I have never had luck with men my entire life and most of the white men I tried to be with thinking back aren't worth my time. I tried to pick up a Spanish guy one night and we talked and laughed and actually drank so much that we went into the back of his van and had crazy wild sex. I took his number and he took mine, but I really didn't feel that he was worth my efforts, so I gave him the wrong phone number. I didn't even know if the number he gave me was on the up and up either. I was never going back to that seedy joint again and I would never see him again so I lied.
I started a new job about a year ago and I work with some really great people. The bosses are a husband and wife and except for 1 other girl who only works 2 days a week, all my co-workers are men. They range in age from 21 to 65 and are from all different backgrounds. I set my eyes on this very muscular and very sexy black guy. I could feel myself getting moist and wet when I'm around him. I actually find myself going the extra mile for him without thinking about it. One lunchtime he was on his cell and I overheard him tell the person on the other end that he would love to meet for some "brews" after work but had to check his funds and get back to them. I figured it was one of his buddies and was either low on funds or just blowing the person off.
Wanting to make myself look good in his eyes, I saw him sit by one of the tables and put his head in his bands and shake. I don't think he saw me so I approached the table and asked if he was ok and if it would be all right to sit with him. He raised his head and actually had a smile on his face and did welcome me to join him.
I started off by telling him that I overheard his conversation and didn't want him to think I was being nosy and if I was out of line that he could tell me to mind my own business. I told him that I heard him say that he didn't know how his funds were to meet for some "brews" after work. I asked him if I gave him the money, would he go and he said that I wasn't out of line asking him that and said that he knows he really wants to go but didn't tell his buddy that he really didn't have the cash to go out for a while because he needed his truck repaired 4 times this years for different things and the last repair was quite costly. He would love to get a new vehicle, but he just can't swing it. I told him I would give him the money and to enjoy the night out with the guys. I went into my wallet and pulled out a $100 bill and handed it too him. His dark eyes looked up at me and they actually appeared to be teary.
The first thing that Jim told me was that $100 was way too much for him to take from me and wouldn't feel right taking it as he wasn't sure how long it will be before he could pay me back. I told him that he didn't have to pay me back if he couldn't and he wasn't sure how to take my generosity. I was hoping that he may see it as a way of us getting closer, but I didn't know if at this point he had any interest in me like I did with him.
Jim accepted the money and told me that he "owed" me and would find out a way of repaying me. I know it hasn't been easy for him to save money lately; I know that he did have all those repairs done and it couldn't have been cheap. He got up from his chair and offered to hug me and thank me this way and what a bear hug it was. We broke th hug and he looked me as if he wanted more and he did. He kissed me and it wasn't just a little peck on the lips and they felt so good against mine. He then apologized for doing that and I told him I didn't mind it and that I liked it. He sat back down and we started to talk.
I knew that Jim had just recently gotten divorced from his wife and he had alimony to pay and child support; he has two daughters and one of them just needed to get braces and the other is applying to colleges and he is trying to get a loan. He really has no money most of the time because of this and he does have to gas up his truck and sometimes I've noticed that he skips lunch because he didn't have any money. I've wanted to approach him a few times, but I didn't want to be interfering where I shouldn't be.
We got up and he told me that the next day that he wanted to take a ride to the park to just clear his head and asked me to join him and I told him I would love to. Again he thanked me for the money and called his buddy on the phone I could hear how excited his friend was that he was going to join them as I heard him say that he was glad he was coming because it's been a while.