I couldn't believe that I'd given Dominic a blow job in my and my husbands bed. I never would have done this before I met him. I was a very good girl. Now, look at me. I would change the sheets when I got back home. I was on my way when I heard the phone ring.
--You coming home soon?--
"Yes, honey. I'm closing up now."
--Good.--
Good. He hadn't sounded bad, so the plan was still on. He met me in the drive way. He seemed anxious. He grabbed my arm and pulled me into the house. He led me into the bedroom and shoved me to the bed.
"You didn't think I'd smell it? It's not me. We haven't fucked in a long time. Who is it."
I said, "Ron," and he pulled me off of the bed.
"How long?"
"Ron, I..."
He shoved me back out to the living room and screamed, "Who the fuck was it? Oh, it doesn't matter. Raspberries are..."
I couldn't talk. My body felt rigged as I moved out of the room. I couldn't understand what he was saying. The words. They wove around me like... I started to speak. I told him everything. All but the name. I forced myself to stop talking. I'd never seen him so angry. He raised his fist at me and repeated his request for the name. I'd been such a bad girl. He lunged at me and constricted my air. He didn't really want an answer. This was just the excuse he needed to finally beat me down. Ron's thin hands cut into my throat as he kneed me in the gut. I hit my chin on the chair when he shoved me away. I felt his fingers dig into the waistband of my skirt and tear it off along with my underwear. I curled up into a ball and he ripped my blouse from my body.
"You fucking cunt! You need to be fucked so much. Do you need to be fucked, now? Huh, do you?"
"Ron, please, no!"
He dragged me from behind the chair and I got up to my knees. He wrapped his arms around my chest and I felt him fumble for his trousers. I'd wanted more penetration, but I didn't need it like this. He kept me close to him as I tried to break free. He put his full weight on my back and I fell forward. He pushed into me and I cried out. He grunted loudly into my ear as he tore at my poor dry pussy.
"Damn! You're tighter than when we first did it," he wheezed as he fucked me. "What did he do to make that happen in a night?"
Ron took longer than I thought he would, and it never started to feel better. I tried to think of something far off, but he kept talking to me. He told me he would kill whoever it was. He would let me live, because I was just a bitch, anyway. It made sense that I would crave a hard fuck every once in a while. It was my nature. I needed to be aware of it, or it didn't matter. When he finished, he pulled out with a slurp and smacked my right ass cheek.
"That's why I married you. I can't keep my hands off your brown ass! I left my family for that ass! And now, look at me!"
I dropped to the ground and cried as his semen stung my bruised opening on the way out.
"Clean yourself up! I don't want a pink stain on my carpet! Fucking...go wash up!"
I slowly went into the bathroom and looked at myself in the mirror. I looked the same. There were no visible signs of what he'd just done. I felt the spot on my stomach where he'd kicked me and I started to cry all over again. I started the water for the shower and felt my opening. When I looked at my fingers they were bloody from where he'd ripped me a little. I took my third shower of the day and tried to think of a way to stop Ron from hurting me again. We hadn't used protection like we used to, when we did it on a regular basis. I could get pregnant from his rape. Is it rape if it's your husband? It felt like it. Ron had been drugging me and using me to masturbate, right? I didn't change the sheets. I crawled into bed and smelled Dominic. Dominic. He'd be coming to get me, if I didn't come and see him. I wasn't going to. The phone rang early in the morning and I picked it up. It was Ron.
--Wake up!--
"I don't work today."
--I don't give a f...I don't care. Get up and come to my office.--
"But, Ron...I'm not..."
--Raspberries are.... Do as I say. Put on your blue dress. The one with the drawstring.--
The phone hung up with a loud click. I got dressed quickly and gingerly. I drove to Ron's office and greeted everyone like I usually did. When I got to his office the shades were drawn and the door was shut. I thought he'd left on an errand, but he came to the door and pulled me inside. I was surprised to see a bunch of flowers strewn across his desk.
"I got those for you," he said. "Before I found out about you. I had to put them somewhere."
"Ron, I'm sorry. I didn't have anyone inside me. I just need some attention..."
"Shut it," he hissed as he struck my cheek with the tips of his fingers. "I know you didn't fuck him, but you probably blew him. I'll modify that tonight, maybe. You've a good mouth, don't you?"
