Guys, I got a problem. I've been having these nightmares lately. In these nightmares, I'm enduring the worst kind of hell. I find myself tied up in a dark place, and there is this lady there. She's Black as midnight, clad in a red leather outfit, and lord is she cruel. The things she does to me are terrifying, and more than a little erotic. I'm tired of having these awful nightmares. I'm tired of waking up sweaty, and inappropriately turned on. That's why I sought help from Dr. Kali Saif, the East Indian lady who works for Counseling Services at Carleton University in the town of Ottawa, Province of Ontario.
By the way, my name is Jacques Mont-Lac. I'm a big and tall young Black man of Haitian descent and the hero of this tale, I guess. I consider myself a good man. I mean, oftener than not I give money to the homeless even if it's just a loonie. Also, I volunteer for various causes ranging from Prostate Cancer Awareness to Domestic Abuse in Immigrant/Minority Communities. I do good things. I'm smart. I'm decent-looking. Why am I alone? I don't know. I work hard at school and I'm one of the top students in the Criminal Justice program. I'm one of the few good ones, as far as Black men in North America go.
A lot of Haitian guys in the Ottawa metropolitan area have no interest in school whatsoever. Like my cousins Edgar, Henry and Richard. Three Black men born and raised in the Ontario region of Canada. Black guys in Canada are running low on ambition even though life is much easier for people of African descent in Canada than in the United States. I mean, in Canada, the government has taken steps to protect minority communities from abusive police and racial profiling. How? They created the Special Investigations Unit, an agency that investigates police misconduct in Ontario, Canada. This agency isn't under the control of the police force, like an internal affairs department would be. It's independent. That's one of the many things that are great about Canada. I've been everywhere, man, and I love this place. I was born in the Cap-Haitien area of the Republic of Haiti but raised in the City of Boston, Massachusetts. I am twenty four years old and spent half my life in the U.S.
As an American in Canada, I had a lot of adjusting to do. The two countries are quite different. However, my scholarship to Carleton University was absolutely worth it. For a while I stayed with my uncle, Ottawa Police Service constable Harold Mont-Lac, he's the older brother of my father, Boston Police Department sergeant Franklin Mont-Lac. I guess Law Enforcement runs in the family. My father was once a wild guy who ran into trouble with every authority figure he bumped into. His time as a student in Canada changed him. When I opted to study in Canada, he encouraged me. I'm glad I came to Ontario, though I occasionally miss my old life in Massachusetts. Just a little background information about me, you know?
Anyhow, I have always focused on academia rather than the social side of university life at Carleton. Suffice to say, I've been living in Canada since 2010 and I haven't gotten laid since I came here. We're in 2012. What I'm going through isn't a dry spell. It's a severe drought! I have always been a loner but I'm human too, you know? I have always been painfully shy with women. And the kind of women I'm attracted to have never even noticed that I exist. I'm twenty four years old and I can still count on one hand the number of times I've had sex. It's weird, huh? I know. The weird thing is that I'm not a bad-looking guy. I'm just a bit awkward socially. I just can't seem to relax. I'm always tense, worrying about what other people think of me and stuff like that.