When she woke later that morning, Sean had already left. The clock flashed nine o'clock. The aroma of coffee wafted through her apartment. She rose from her bed and padded to the kitchen. There was a plate of cranberry orange muffins next to the coffee machine. Nina picked up the note next to the plate.
A peace offering. Dinner tonight?
Nina was startled when the phone rang.
"Hello?"
"Rani, you never call anymore!"
Nina smiled. "Hey Mom."
Anita Gill chuckled, her raspy laugh washing over Nina like warm sunshine. "Hello, baby. How have you been? Your father and I were worried about you."
"I'm fine, Mommy. You and Daddy don't need to worry."
"It's our job, Rani. How's Sean doing?"
"He's fine, completely recovered from his injuries." Nina remembered her mother didn't know about the Delia situation. She figured she would leave it out.
"That's good. Daddy and I were worried."
"How is Daddy anyway?"
"Oh you know him, work as usual. The other day he had a set of triplets in the office. Apparently they had fallen off their trampoline. All three, eight stitches apiece. Imagine that."
Nina laughed. Kartar Gill was a pediatrician in a small town right outside the City. "Sounds like a rough time. Where is he right now?"
"Golfing with Mr. Greenbaum. He should be back within the hour. The reason I was calling, I want you and Sean to come home for dinner this weekend."
"Oh," Nina started. She wasn't sure the outcome of their talk and didn't want to jump to conclusion. "Mom, I don't know if..."
"Rani," her mother began, using her childhood nickname. "I know things are shaky, but I think it will do you good to come home."
"How did you know?" She could almost hear the smile in her mother's voice. "I just know my daughter well. Come home, Rani. Daddy and I would love to see you."
Nina sighed. "Okay, Mom. Tell Dad I'll be there. I just have to take care of some things, alright?"
"No problem. You know the place. Seven o'clock, Nina. I have to go. My herbs need watering. I love you."
"Love you too, Mom."
She heaved a sigh as she hung up the phone. It was now more important than ever she talk with Delia. It was the only way to clear her conscience and fully let the bullshit go.
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Four hours later, Nina was sitting nervously in a café downtown. Her yellow stiletto heel tapped out a statacco beat on the floor. She smoothed down her outfit and wondered if she was wearing the right thing. She had had a presentation to give at work, and had taken her lunch hour a little later than usual to accommodate meeting Delia.
She wondered if she was a little overdressed. Her tailored dark charcoal pants were starched and sleek. She wore a short sleeved silk tuxedo shirt of the deepest blue. Nina shrugged her matching blazer off and settled it on the chair next to her.
She tried to sip the ice water she ordered, but the cold liquid settled in her stomach like a block of ice. Get a hold of yourself girl, she thought. Nina was about to shred the napkin in front of her when she heard someone clear their throat.
"Nina?" She looked up to see Delia looking tentatively at her.
Nina started to rise, when Delia stopped her. "There's no need," she said. Delia sat down in the chair opposite her.
"I'm glad you could make it," she said, her voice nearly going into a whisper. She took a sip of water to clear her throat.
"Yeah, I was a little surprised when Maggie called and told me you wanted to meet up." Delia glanced around the café. "Do you mind if I order a drink? It's been the week from hell and I need to celebrate the weekend."
Nina shook her head. "No, by all means."
The waiter returned to their table and Delia ordered cranberry and vodka, easy on the cranberry. She smiled at Nina, who returned it. Maybe this won't be so bad, she thought.
Nina waited politely as the waiter returned with Delia's drink. After she had taken a couple of sips, she spoke finally.
"Did Maggie tell you why we needed to talk?" she asked.
"No, she just said it was important. But I figured you'd be in touch at some point."
"Really?"
"Yes. I know if the shoe was on the other foot, I'd want to meet the best friend my guy never told me about."
Nina could feel her uneasiness ebb away. "He talked about me?"
Delia nodded. "He'd mentioned you a couple of times when we talked. Said you were something special."
