and I only hoped that he didn't overdo it.
"All I can say is it's perfect and you're gonna love it... but I have to be honest, this is an apartment that my dad keeps in Norman so he would have somewhere to stay during football season," he confessed, I could almost see him flinching in my mind...
"Fine...," I grumbled. I was a little pissed off that he lied to me... anything of Kyle's was entirely beyond anything that I was used to.
"That's it?" he asked, surprised.
"Are you talking and driving, Logan?" I asked, raising an eyebrow.
"No, Lauren, I'm talking to you through Bluetooth," he replied, exasperatedly. I could almost hear his eyes rolling from his end of the line.
"Don't take that tone with me, Logan Randall Chadwick!" I huffed, "You can't be mad at me just because I care. I could be one of those bitches who don't give a damn."
"You're right, Babe... I'm sorry," he said apologetically, "Though I would love to make it up to you when we get to our destination."
I rolled my eyes. "I'm gonna hang up so you can focus on the road... Horn Dog," I said, hanging up the phone.
~*~*~*~
"Welcome home," Logan said, unlocking the door and opening it for me. When we were pulling up to the complex, I sighed, recalling that I had told him that I wanted to live somewhere that was homey and not flashy... Then, I remembered that his idea of homey was flashy. I looked around the pre-furnished living room and realized that this place gave me more of a condo vibe than an apartment.
The living room had a beige sectional with a matching ottoman... there was a large television mounted on the wall and a glass coffee table in the center of the room. There were shiny hardwood floors and a chandelier over the small, modern dining room table. The kitchen had countertops that were dark and expensive-looking with stainless steel appliances.
The main bathroom was a descent size with a Jacuzzi tub. It was stylishly decorated in red and black. The guest bedroom was simple and chic complete with a full-sized cherry wood sleigh bed and a matching dresser. When we got to 'our' bedroom, I nearly pissed myself. Inside was a black platform bed that was on a platform complete with a sheer canopy. Across the way, there was another mounted television. My heart thudded in my chest when I realized that there were His and Her walk-in closets as well. In the master bath, there was a seamless, glass shower with another Jacuzzi tub and double sink.
I stood in the middle of 'our' bedroom at a loss for words... What the hell was I doing here? I was a low maintenance, non-spoiled, grounded country girl from a small town... This wasn't me and I didn't like it at all.
Logan watched as several emotions passed over my face and when I still hadn't said anything minutes later, he took it upon himself to make speak the first words:
"So, what do you think?" he asked, looking around.
"It's beautiful," I said quietly.
"...but," he pressed. He could tell something was up.
"It's not me," I said simply.
"It will be," he said, walking over to me an pulling me into his strong arms, flush against his hard body, "You deserve the best and I fully intend on giving it to you."
"It's not yours to give," I whispered.