I sat down in front of the blinds. He put his crotch in front of me. I knew what he wanted. I turned my head away. He said a word I don't remember. There were times when I couldn't hear him very well.
"Suck my dick!"
I let him turn my face and took him into my mouth. He gagged me as he grabbed my hair and shoved himself deep into me. He fucked my face for a few minutes and came. He fondled my ears as he commanded me to swallow every drop. I let go of him and he zipped up.
"That was good. I needed that."
I tried not to let him see my fear, but he said, "Don't forget to say goodbye to everyone on your way out."
I turned to see the blinds were all the way open and a small group of men waved at me. I wanted to throw up, but I forced myself to push my way out of the office.
"I told you she didn't mind an audience," I heard my husband say as I shut the outer door. I spent the rest of the day doing laundry and trying to figure out what to do. I had no family. Ron and I got together in high school. I would be a good girl. I would be the best girl, I could be. I heard a knock on the door and I looked out to see Dominic. He saw me look out. I backed away from the door and went back to my laundry. There was no sound from the door again. I had dinner ready and was lighting some candles when the door opened and Ron came in. He looked at the presentation of food and smiled broadly. He sat down and said as I sat across from him, "I'm sorry, babe. I had to get you back somehow." I nodded at him and started to eat. He finished quickly and complimented my cooking skills. I cleared the dishes and was just about to take off my apron when I felt hands push me over the sink. I turned and Ron pulled down my pants.
"I think it's time for your fuck," he grinned. "We don't want you straying, do we?"
"Please," I begged as he stepped on the crotch of my pants to make sure my legs were trapped. He pushed my head down and shoved himself in. He didn't go very far, because I was very dry and my legs were closed. He cursed, spat on his fingers, and shoved them inside me. I tried not to make any noise. I'd swollen from the pain of the night before and knew he would hurt me even more tonight. He pushed into me again and I silently took his thrusting until he finally got all the way inside me. It felt like I was on fire inside as he kept pistoning in and out of me. He grunted and came inside of me as my tears streamed down to hit his hands which were braced on the sink below me. He ran a hand over my face and kissed my neck before he got out of me.
"It has to be done until I figure out what's happened to you. Go lay down on your back with your legs up," he growled as I tried to straighten up. I did as I was told and he pushed my knees to my chest. He looked at my vaginal opening and said, "You're swollen shut anyway, but I want to see if you can try to catch."
I lay there with his hands on my knees for some time. He stared at my reddened pussy and talked about how I should've gotten pregnant before. He said he'd heard some girls just wiped with a sperm covered towel got pregnant. Maybe that would loosen my pussy up enough. After my feet started to go numb, he let me up, and I went to take a shower. I didn't want to stain my underwear, so I went to grab a panty liner from the closet. Ron stopped my hand on the knob.
"You can't wear those anymore. Not panties, either. Only when you're on the rag. I don't want to have to deal with them."
I slept alone again. It didn't matter. I knew he'd find some other way to break me down as I slept. I got ready for work and put on a loose pair of pants. I nearly backed into Dominic. He jumped out of his SUV and opened my car door. I didn't get out.
"I saw," he rasped.
I just looked up at him. He saw me get fucked by my husband, big deal. Was he jealous? I couldn't believe I was snarling at him. "Why would I be jealous of what he did to you? It's amateurish at best." He closed the door and went back to his car.
I made it to work on time. There was a message on my e-mail. Ire_It wanted to talk to me. I instant messaged him a reply of no and went on with getting started with my day. An instant message box popped up and Ire_It_ takesawhile03 started chatting anyway:
Ire_It_ takesawhile03: Look, we need to talk. my_queen_is_gone99: I'm not talking, I'm working
Ire_It_ takesawhile03: You've got to leave him. my_queen_is_gone99: You must have me mistaken for somebody else.
Ire_It_ takesawhile03: And everything's okay with you? my_queen_is_gone99: Yeah, Ire. I'm fine.
Ire_It_ takesawhile03: You're a liar. my_queen_is_gone99: Can I please get to work?
Ire_It_ takesawhile03: Can I please get back to where we started? my_queen_is_gone99: You don't know me. my_queen_is_gone99: Let's agree not to talk to each other anymore.
Ire_It_ takesawhile03: Okay, Ellen, if that's what you want. my_queen_is_gone99: How did you know my name?