DISCLAIMER: This is the second part of a longer story. For the best reading experience, start this story at the beginning. The story contains plenty of sex, but this chapter does not. If you appreciate stories that build, you may like this. If you want a quick read, this may not be for you.
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The days after the scandal broke were a blur, but the key events were my Dad resigning his professorship at the university and my Mom filing for divorce. Almost immediately, she announced that we were moving out of our family home despite my angry, tearful protests.
"Mom, you can't do this! I have a job, and school is going to start in a month. We can't move now!"
"Lola, we are not staying here. Not in this home and not in this town," she replied without looking at me as packed up a rented van with some meager possessions. "This is not a negotiation. Now help me with these boxes."
"This isn't fair! You can't take me away from St. Simon's, I'm about to be a senior. Don't do this to me!"
"Stop being a brat and help me pack."
I crossed my arms over my chest. "I want to see Dad."
"Don't you dare mention him to me." She turned towards me. Her eyes had narrow into hard, dark little crescents. "And don't you ever ask to see him. That is not going to happen."
I felt hot, angry tears slipping down my cheeks. "You can't do this to me," I whimpered.
My Mom turned to look at me. "Lola, let's get one thing perfectly clear. I am doing this for you."
"How the fuck is this for me?" I shot back.
My Mom sighed. She looked tired. "Do you know how old those girls were? Not much older than you are now, Lola." She walked towards me. "Even after all this, you still act like Daddy's little girl. But you're 18, aren't you, Lola? And we both know what your father thinks about 18-year-old girls."
My mouth dropped open, but at first, nothing came out.
"Dad never-he would never-"
"Don't tell me what he would never do, Lola." My Mom was standing just inches away from me now and I could see the veins in her neck pulsing as she spoke. Although I am 5 inches taller than my Mom, she seemed to tower over me in that moment. "I knew him better than you did-better than you ever will. I thought I knew what he was capable of, too." Her voice dropped to a low hiss. "But I was wrong. He betrayed us, Lola. You, your brother, and me. Not just once, but for years."
My mother's voice quavered as she turned away from me.
"I don't know anything anymore, Lo. I just know that I don't trust a man like that around my daughter."
She turned back to me. Her eyes were wet and the hardness in her voice was gone.
"Please, Lola." Her voice was pleading, exhausted. "You're 18, and I can't stop you, but please, don't go to see him. Don't pick up if he calls. For me, Lo." She took my hands in hers. "Don't let him hurt us anymore."
I felt frozen, unsure how to respond.
"Promise me." She was crying now, too. "Promise me you won't try to see him."
I swallowed hard. My face was streaked with dark, wet lines from the eyeliner running down my cheeks.
"Okay." I choked the words out from somewhere deep in my throat. "I won't, Mom. I promise."
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That is how, just weeks before the start of my senior year of high school, I found myself saying goodbye to my friends, my teachers, and the only home I had ever known. True to the promise my mother had extracted from me, I did not say goodbye to my father, whose sudden removal from my life haunted me like a phantom limb.
My mother, my brother, and I moved a few hours away to a small home in the suburbs outside Las Vegas, Nevada. We had no special connections to the city, but my Mom had managed to land a job there on short notice as an adjunct faculty member teaching Korean at the local community college.
Like my hometown, we moved into a neighborhood made up mostly of upper-middle class families. Compared to where I had grown up, however, our new community was extremely white. Our family-a Korean mother with two mixed race children-was definitely a novelty, made all the more unusual by my father's absence.