The next morning, Christmas morning, started early in my house, like it always had since Evelyn and I were small children. Not as early as it did back then, when we'd be dragging our parents out of bed by 6 to see what Santa brought us, but 7:30 was still plenty early. Even with my father now gone, it was still Christmas and we knew he would have wanted us to make the best of the day that we could. So the three of us, mom, Evelyn and myself, went downstairs in our robes and slippers and we exchanged gifts like we always had, though our hearts weren't into it.
We agreed not to make a big deal this year, circumstances as they were, so we all exchanged a bunch of small gifts, nothing special or ostentatious like in years past. None of us had been in much of a shopping mood. It was sweet and sad, we sat together watching some corny movie and after, mom made us a big breakfast. She actually could cook a bit when Edina wasn't there, and she always made breakfast on holidays. While we ate, we talked about the following day, when we were going down to dad's old firm for the last time to take the payout on his partnership share. The lawyer we consulted agreed it was our best option, a total payout of just under 1.8 million dollars, split into three equal checks. It was all going into the bank in any case. It was the final disposition of dad's business, his insurance, his investments. It was going to be a bitch of a day.
At 2, we went over to Edina's home and we shared a very nice Christmas dinner with her and Grace and Gus, Alton and Therese. A few friends of theirs stopped by during the afternoon and we met them, everyone treating us as nice as could be. It really was a pleasant day, and it helped lighten our moods considerably.
Grace and I were back as a completely loving couple. Our first Christmas together was completely warm and loving. She had forgiven me in full, for which I was beyond grateful. We cuddled a little or held hands, shared a few small kisses in front of our families like it was no big thing. When it was time to go home, we spent a few minutes in private in her room (door ajar) and we were able to share the kind of kisses we had wanted to share all day.
"I love those kisses, baby" Grace whispered in my ear, rubbing her cheek on mine. "We had better find a few nights to spend alone. Days will do. I want you very much."
"I know what you mean. We might have to check into the motel a few times. I don't know how else we'll get much privacy."
"It's fine with me. Just as long as we have some time together. I still have lingerie I bought in Paris you haven't seen yet" she said with an impish grin.
"What are you doing to me" I moaned. "I wish we could be together tonight."
"Me too, baby. Me too. I love you Henry. So much."
"You know I love you too, honey. More than I can tell you." We kissed a few more times before my mom was calling for me to tie it up. "Before I go, I need to ask you something, honey. This will be our first New Years Eve together, and I'd love to bring you to a party with some friends, or go to one of your friends. But I would rather not leave my mom alone that night. I know Evelyn has a party from her sorority to go to, and she'll be spending the night there. Would you mind if we took mom out to dinner? We can invite your mom too. Just a small, quiet New Years Eve together."
"Henry, I think that would be lovely. You have such a good heart and I just adore you for it."
"Thanks, honey. My sexy, Dirty Girl" I teased. "I love you. And I'll definitely see you tomorrow, in the afternoon. I'll call you when we get home from taking care of my dad's settlement."
She touched my cheek briefly, knowing how sad I still felt at times. "You be strong, baby. Call me tomorrow." One last kiss and I had to go. "I love you, Tiger."
"I love you too, Hot Stuff." It felt good to tease each other like that again. Then I went to thank Edina and join my impatiently waiting mother and sister.
On the way home I told mom Grace and I were going to take her and Edina out for dinner New Years Eve and spend the night with her. Her response was not what I expected.
"Out of the question. You're going to go with your friends. I can manage on my own. I'm not taking away a very special night in your lives, Henry. Evelyn has her party, and you should go to yours, wherever it may be."
"Mom, this time you listen to me" I said forcefully. "You convinced me I need to go away to school. But you can't make me go out if I don't want to. I already talked to Grace about it and we're staying with you. You'll be rid of me in three weeks as it is. I'm not leaving you alone that night."
I was driving, but I could feel her staring at me from the passengers seat. Ev was quiet in the back, watching our battle of wills. I could see her smiling at me from the rear view mirror. I had earned back her respect. "I guess I can't fight with you about this? You're determined to spend the night with your mother instead of your friends?"
"I am. This time I'm putting my foot down."
"You sound like your father. He'd be so proud of you. OK, but I'm taking you to dinner."
"Mom..."
"Quiet. My children do not treat me. And of course, Edina is welcome to join us. She's become my best friend. I barely hear from my other friends. I think I know why, and if that's how they feel, to hell with them." My mom had changed a lot. She was a very different person than she had been not so long ago, and Ev and I were both proud of her.
When we got home, after we all said goodnight, there was a soft knock on my door and Evelyn came into my room in her long pajamas. "Hey sis. Very sexy lingerie you have on" I teased.
"Shut up, jackass." She smiled at me. "Mind if I sit down? I need to talk to you about something."
"Sure, Ev. What's up?"
"I have to ask your advice. I don't know if I can ask mom how she feels about this."
"OK. I'll help if I can, you know that. Anything for you."
"Henry, you know I haven't dated anyone for a few months now. Which is a very strange situation for me. Since a couple of months before dad...." She sniffled a few tears away.
I held her hand and said "Yeah, I guess I kind of noticed, in a distant kind of way. You not dating or having a boyfriend for more than a few weeks is pretty atypical, except for the times you broke up with someone special. No one asked you out in a while?"
"No, I've had offers. I always have offers." I believed that; Evelyn was stunningly beautiful and classy and smart. And now she was personally rich, which made me feel protective of her. "The thing is... I'm scared to say this, Henry. But I think I'm a lesbian."
That floored me. It must have been all over my face. "Close your mouth, brother. Your tonsils are showing." She had tears tracing down her cheeks and her blue eyes were shining. "Well, don't just sit there. Say something."
"Ev.... wow. I wouldn't have suspected it at all. You've always been boy crazy. I mean, I guess I know you're not a virgin, any more than I am."
"Of course not. No details, but I've been sexually active for a few years. But I don't enjoy it. It's a ruse. I have sex with the men I date because it's kind of expected. Word would get around, you know? But I've always been much more attracted to girls, but I couldn't tell anyone. Not mom and dad, not my friends, and definitely not my sisters. I think they would kick me out if I let anyone know. That's just not something they accept."
"Ev....are you certain? Have you really been keeping this to yourself all these years?"
"Yes, Henry. I think I've always felt this way. You asked me a few weeks ago, when you strayed on Grace, if I still loved you. Do you still love me?" I could see she was scared of my possible answer.
"Ev, I adore you. I always will. You're the best sister any guy or girl could want. I'm really lucky. I have four amazing women in my life. My sister, my mother, my second mother, and Grace. I'll always love you, sis." I took her into my arms and she cried tears of relief. After she settled down a little I asked her "Why did you tell me tonight? What brought it out?"
"The way you talked to mom in the car. You're really a man, a good man, and the man of our house. Mom's still the boss, but you're so mature. I heard you talk to her, telling her she couldn't make you go out if you didn't want to, and I knew...well, I hoped...I could come to you with my deepest secret. And I need to ask you one more thing, a favor. Will you help me when I tell mom? I thought I would tell her tomorrow, after we go to dad's firm. I don't want to hold this in any more. Not from her."
"No problem. And I don't think she'll react as bad as you think. Look how she's changed this last year. She accepted Grace and me without any question. She's getting rid of those old crones and their racial crap. I think she'll be shocked, but you're still her daughter and she loves you so much. But I'll be glad to help."
"I told you when you were in the hospital how my friends often complain about their siblings but I never complain about you. I meant it then, and I mean it even more now. You're the best." She kissed my cheek and held me tight.