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Cian had been leaving Aidan to "babysit" me for months. Every time I asked him to take me somewhere or do something and he was busy he had one of his friend's take me and usually it was Aidan.
On one such evening Aidan and I were in my living room, he on the couch, me pacing a hole in the floor trying to get him to tell me the whereabouts of Cian. He just continued to smirk at me as I asked and as I kept envisioning myself slapping him across his face.
"Do you want?" he asked holding out the blunt he had just lit.
" Just tell me where he is" I said again.
"He's with the redhead isn't he?" I snapped when he still didn't answer.
"If you know then stop asking me already" he almost shouted like I was working his last nerve.
"And sit down that pacing is making me paranoid."
He relaxed back into the cushions of the couch.
I went over to him and took the blunt from his hand inhaling like I hadn't since the few times I'd tried the stuff in college. It helped to calm me down enough so that I sat on the floor and started to watch this movie that Aidan had been trying to.
By the end of it we were both cracking up. We also continued to keep passing the blunt between us both trying to not touch the other, which was sort of ridiculous. We ended up pausing the movie so we could grab something to eat. As we started to raid my fridge I noticed the time. It was getting late and I had to be at work pretty early. I also realized that Cian must not be coming home.
Grabbing my food I sat back on the floor across from Aidan using my coffee table as a plate holder and finishing up the movie. The juice from my slices of fruit,slid down my hand. I carelessly licked it off instead of using a napkin. When I turned to ask Aidan if he had seen what I just had on the tv screen he quickly averted his eyes, but I had caught him--staring at me.
I could have let it go but I didn't.
"Why are you looking at me like that?" I asked him.
"Like what?" It irritated me that he was playing dumb.
"Like you were thinking about--- like you want to fuck me" I said deciding to be completely honest.
"And if I do?" he shrugged blowing smoke into the air.
"You don't even like black women, black people for that matter."
"Says you."
"No says your behavior." I glared at him.
"He threw his head back and laughed."
"What is so funny!"
"Tell me one thing that I have ever said to make you think I was a racist, just one", he smirked.
"I know when people are being racist towards me."
"You sound like an idiot."
"Fuck You Aidan."
"What, was it my non verbal behavior that clued you in?"
He said this in a condescending way and it pissed me off.
I got up and walked over to him about to physically throw him out of my place.
"And you're a lawyer?" he shook his head as he stood up, still pushing my buttons.
I guess he knew what was coming. It wouldn't be the first time.
In that moment I was so angry but all I could get out was a really good, "fuck you Aidan."
"Okay" he leaned down closer to my face, "You don't have to beg".
And with that he kissed me.
I cannot describe all of the sensations that went through my body as his tongue invaded my mouth. I had been kissed plenty but never like this, with so much passion and restraint at the same time. I could literally taste the hunger he had for me and I had never been kissed so thoroughly that I forgot my own fucking name, where I was or what I was doing. When he pulled away my funky breathing was the least of my concerns.
It hit me hard. I wanted this man in the worst way, in a way that I had never ever wanted anyone else.
"He's not coming back tonight is he?"I asked pushing Aidan back onto the couch.
Even to my own ears I knew the question hadn't been in the same tone as it had earlier.
"He uh he told me he wasn't" he shrugged, for the first time not fully meeting my eyes.
