I had no idea what was wrong but I knew something was. Our love life was non existent and we couldn't seen to even talk about things? Our marriage was in sad shape and I had no idea why.
Joyce and I were married for 16 years now. I was her first lover and as far as I knew her only. Not something I worried much about. Sex is much about lots of things, but not really much about telling when a woman has been taken by another man. It is much like sticking your finger into a bucket of water and when you pull it out trying to see where it has been? Same thing if another man has had his cock in your woman?
Really very hard to tell. Our daughters are 15 and 13 now and do pretty much everything they want to on their own. Both are very independent young women who look much like their mother and very little like me. Which is perfect really. And exactly what I desired. Joyce is much prettier that I am and smarter too.
My problem is I didn't even know for sure if we had a problem but I thought we must have one? Joyce didn't seem to be able to even talk to me? And I really had not tried to talk to her about what we needed to talk about because I was not sure what it was we needed to talk about? In fact I even kind of found it kind of exciting.
I had seen Joyce flirt a few times and I was turned on by it. In fact I had kind of hoped it would go a bit further. Like how much further? I don't know really.
Someone else? Maybe? I just wasn't sure really? Did she need some time? Did she need time with that someone else, if there was someone else? I really did not have a problem if she needed time with that someone else. Even sexual time? The idea of another guy fucking my wife was not a big thing to me.
As time went on I knew I had to find out what the problem was? So I finally ask. We sat down and began to get into it.
Yes she was confused about where our relationship had gone. And yes she felt we were both to blame.
"Joyce, are you seeing someone else?"
"Oh no, nothing like that."
"Are you sure? Is someone making this harder?"
"David I love you. But I am some what confused right now about us. We have been married for 16 years now. We were only married a short while before we had Becky. I am 34 years old and you are the only man I have ever been with."
"So there is someone else?"
"No not really,but kind of maybe?"
"Someone asking you out?"
"Well he has ask me out a few times, yes."
"But you haven't gone?"
"No not yet."
"But you want to?"
"I don't know? Sometimes I think I do but then I really don't?"
"So why haven't you gone out with him?"
"Because that isn't all he wants."
"He wants to fuck you?"
"YES, He does."
"How do you know he does?"
"Because he told me so."
"And what did you tell him?"
"I told him IF I went out with him I would fuck him."
"Is that what you want to do?"
"I am not sure? But it does excite me."
"It is someone that you work with?"