That Sunday afternoon had to be one of the most beautiful in months. People carelessly roamed the streets as they found pleasure in being outside. Natalia met up with her cousin Elizabeth after promising they would catch up on the current events happening in their lives.
Elizabeth was one of the interior home designers Natalia worked with. Not only was Liz Natalia's co-worker and cousin, but she was the woman who introduced Natalia to Jason in December of 2006. Jason was in desperate need of somebody to design his home and at that time, Liz wasn't qualified for that amount of work. Natalia was the only woman she knew who could work with her hands and mind at the same time to create Jason's vision of a home into a reality. Little did she know that his home would soon become her own home as well.
Jesus, what a ticking bomb Jason was at that time. The effect Natalia had on Jason was amazing. Indescribable, really. In fact, it was so indescribable that it was unbelievable until people witnessed it with their own eyes. He would snap at anybody and didn't care to take advice. Natalia somehow found a way to get him to cool his reactions, and perhaps it was her nurturing touch that all women seem to possess that helped Jason. She was only twenty three at that time, and Jason, thirty, never imaged a girl that young could handle the job. As a construction manager himself, Jason owned a mansion. Nothing Natalia was used to. Her family owned a family market and her mother was a cook who only worked a few hours of the day. Jason came from royalty compared to Natalia. She was humble, however, and never let Jason know how weak she felt around his presence. All Jason knew was that he was sexually attracted to Natalia. Her full C chest and round, delicious booty drove Jason wild. But she would never be his fuck buddy, and Jason became immediately intrigued to find out more about Natalia.
Natalia was always attracted to older men. Sure, he was only eight years older, but she loved everything about him. The power. His sexy light complexion with his hazel eyes and brown short hair. He had a rugged look to him. He owned his own company. His power accompanied by his attitude seduced her. Sucked her in. She shouldn't have fallen for him, but she did. It was a moment in her life when she thought, 'Don't give him the chance...don't do it!' And yet she did. When she gave him the chance, they immediately fell in love.
However, time changed Jason and Natalia. Not individually, but their relationship as a whole became different. Jason caused his wife pain and heartache one too many times. The hurt he caused was different than Natalia's old boyfriends or lovers. This was the kind of hurt that keeps you up at night, retracing every step you have made with the person you love. The kind of hurt that makes you put a guard up, not so much to keep others out, but to keep yourself locked in.
After all that, he still possessed her mind, body, and soul. Natalia wouldn't know what to do with her life without Jason. Time would have to be on her side. She would have to re-adjust, makes some changes...learn to deal.
Elizabeth joined Natalia at the Coffee House.
"Tell me again exactly why you are going to file for divorce?" Elizabeth asked as she and her cousin sat quietly at the back booth.
Natalia signed frustratingly. She pushed back her curly hair that was tied back loosely in a bun. Her dark bangs hung low on her face, hiding her red eyes from her cousin.
"Because, I've told you a hundred times, Liz, Jason and I are through. He can't control his dick and I can't control my heart." Her reply murmured was a surprise both women.
Natalia sipped her sweet and light coffee and watched her cousin's jaw drop. Natalie, becoming uncomfortable by her cousin's reaction and her own words, readjusted the strap of her light yellow sun dress. Damn that dress -- it fit her body like a glove. This woman had curves and it was a pleasure to look at by all. Thankfully, for Natalia's sake, the one month precious child in her stomach was not showing.
"Okay, I believe the part about Jason not being able to control dick, but what's this nonsense about you not being able to control your heart? Are you trying to tell me you don't love the man anymore? Nu uh, I'm not buying that crap Natalia Walker." Liz said as they looked at her cousin with suspicious eyes.
Liz continued, "Hell would freeze over before you fell out of love with Jason...and honestly, I don't see that happening any time." Her sarcasm caused Natalia to show a shaky smile. Natalia shook her head.
"Thanks a lot. You make me feel so much better." Natalia rolled her eyes and turned her head to look out the window. It was a beautiful August day but the view became ugly in seconds in Natalia's eyes.
"Seriously Nat...whats up?"
"Liz, I am being serious. Jason doesn't love me like he used to. If a man loves a woman, he doesn't cheat on her. What's wrong with me? Am I not pretty enough? Am I not old and worldly enough? I don't get it. I can't win with him, so I give up." Natalia vented.