Nina noticed that she was very beautiful. Her skin was smooth and pale; her blue eyes were vibrant and sparkled. Her hair was still pin-straight, the bangs giving her a youthful look. She barely had makeup on, just a touch of mascara and colored lip gloss. She was wearing black dress pants and turquoise ballet flats that matched her turquoise sweater and fitted black blazer. Nina wondered how Sean was able to resist temptation growing up with such a gorgeous girl for a best friend.
"He didn't tell me about you."
"No, I don't suppose he did. He probably had his reasons, Nina. I don't think he was trying to intentionally hide anything from you. It's just...Sean has some issues when it comes to trust. His guard is always up."
"Was he always like that?"
"No, not always," Delia said, taking another healthy sip of her drink. "I think it stemmed from the stuff with his father. He told you about that?"
"Yeah. It must have been tough."
"It was; for everyone involved. His father, he was always so stressed. He took his frustrations out on Sean. He's not a bad guy, just really messed up."
"Does Sean ever talk to him?"
"I'm not sure. The last time must have been nearly three years ago. I know his dad has been trying to reconnect with him. That's definitely going to take some time."
Nina was quiet. There was so much about Sean's life she didn't know. It made her feel like she was losing her grip.
"I feel like I know so little about someone I love."
Delia looked at her. "You can only know what people choose to give away. Forcing someone to reveal themselves to you never works. It just makes them resent you for trying so hard."
Nina nodded. "That seems fair. I guess it never bothered me before because I didn't think things would ever go this far. It's been awhile since..."
"Since love?" Delia finished. "Join the club, girl."
Nina smiled. The verdict was still out, but there was a tiny part of her that liked the sharp-witted brunette. "Delia forgive me for being too forward, but why did you marry him?"
"Well, my mother..."
"I know about all that," she interrupted. "I meant why, really?"
Delia was thoughtful. "I was scared. I had been dating a guy who was more concerned about the size of his muscles and his modeling career than working on our issues. When I told him I was pregnant, I thought he'd be happy but apparently that joke was on me. I was hurt; my mother was dying, there wasn't a thing I could do about it, and here I was pregnant and alone. So I turned to Sean. He was supportive and understanding. He knew the situation with my mother and stepped up without question.
Do you know how hard it is to ask someone to do something like that for you? Even if you are best friends, marrying someone shouldn't be taken lightly. See, that's the thing about Sean. I didn't even have to ask. He just did it. That's the kind of guy he is."
Nina knew what she was talking about. Sean was truly a stand-up guy. She could understand why the girl married him. "So, why did you guys divorce? If you loved him, why not stay married?"
"Sean and I loved each other very much. But it wasn't that kind of love. It was friendship love. The stuff we went through growing up bonded us deeper than sex or anything like that. It wasn't fair to him, denying his happiness for convenience. I loved and respected him far too much. Losing my baby caused imaginable pain, but I knew staying married to Sean when we didn't love each other was going to end badly. I couldn't lose the last family member I had left. So we divorced. It was completely finalized last month."
"Wow. I apologize if this situation has brought up old feelings."
Delia reached out and patted her hand across the table. "Nina, you have absolutely nothing to apologize for."
"But, if I had just stayed and listened..."
"You would have been a fool. I'm lucky you didn't sock me in the jaw."
They both laughed. "I can see why he loves you so much," Nina said.
"I was just thinking the same thing."
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There was a swing in her step as she bounded out of the elevator to her apartment. Letting herself in, she tossed the keys and her briefcase happily on the sofa.
Sighing, she eased herself into the plush charcoal-colored sofa, the soft suede cupping her body in comfort.
Things with Delia had gone well. After the initial tension, talking things out eventually became easier. Nina let her guard down and discovered the woman was the real deal. Apparently another reason for their hasty divorce was that Delia had met another man. He was a rival buyer from another company who tried to steal Delia's client. Delia later explained it as "Love at first 'fuck you'". The girl was a real firecracker and a real friend to Sean.
Nina jumped slightly at the knock on the door. "Who is it?" she called out.
"The police. Open up."