"Alright, Doc, here goes nothing, I am butch, and proudly lesbian, and I've got submissive tendencies," said Ramona "Ram" Gutierrez, and the six-foot-tall, short-haired, tattooed and muscular young Colombian-Canadian woman leaned back on the couch, and exhaled sharply. There was a hollow, almost haunted look in her chestnut eyes, and a hush fell over the small, neatly decorated psychiatrist's office...
"Nothing wrong with having submissive desires, even if you're a butch lesbian," Dr. Mona Hersi replied, and the tall, attractive, Hijab-wearing, thirty-something, Somali-Canadian psychiatrist nodded empathically at her patient. For over a month now, she'd been treating Ramona Gutierrez, ever since the butch gal had a nervous breakdown at her job at the trucking company in the Train Yards area of Ottawa, Ontario.
Life hadn't been kind to Ramona Gutierrez this year, not with losing her father Pablo Gutierrez and her former partner Leslie Jacobson leaving her for another woman. With her father gone, Ramona had become a pillar for the Gutierrez family to lean on. Her mother Anna Maria Gutierrez suffered from dementia. Her younger brother Antonio was dating a white chick named Becky whose redneck family did not approve of their relationship. And Antonio turned to his older sister Ramona for help.
Meanwhile, Ramona Gutierrez was hurting, and nobody knew about it because the strong Latina butch hid her feelings. That's the problem with being a strong person whether you're male or female, straight or gay. You are always there to help people and they assume you never need help because you're not big on whining. Such is the case for Ramona Gutierrez, Colombian-born trucker and out and proud butch lesbian. Fortunately, Dr. Hersi was trying her best to help...
"You see, Doc, it's not that simple, in the lesbian community, femmes and butches have well known and established roles, what I'm into, well, it doesn't fly with my fellow butches or the femmes," Ramona mused, and Dr. Hersi looked at her thoughtfully. Truth be told, she'd been surprised by Ramona's admission of her submissive tendencies, and kind of thrilled. Now we're getting somewhere, Dr. Hersi thought. The cracks in Ramona's armor were beginning to show...
"Ramona, you are a person, first and foremost, before the labels of lesbian or butch or Latina or whatever, you are a human being, you must be true to yourself," Dr. Hersi remarked, and Ramona sighed deeply. For a long moment, the attractive, strong-looking butch gal fell silent. Dr. Hersi wondered what was going on behind Ramona's unconventionally attractive face, and figured that the butch gal would tell her soon enough...