Hi everybody. My name is Jenifer, but all my friends call me Jeni.
I grew up in a small southern town with a population of around eight hundred. Although we lived in a small town, we were not totally isolated from the world with newspapers and the nightly news.
I did notice early on that all the arrests shown or reported were by people of some other race with a rare crime being committed by a white person. I never formed a prejudice opinion based on the news stories I had seen or read because I had never met anyone of a different race. At least I thought I didn't.
I am a five foot, seven inch tall blue-eyed 27 year old brunette with a 36C-24-36 build weighing about one hundred twenty five pounds. My hair hangs down to just above my hourglass waist - the kinds of features that attracted a lot of male attention.
While I was away at college I got a sudden urge to get more worldly experience, and so I decided after graduation to move to a city. I took a job thirteen hundred miles from my small-town home to a big city with over three million residents.
After a couple of months those prejudices I resist before really began to form, especially about the blacks. After picking up on the lingo on the street and hearing comments made at me like, "Dat biatch got a phat azz - shit!" or, "Dat white booty ripe for some dark tappin'". Before I knew it I had started hating black people because they just did not respect me enough to talk to me like a person. To them, I was just some 'sexy white bitch'.
I have been in the big city almost four years and the first few of them I was able to go home for Christmas. But because of a couple of financial set backs I couldn't go this year. And what happened this fateful Christmas is where my story begins.
The company I worked for closed between Christmas and New Years so I would be home for the holidays. My boyfriend was so sweet inviting me to his parents. He was leaving on the twentieth of December and would return on January third. I couldn't get the extra week off, so I was stuck in the big city alone for the holidays.
I was depressed about being alone for the holidays until a work friend invited me to a Christmas Eve dance. Brandi had just broken up with her boyfriend and wanted to 'get back in the game'. I tried to be polite and decline but she talked me into it with her gift of gab. "Come on, Jeni," Brandi said, "It'll give you more worldly experiences."
She didn't know how right she would be.
One night after work Brandi came over and we went through my clothes for an outfit to wear. She didn't find anything to her liking so we went shopping. She wanted to dress me in something 'festive' - and I couldn't believe what she wanted me to wear!
I ended up walking out of the store with a black micro mini-skirt with a red fur-lined top, a full two sizes too small. The lingerie consisted of a red lace bra with bikini panties, complete with matching garter belt and white fishnet stockings. The naughty getup was finished off by thigh high black leather boots with five inch stiletto heels.
When I first dressed in my new outfit I thought it looked absolutely slutty. When Brandi showed up to get me I told her so as she happily tied my hair in a pony tail with a green ribbon. I felt like a slutty elf.
"Are you kidding? You're cute - besides, new experiences right?" Brandi said. Her gift of persuasion soon had me putting on my trench coat and walking out the door on my way to the Christmas costume party. The thought of bringing condoms never crossed my mind without my boyfriend in town.
When we got to the club I was very nervous because we were about a half a block from abandoned buildings and the seedy side of our city. Brandi wasn't concerned at all. Once we had gotten inside I noticed a good-sized crowd, with people of all races mingling about in their own groups. My nerves tingled.
We mixed in with a larger group of the white people at the club, but I was still disappointed at not being able to go home for Christmas and so I wasn't very talkative. After a couple of drinks I slipped away from Brandi and her new friends. I'd try to forget my glumness on the dance floor.
The glitzy dance floor reflected the red and green lights flying across it and the bright colors of the dancers there. I finished my drink and joined the crowd. There was room to move but I kept getting bumped and brushed against. Finally growing tired of this I looked over my shoulder to notice it was all from a black man wearing reindeer antlers.
"Asshole," I muttered under my breath and left the dusky man behind.
Over the next couple of hours, every time I went to the dance floor the same man kept showing up and brushing against me. Finally I lost it. Next time he bumped into me I quickly turned and glared at him, "What is your fucking problem?"
"Hmmm?" His steely gaze locking onto mine, "Excuse me?"
"Why don't you move the fuck over there and stop bumping into me?"
"Bitch, what the fuck is your problem?"
"I don't associate with your kind," I said without thinking.
His steely gaze all of a sudden scared me making me feel submissive, "What
kind
? Human?"
"I...I didn't mean it to come out like that. I just meant..."
He grabbed me by the arm and dragged me toward a back door. In that moment I felt like I had to follow. And I did.
Once we were in the back alley he stared into my blue eyes, "You meant to say you don't associate with niggers, didn't you?"
I started shivering. Whether it was from freight or the cold I was not sure, "W-What? I don't know what you're talking about."
"I've seen that scared little look a million times. You're a racist bitch, aren't you?"
I tried to hide my face, "I am not!" I shivered again, "its cold. Can I go back inside now?"
"We aren't done talking." It wasn't a request. I can't explain the next couple of minutes even to myself because I had a chance to run, but I didn't.
"But it's cold out here," I whined instead, hugging my bare arms around myself.
"When you tell me why you hate niggers so much you can go, but not until then," He scowled down at me. He made me feel like a schoolgirl getting in trouble with her teacher.
"Can we at least find a warmer spot?" My teeth were starting to chatter.
"We can get in my car," he offered.
"Let me go and get my purse and coat. I'll meet you there. Which one is it?"
"That one," he pointed to a big black Escalade, "Are you going to run out on me?"
"I won't. I just have to tell my friend I'm going to go and grab my purse. I'll be right out."
"Okay. I'll warm up the car."