I wanted Jim and I wanted him now. There were times that he teased me into thinking he wanted me and then he would send me on my way. At first I got upset and angry, but then I was so happy he got me to cum on fingers and go to bed having dreams and images of what it would be like to have him fuck me.
Five years it will be in May and I will never be able to go back to being just a white girl teased by a black man that wouldn't give it up for me. He teased and he make promises of fucking my brains out, fucking me in the ass and cumming all over my face and titties that I got off on just thinking about it.
Let me back it up. Jim and I met and I fell for him immediately. I wanted him that first day I met him but he couldn't because he had to go right home. He is married and has children and his wife caught him a few years ago and she keeps him on a tight leash. There was a gap of over a month a few years ago that we hardly spoke, text or met and I hooked up with an old high school friend (a black guy) and I asked him to make love to me. I had a "hard on" for him in high school but it never went past the making out and touching stages as I grew up with racist parents. That made Jim so mad and I told him I would never do it again and that it meant nothing to me and the only reason I did it was because I was missing him. He forgave me after be pleading with him all day and then he said I would have to find a friend of mine that he could fuck and force me to watch and I didn't have anyone. Instead I would give him money and buy him gifts and that's part of the "pact" me made.