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I was headed down the hall to the cafeteria for lunch, when my cell phone went off.
"Hello."
"Hi, Lauren," my husband Jack said.
"Hi, honey," I smiled.
"I hope I didn't catch you at a bad time..."
"No, not at all. I was just going to lunch."
"Oh, good. Hey, listen, I got another work trip to go on."
I moaned. "Not another one?"
"Yeah, another one, I'm afraid."
"It seems like you never get any time off."
"I know, believe me. This whole regional sales director thing isn't all it's cracked up to be."
"Why don't you ask for a transfer? Surely to Pete you have enough seniority with the company to apply for any job you like?"
"Sure do, Lauren, but that would mean almost certainly taking a pay cut. Just a matter of how much."
I sniffed. "Yes, well, all the money in the world doesn't cure loneliness. You hear me, honey?"
"Yeah. I hear you."
I left it at that. I said, "So. When do you leave this time?"
"Not till tomorrow evening. Why, you gonna come down to the office and give me a surprise send-off?"
"Be careful what you wish for," I said softly.
Jack chuckled. "Have a good lunch. I'll see you this evening."
"You, too. Don't work too hard."
"I promise, babe. See you later."
"See you later, honey. Bye."
"Bye, babe."
I tapped the red button on the touch screen, and wiped away a stray tear.
My frustration and loneliness had two sources. I had been able to see my husband exactly twice in the last several months. And I haven't been able to see Staci at all. I feel like I've offended her in some way. After our last lovemaking session, I had her take the bag of sex toys with her. I didn't want my husband tripping across them.
The two people in my life that are closest to me, and I can't see either of them!
Wiping away tears, I made my way into the cafeteria, and got lunch.
My heart leapt for joy when I saw Staci sitting at a table by herself, way over in the far corner. As soon as I swept my employee ID card through the register, I took my tray and quickly walked over.
I said, "Is this table taken?"
Staci looked over quickly, then said, "No, of course not."
I thought she sounded guilty.
But I sat down across from her, instead of next to her. As I spread a napkin across my lap, I said, "Long time no see, stranger."
"Yeah. I know."
"Jack is going on another work trip. You want to have dinner?"
Staci's smile was muted. "Yeah? When is he going?"
"Not till tomorrow afternoon. I was thinking we could have dinner this weekend."
"Dance for him," Staci said, out of nowhere.
"What?"
"You heard me," she said. "Remember what we talked about, when we first met?"
I blushed. "How could I forget?"
We both giggled.
Staci said, "Dance for him. Don't wait for him to ask. And wear that outfit you had on."
I blushed. But then my brain kicked in under my emotions. "Staci. Are you seeing someone?"
"Lauren, don't be silly-"
"Staci, when you like someone enough, you will make time to see them, regardless of how busy you are."
"What are you talking about?"
"For the last several weeks, you've made excuses or just changed the subject in mid stream, like you just did, every time I even mention you and I doing anything. So just tell me, are you seeing someone? Just be honest with me."
Staci looked away. I thought I saw a tear roll down her cheek. I wanted to brush it away.
Finally she looked at me steadily and said, "Yes. I've met someone."
A heavy silence fell.
All I said was, "I see."
"I met him a couple of months ago."
"Okay. Are you serious?"
"Getting serious. We were friends in college. I bumped into him one weekend at the coffee shop. We started going out. Lauren, I'm sorry, I don't want to jeopardize what I have with him-"
"For an affair with a lonely, desperate, old lady?"
"Lauren, don't say that..."
We ate our lunch in heavy silence. I wanted to burst into tears. But I couldn't afford to have the whole office talking about it.
In a whisper, Staci said, "I'll see you around, Lauren."
I didn't reply.
Staci stood up, took her tray and walked away.
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The very next day, during lunch time, instead of taking my lunch, I drove over to my husband's office.
I wanted to get out of the building. I couldn't handle seeing Staci today, knowing that all that lingerie I bought for her, was being worn for someone else.
I caught quite a few stares through the corner of my eye as I crossed the lobby to the elevator.
That gave me a needed ego-boost. Eat your hearts out, guys.
I hoped my husband wouldn't think the same way twice about the outfit I was wearing - a black long-sleeved satin blouse, black leather pencil skirt with a high slit in back, sheer black seamed stockings on my legs, and my favorite black leather six-inch stiletto heels.
Underneath was a little something-something from Victoria's Secret, a black pushup bra and panties, made to not show under clothes.
I was going to give my husband a send-off he wouldn't soon forget.
As the elevator whisked me up to my husband's office, I took a mirror from my matching black leather hand bag, snapped it open, and gave myself a critical once-over.
Red lipstick, check. Smoky eye shadow, check. Long eyelashes, check. Hair down and curled, check.
I no longer had my hot pink nails. But I have let them grow. One of the girls at the salon has been helping me. They're not long, not even close, but they are getting past the finger tip now.
Just as I snapped the mirror closed, the elevator door dinged open. I quickly stuffed it back in my purse.
My stiletto heels clicked on gray tile as I stepped out of the elevator and went down the hall to the secretary's desk.
A different secretary sat there. This one was brunette. That made me smile to myself.
She looked up and smiled. "Hi, can I help you?"
"Yes, I'm Lauren Mitchell, Jack's wife."
"Oh, hi, Mrs. Mitchell. I'm Terri, Jack's new secretary."
"Hi, Terri, and call me Lauren, please."
"Okay, Lauren. How can I help you?"
"I was hoping I might be able to see my husband. I wanted to give him a big send-off before his trip."
"Aw, that's so sweet of you."
"Thank you."
"I danced for my husband just a couple of weeks ago for his birthday. Best birthday he ever had."