Again my standard disclaimer. This story features the potential dangers of a very submissive white girl getting in with the wrong Black man. Most Black men and women in my stories are generally positive characters, if to varying degrees. Just as is the case with most people of whatever skin colour. Levy and the Playa are the other side of the coin. This instalment includes drug references so if that is a problem for you then please take note.
Actions and Consequences
What could I do? As I stood there watching Hazel, my wife and the woman I believed was the love of my life, press the keys of her phone. Watched her make contact with the man who I least wanted her to talk to. The brutal thug who I had been an unwitting accomplice in using to destroy her previous marriage.
What goes around comes around? Was it a certain fatalism on my part? A recognition that I had failed. Failed to make her happy, failed to satisfy her. Failed to keep her mind from the dangerous attraction of a man like him. Wasn't I getting what I deserved?
Looking back I can see that there had been enough hints that we were headed this way. Now I wonder if those hints had been planted deliberately by Hazel. An attempt to rouse me to defend myself, to fight for 'us'. To provide a realistic alternative. If that was the idea then it was truly a forlorn hope. I had already tried and I had obviously failed.
Should I have stormed across to her and smashed the phone against the wall? Should I have destroyed anything that linked her to him? Should I have just turned around and walked back out of the house? Or perhaps should I have kicked HER out? I suppose that would have been the natural reaction for most men.
Instead I just felt a great dark pit emerge in my stomach. Every fear and dread of more than two years suddenly crystallised into one moment. The memory of Levy's mocking face as I'd told him that she'd never be contacting him again.
He'd been right and I'd been wrong. If I was wrong about that then what could I be sure that I WAS right about?
Did she hope that I would stop her? Sometimes I think so. However, when I am more rational I realise that it almost certainly wasn't so. She could, of course, have contacted Levy in secret. Doing it so openly might have been a cry for help but, on the other hand, Hazel had always been clear that she would do nothing in secret. I wasn't her first husband, who she had been delighted to fool and deceive. She would make sure that I would know what she was doing and she would understand and take the consequences.
I remembered the comment of our friend the taxi driver. He'd known a lot of couples living our lifestyle and generally it didn't end well. I'd have laughed at him if I hadn't liked him so much. I wasn't laughing now.
There was one great defining fact that dominated everything for me. I loved Hazel and I knew Hazel. I knew the strong determination in that small frame. I knew that she had never been able to shake herself free of Levy - that she never would unless...
Levy was a bastard, a cunt of the highest and worst order. A brutal vicious man. Hazel thought that he could give her what she needed but I was sure that he would give her much more than she needed or wanted. Until she realised that fact she could never be content, never be happy. But if she did reach that point and I wasn't there to help then Levy would destroy her, maybe for profit or his amusement or without even noticing what he was doing. That seemed certain and I couldn't stand the thought of it.
So what did I do? I did nothing and just stood there like a fucking fool.
Second Contact
"Levy wants to know who the fuck it is," crackled the voice through the speaker-phone, a voice almost submerged by the background noise of a busy club.
"Tell him it's Hazel - we met a couple of years ago."
More shouting and then, "Levy sez he fucks a lot of you hos and he ain't paying no child support."
"No, NO," she rushed to explain, "tell him he helped me get a divorce."
More shouting and a longer pause - then a half-forgotten rumbling voice cuts through the ambient din, "Little Bitch...been a while. You certain you know what you want this time?"
"Yes."
"Gimme your address."
She looked at me, just for a half-second, then reeled off our address.
"Little bitch - you hesitated. I should disconnect right now. We not going to be playing like last time, it's gonna be for real and for keeps. Now, are you sure you know what you want?"
"YES", she asserted loudly.
A low chuckle. "Be at home tomorrow, 2 PM." The signal disconnected.
Hazel just looked across to me with a look of ... what was that look? Was it fear, anticipation or just maybe triumph. She rang the school and left a message there to say she'd need to leave early tomorrow - vital family business.
I'd always dreaded that this might happen. Through the last six months, maybe longer than that, she'd been like a junkie desperately seeking a fix and always coming up empty. Except her addiction was her sexuality, between her legs and in her brain. She'd decided that Levy was the answer and I think that in the back of my mind I dreaded that she might well be right. Except that if she was then what place was there in her life for me?
Maybe that's why I agreed when she asked me to be there with her when he arrived the next day. Was that her setting a test for me? I don't think so, I think she was just nervous. She certainly had every reason to be.
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