It has now been 2 years since I had my still born and once and a while I will go to see my therapist but I am dealing so much better.
Jim and Dwayne are both still in the picture but the strangest thing has happened. I was on a business trip being held in Las Vegas, about 6 months ago and I had 2 free days before I had to make my presentation so I spent it shopping and treating myself as I had shut myself out of the things I loved the most in shopping and dating. Jim and Dwayne have been come friends and we all go out for dinner and dancing and drinking etc. and it is really nice that we can get along.
While on the slot machines in my hotel, this black man sat next to me and something inside me started to stir. He was not like Jim nor like Dwayne and I felt myself attracted to him. I didn't know if I was ready to make conversation because I wasn't sure if I wanted to start another relationship. I sat there and won a small jackpot of $ 250 and I was all except - found money I thought and I didn't have to share it with anyone. I never feel like that greedy person, but I wanted to take care of me this time. I know the guys have been helping me and maybe I should share by getting them something from here or taking them out when I get back but didn't know.
The handsome hunk that was next to me turned to me and said "I wish I could have some good luck, I'm happy for you, my name is Jared". I told him my name is Nancy and I think you will be having some good luck soon." With that Jared put 3 dollars in the machine and he won $1000. I couldn't be happier for him and he thanked me for bringing him good luck. He asked if I was alone or waiting for my husband or boyfriend and I told him I was alone. He offered to buy me dinner and wanted to get to know his "good luck charm" and I figured what the hell and I said, "I'd love to".
He had to wait for them to fill up his machine and give him his payoff, while mine was on a voucher. We went to redeem our money and made our way into the Italian Bistro that smelled like an Italian heaven. We had to sit at the bar as we had to wait for our table. We ordered our drinks and start talking about ourselves and in 10 minutes, I felt as if I knew Jared forever and he told me he felt that way about me. We got our table and we had a terrific and very delicious meal from appetizer to dessert. We ended with an after dinner drink. I didn't feel right having him pay for the dinner because I didn't realize that the place was so pricey. He insisted that he pay and would hear nothing else.
I thanked him with a hug and even got up the nerve to kiss him, right on those full lips of his. He didn't seem to mind it as he kissed me back and even slipped in his huge tongue which he had no idea was my favorite way of kissing. He took me by the hand and we walked around the casino and stopped in some of the shops and were talking and it seemed like we were hitting it off. I was suppose to call Jim and Dwayne and I didn't know how I could do it and not mention anything to Jared. I excused myself and went to the nearest ladies room and placed a call to the guys. They happened to be going out together that night and were very happy I called and asked if I was having a good time and I told them yes. It was very hard to hear them as they were in the club that we always frequented and music was always so loud. I wanted to mention meeting Jared, but hey I just met him so I didn't want to put the whammy on it.
I came out and there was Jared carrying a yellow rose and wearing a big smile. He bought me the flower and and told me that he loved yellow roses and he wanted me to have one. We went to place a few more slots and were hitting small amounts like 50 and 100 dollars and then decided to call it a night on the gambling end. He asked me to join him in his hotel room and told me that if I didn't feel comfortable doing that he would understand. He should only know that my preference is black men over and other and I told him that I would.
