Author's note: You won't be able to follow without first reaching Ch. 1. Peace!
After that first incredible night of being blacked by Jerome--my first black sex ever--and even though I was ready to swear my life away to black cock, Jerome sent me home with instructions to "relax and think it over" because it's a big step to do all that he required, to give up the possibility of a "normal" life with my fiancΓ©, Tom, whom I had previously thought of as the love of my life.
Jerome was right of course. It was a giant step to consider. And once the bliss of that first night (and next morning!) together had faded for a little, some genuine angst started to set in.
If I really did agree to becoming black owned and follow through with it, it would be a huge change in my life. Yes, of course, nothing would be the same with Tom. But the changes wouldn't stop there. Inevitably everyone I know would find out. I would certainly start having black babies before long. My parents would find out. My brother and sisters. Aunts and uncles and cousins. All of my friends from high school, from college. My friends from grad school. Indeed, with my having little mocha-colored babies, my coworkers would find out. Same with my bosses and the "big bosses" at the consulting firm where I worked.
Not only would people put together that I had a brown "baby daddy" (and then maybe multiple daddies, depending on what Jerome wanted!) but they would probably also learn of my total lifestyle, as I would be expected to find some white fellow to marry, and he would also be in the picture.
For a first brown baby, we might be able to get away with a story about a sperm donor. But how about a second brown baby? Who would believe that we had picked a brown-skinned sperm donor not just once, but twice or thrice? Or if we tried a ridiculous tale about two sperm donor mistakes in a row? Of course I would be sunk from hiding my lifestyle once I had a second brown baby. And if I got hooked enough on Jerome to have brown baby #1, it only stands to reason that I would also go for brown baby #2 (or maybe even more!)... Jerome had mentioned that he never planned to stop breeding any woman he possessed, and if the babies became too expensive for my future husband and me to keep, adoption would be the expected option. (I guess I figured he would relent and not TOTALLY turn me into a baby factory!)
Although we lived in sophisticated suburban Boston and not some Southern backwater, or what have you, this kind of thing still would be viewed at least as quite "unusual"--in fact, without me being married to a black man, it would be viewed by others, I am sure, as quite bizarre, and by some certainly as "perverted."