Later she lay on her bed thinking what had she done, she had just had a man penis in her mouth and and rubbed his sperm into her body. What was she doing? All these things were so Haram. This would never happen in Afghanistan, not even between husband and wife. She didn't even know how to deal with this fight within her, it was wrong, but why did she enjoy it so much? She thought for now, she was going to keep it to myself, and she was going to speak to Dr Ahmed. She was the only other muslim she knew.
She took a quick shower and went to sleep. The following day, she was woken by Stella's sweet lips and naughty smile. They kissed and cuddled in bed before Stella told her.
"That's enough for now, you have to get to work young lady."
She got up wishing she could spend more time with Stella. This morning the atmosphere was pleasant. She felt terrible that she was hiding these feelings inside her and not sharing her worries.
In the staff meeting this morning, Tracey and Sharon weren't in work; both of them were off for reasons that couldn't be helped, but it left them two staff members down. Dr Ahmed looked at Nabeela and said.
"As you know, Tracey and Sharon do most of our extractions. This may be throwing you in at the deep end, but I hope you can help us today and gain some experience, too?"
"I will do my best, Dr Ahmed. I know this may be asking too much for today, as we are short on staff, but I could use a few minutes of your time."
She asked. Dr Ahmed looked at her watch and said
"I have 15 minutes before the first extraction. The patent will be here, and I will do the first extraction so you know what you are doing."
Nabeela followed her to her office, they sat on the couch, and Dr Ahmed asked.
"What is on your mind, Nabeela?"
"I'm sure where to or how to start. So I will start where I think it is best. The reason I have asked to speak with you is that you're the only other Muslim woman I know. You already know what happened here yesterday, you also know these things are haram for us."
"Go on, I feel there is more you want to say."
Dr Ahmed told her, Nabeela continued.
" To help me deal with my guilt, I have asked Edward to punish me by spanking me and Stella to."
"And?"
Dr Ahmed asked.
"I have enjoyed being punished and I have even orgasmed from just being spanked."
"That is not unusual, Nabeela."
Dr Ahmed told her, Nabeela carried on.
"But...I don't know how to say this, you know Mr Edward. Well, I have been bathing him every night and he."
Nabeela paused, unsure how to explain more, when Dr Ahmed said.
"He has magnificently huge cock?"
"You've seen his penis?"
Nabeela asked
"That is a question for another time, what did you want to ask me? I'm guessing you have seen it too?"
Dr Ahmed asked, Nabeela continued,
"Yes, I have and every night I have been stroking it to care for his needs."
Dr. Ahmed asked
"So you masturbate him?"
Nabeela nodded, blushing even a brighter shade of red.
"Do you enjoy doing it Nabeela?"
Nabeela nodded again to her questions and then she asked her.
"What is troubling you sweetie?"
"Dr Ahmed I did something haram I put his penis in my mouth and I liked it and when his sperm came out and land all over me. I liked that too, and I rubbed it into my skin. It felt so good. All these things are so haram."
Nabeela explained to her. Dr. Ahmed smiled at Nabeela, and she gently cradled her face and told her.
"Nabeela, the men tell us these things so we don't find out sex is something to be enjoyed instead of just there to make babies for them. I have done everything you told me and more, fought your fight, and reached the point. If I like it, then it is okay, not haram."
Her other hand was resting on Nabeela's knee and told Nabeela.
" I want you close your eyes and describe his cock to me."
Nabeela started to describe Eddies cock, Dr Ahmed slid her hand up her leg and the inside of Nabeela's thigh, she stopped before her crotch. Dr Ahmed stopped Nabeela and asked her to open her eyes and look at her.
"Nabeela, can you tell me where my hand is?"
Nabeela went stiff, and her eyes gave the doctor the answers and then told her.
"Nabeela you were so busy describing Edward's cock, your body got so hot that you didn't even notice where my hand was going."
Nabeela nodded, Dr Ahmed slid her hand further up and her fingers brushed her wet labia and said.
" You were picturing his cock in your hands getting closer to your open mouth couldn't you?"
Nabeela was surprised at how accurate she was and felt her moist wet pussy against the doctor's fingers and nodded her head. Dr Ahmed removed her hand and told Nabeela.
"Nabeela, you have nothing to worry about, sweetie. Everything you are feeling is normal. I have been there myself. You need to accept who you are and what you want. Your faith will always be your faith; that will never change. Understand?
Nabeela said.
"Thank you. That makes sense. I go at my pace and do what I want, not what others think I should, right?"
"Bingo young lady"
Dr Ahmed told her that, making Nabeela smile, she understood, and it made sense to her. Not the way she had been treated by the doctor in Afghanistan have accused her falsely and then the person who sold her to traffickers, now for the first time the things she was doing and enjoying including her job and helping Eddie around his home, wasn't because she had to or it was expected but because she choice too. Nabeela hugged Dr Ahmed and thanked her for explaining it to her. Then blushed and said.