Tomorrow was orientation night and she could not sleep. "I don't even know where to begin," She thought to herself as she lay lifeless beside her husband. How did her life get to this? She was the one that was supposed to always have it together. Growing up as a child, she was the smartest of six children. Her parents didn't have more than a high school diploma but they always had hopes of her being the one to go to college, get a good degree and make a better living than they had. It's not that they didn't have the same hopes for their other children; it's just that she was the likely one to do it. And that she did. She went to college, just like they wanted. It didn't matter what she majored in, they wanted her to have a college degree and make more money than they did. Well go to college she did, make more money she didn't. She majored in elementary education.
In college is where she met her husband, Darrell. They met at a party of a friend of a friend. You know one of those, it's ok, and everybody is going to be there type things. It was just what she needed to get away from the all of the studying she had been doing. She was always in control of things; she just wanted to unwind for a while. She wasn't there for ten minutes before a guy started hitting on her and Darrell came to her rescue. "Um excuse me but she's taken" is what he said to the guy. He started to challenge him but Darrell hooked his arm around her neck and walked off. "Let's get out of this dump," he said and led her outside. They had started walking to his car before she stopped him, "Um my mother always taught me not to talk to strangers."
"Fair enough" he said "even though I did just save you from a jackass. How about I just walk you to your dorm then?"
"Ok but I would have you to know that I practice Taekwondo."
"You are a horrible liar. I hope you are not majoring in law; you'd be horrible. By the way, I didn't get your name."
"That's because I didn't give it," she said smiling, "but I will if you ask nicely"
He batted his eyes and gave a puppy dog look, "pleeease!"
They laughed again at his childish display of begging. "Astrid"
"Astrid," he repeated "different. I like that."
After that night, they were inseparable. He graduated the year before her and got a job as an accountant at a firm his father worked for. He begged her to stay with him after she graduated. She did and shortly after graduating became Mrs. Astrid Williams. She got a job in a lower income school, something she always wanted to do. She made lots of friends and her life seemed perfect. She had always put on the air of perfection to others so when she did have problems she never told anyone. Like the four times her husband cheated on her, three with women from work and once with a woman she thought was her friend. She stuck with him because she didn't want others to know. And even after all of that, she loved him. He did treat her well, she guessed.
But as she laid there beside her husband, six years into marriage, she wondered was she truly happy, not just with him but with life. She was beginning to think her life had no meaning. She and Darrell had not been intimate in months. She figured it was one of two things, he was cheating again or he was just too tired from his job. She didn't want to believe it was the first but he had a history. She always felt in control of everything but now she felt as if she was spinning out of control. Her job was the one constant in her life at this time. And sometimes that even caused her pain. She desperately wanted children and going to work every day being surrounded by them did not help at all. She knew she would never end her marriage and had always hoped that having a child would somehow bring them closer together. But here she was, stuck forever hoping her marriage would turn around and she would have a child. So she rolled over and counted sheep expecting that would put her to sleep.
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Caelan was not your average man of wealth. He believed you could have anything you wanted in life but you had to work hard for it. He wasn't a millionaire by any means but he made enough that his family, which now consisted of only him and his five year old daughter Aubrey, could live very comfortable and didn't have to worry for anything. His wife, Violet, had left them some years before, when Aubrey was only two months. She had never wanted children and just could not take pressure of raising one. She had taken birth control pills while pretending she could not get pregnant. She played him really well, scheduling pretend doctor's appointments when he had important business meetings that he could not get out of. He was furious when one day, his client cancelled on him and he went to the doctor's office to surprise her only to find out that she did not have an appointment and had not had one since her last birth control refill six months ago. He found her secret stash and replaced the pills with placebos a friend in pharmacy had given him. He knew if ever found out he could face legal ramifications but he desperately wanted a child. Thankfully she never did. He had made sure his secretary never let her see his appointment schedule. He watched for her monthly routine. He counted the days to see when it should start and end. He wanted to make sure she didn't try to hide it from him and get rid of the baby. Three months later she was scheduled to begin; he noticed there was no debris in the trash. He said to her, "Why don't we schedule a doctor's appointment again. The waiting period they gave you is over. Let's just see if there are fertility drugs you may need to take."