Saturday --
The next morning, I made some coffee and brought it to her in bed.
"So, anything happen on your walk?"
She looked away.
"Nothing...."
"Jaye, I saw you dancing. I know what he was doing to you at the table -- everyone there did! And I saw you on the picnic table. (She gasped) On top of that you had no panties on when you got back.
I can't believe I'm saying this, but it's all right with me if you have an adventure or even an affair while we are here. However, I expect you to return the trust by telling me the truth, not lying to me. Lying is cheating. Is that what you are doing?"
"No, no B! I'm sorry. It's all so new to me. I was embarrassed, ashamed at what I had done, and unsure of how you would take it. (She looked me straight in the eye) Even though you had told me I could. And I didn't want to say anything in front of Sheila and Paul!"
"Big deal! First, they know all about it, second, what you are up to is tame stuff compared to what they do!"
She was visibly upset.
"Do you want me to quit?"
"Do you want to?" She hung her head,
"I will if you want me to"
"I take that as a 'No' -- you don't want to quit.
"Jaye," I continued, "I have been embarrassed by what we are doing.
I would never have thought I would give you permission to have sex with another man or be as turned on as I am by seeing it start to happen.
I was also worried about you last night.
I feel cheated on and threatened by you lying.
But I have never been so turned on as the last four days, and I have never seen you more daring, sexy or beautiful. I have fallen totally in love with you again -- and become obsessed with the idea of you with someone else.
So, yes, I want you to continue. But, if we're going to play this farther, we need some rules."
"Wh.. What kind?"
"First, no running off by yourself -- it's too dangerous. I want to be there with you or at least close -- that's hard and fast." ("So I can watch," I admitted to myself.)
"Second, no secrets: if I do leave you alone for any reason, I want you to tell me everything that happens - the truth and the whole truth."
"And three, if you have sex with anyone other than me, they have to use a condom. We don't need either or both of us to die because of a one night stand. That's hard and fast."
"If you don't feel you can abide by these rules, then we've gone too far. Either quit or I leave tomorrow and start divorce proceedings."
Her eyes welled up with tears.
"I'm sorry B, I should have told you the truth! And yes, I'll follow every rule. I'll even quit now if you really want that!"
"What do you want to do?"
"I, I, I...."
"Then make damn sure you follow the rules!"
She broke into tears and fell into my arms. I cuddled her, but inside I again felt like someone had hit me in the gut -- I had again just told my wife to have sex with another man!
After a few minutes, though, my curiosity got the better of me.
"So, how did Samuel's hands feel on your breasts?"
Her mood instantly changed from scolded little girl to dreamy. Her eyes partially closed, and as she remembered the evening she softly stroked a breast.
"Wonderful! So strong and yet not rough! Just like I dreamed! When he would bend me over, I could look down inside my bib and see his Black hands on them! Now I understand why you like to watch us! It's so erotic! And sometimes he would pinch my nipples -- just hard enough!"
"What was going on at the table?" (The whole table knew, but I wanted to hear it from her.)
"He wanted me to go outside with him, but I wouldn't. I felt I couldn't trust myself. Then I felt his fingers slide my clit hood back and forth and then push into my pussy! They felt so good!
But what really turned me on was knowing that this was happening in front of those people and they knew what this Black stranger was doing to me and that I was allowing it. And, that you knew and weren't stopping it. I was excited and ashamed --(she looked at me) and a little angry at you. That was what convinced me to go outside with him: he was bringing me closer to climax and you weren't stopping it."
"Did you want me to stop you?"
"Yes. No. I don't know."
Eyes dreamy again: "Outside, he was soft and gentle but in charge, too. He had me sit on his lap and started fingering me again. I was so horny -- and so drunk -- I was ready to have sex with him and wanted it to!"
"After he made me cum, he wanted me on the table, but the orgasm had sobered me up a little and suddenly I was scared to actually do it. Then he wanted me to suck him off. I've never sucked any other man's cock except yours. But, he had been rubbing his hard on against me all evening and it felt so big! And then he pushed me to my knees and ordered me to take it out. Somehow, I couldn't refuse any more."
"I took it in my mouth and started to suck it and then I heard a scream. That broke the mood and I ran back to you."
Her eyes lost their dreamy look and narrowed onto me.)
"So I guess I violated Rule #1 but kept Rule #2."
"Do you still love me, Jaye?"