I couldn't believe that I'd given Dominic a blow job in my and my husbands bed. I never would have done this before I met him. I was a very good girl. Now, look at me. I would change the sheets when I got back home. I was on my way when I heard the phone ring.
--You coming home soon?--
"Yes, honey. I'm closing up now."
--Good.--
Good. He hadn't sounded bad, so the plan was still on. He met me in the drive way. He seemed anxious. He grabbed my arm and pulled me into the house. He led me into the bedroom and shoved me to the bed.
"You didn't think I'd smell it? It's not me. We haven't fucked in a long time. Who is it."
I said, "Ron," and he pulled me off of the bed.
"How long?"
"Ron, I..."
He shoved me back out to the living room and screamed, "Who the fuck was it? Oh, it doesn't matter. Raspberries are..."
I couldn't talk. My body felt rigged as I moved out of the room. I couldn't understand what he was saying. The words. They wove around me like... I started to speak. I told him everything. All but the name. I forced myself to stop talking. I'd never seen him so angry. He raised his fist at me and repeated his request for the name. I'd been such a bad girl. He lunged at me and constricted my air. He didn't really want an answer. This was just the excuse he needed to finally beat me down. Ron's thin hands cut into my throat as he kneed me in the gut. I hit my chin on the chair when he shoved me away. I felt his fingers dig into the waistband of my skirt and tear it off along with my underwear. I curled up into a ball and he ripped my blouse from my body.
"You fucking cunt! You need to be fucked so much. Do you need to be fucked, now? Huh, do you?"
"Ron, please, no!"
He dragged me from behind the chair and I got up to my knees. He wrapped his arms around my chest and I felt him fumble for his trousers. I'd wanted more penetration, but I didn't need it like this. He kept me close to him as I tried to break free. He put his full weight on my back and I fell forward. He pushed into me and I cried out. He grunted loudly into my ear as he tore at my poor dry pussy.
"Damn! You're tighter than when we first did it," he wheezed as he fucked me. "What did he do to make that happen in a night?"
Ron took longer than I thought he would, and it never started to feel better. I tried to think of something far off, but he kept talking to me. He told me he would kill whoever it was. He would let me live, because I was just a bitch, anyway. It made sense that I would crave a hard fuck every once in a while. It was my nature. I needed to be aware of it, or it didn't matter. When he finished, he pulled out with a slurp and smacked my right ass cheek.
"That's why I married you. I can't keep my hands off your brown ass! I left my family for that ass! And now, look at me!"
I dropped to the ground and cried as his semen stung my bruised opening on the way out.
"Clean yourself up! I don't want a pink stain on my carpet! Fucking...go wash up!"
I slowly went into the bathroom and looked at myself in the mirror. I looked the same. There were no visible signs of what he'd just done. I felt the spot on my stomach where he'd kicked me and I started to cry all over again. I started the water for the shower and felt my opening. When I looked at my fingers they were bloody from where he'd ripped me a little. I took my third shower of the day and tried to think of a way to stop Ron from hurting me again. We hadn't used protection like we used to, when we did it on a regular basis. I could get pregnant from his rape. Is it rape if it's your husband? It felt like it. Ron had been drugging me and using me to masturbate, right? I didn't change the sheets. I crawled into bed and smelled Dominic. Dominic. He'd be coming to get me, if I didn't come and see him. I wasn't going to. The phone rang early in the morning and I picked it up. It was Ron.
--Wake up!--
"I don't work today."
--I don't give a f...I don't care. Get up and come to my office.--
"But, Ron...I'm not..."
--Raspberries are.... Do as I say. Put on your blue dress. The one with the drawstring.--
The phone hung up with a loud click. I got dressed quickly and gingerly. I drove to Ron's office and greeted everyone like I usually did. When I got to his office the shades were drawn and the door was shut. I thought he'd left on an errand, but he came to the door and pulled me inside. I was surprised to see a bunch of flowers strewn across his desk.
"I got those for you," he said. "Before I found out about you. I had to put them somewhere."
"Ron, I'm sorry. I didn't have anyone inside me. I just need some attention..."
"Shut it," he hissed as he struck my cheek with the tips of his fingers. "I know you didn't fuck him, but you probably blew him. I'll modify that tonight, maybe. You've a good mouth, don't you?"
I sat down in front of the blinds. He put his crotch in front of me. I knew what he wanted. I turned my head away. He said a word I don't remember. There were times when I couldn't hear him very well.
"Suck my dick!"
I let him turn my face and took him into my mouth. He gagged me as he grabbed my hair and shoved himself deep into me. He fucked my face for a few minutes and came. He fondled my ears as he commanded me to swallow every drop. I let go of him and he zipped up.
"That was good. I needed that."
I tried not to let him see my fear, but he said, "Don't forget to say goodbye to everyone on your way out."