This entry is one of my most personal and is close to my own heart. I have debated for four years whether to share this experience. While many of my stories have a foundation in real life events this story is an actual piece of my life. The only other story that is this close to my actual experiences is "We say Goodbye."
What prompted me to submit this story now is that a couple of months back on the forums a very sweet lady in response to one of my postings thought that I was only interested in black woman for a novelty experience. I certainly understand how she could feel that way but it isn't true.
If you read my other stories you will discover I have a thing for BBW's but one of my barely spoken but intense desires involves women of color which comes from a very special personal experience. Another reason I am writing this is because I don't see a lot of black women with White men in the Inter Racial section of the site.
The following story is absolutely true until the end which in real life didn't turn out as well as it was the 1970's and social pressures caused Denise to break up with me. And, sadly to say if she hadn't broken up with me I probably would have felt that I had to break things off with her. The day Denise and I broke up was one of the saddest of my life and I can still taste her kisses and feel her arms wrapped around me.
It was 1976 and we had just celebrated the bicentennial a celebration of the freedom's our forefathers had helped us to obtain. But, it was also a time when the country was very tired as Vietnam and Watergate were finally disappearing from the news and the Civil Rights marches were already fading from immediate memory.
People wanted to put everything out of their minds from the 1960's which in part explain how Jimmy Carter was able to win the Presidency that fall as he was a fresh face. It was against this backdrop that I attended a large state university in the Midwest. Black and white students did not intermingle socially but at the same time overt racism was not tolerated in any form by either group.
The student were enlightened but still not quite ready to make the next step toward full social interaction. Being together on athletic teams or study groups was commonplace but not much more than that. Until a faithful early October day I was the same as most of the students having found my group of friends and sticking with them.
I had dated some but never even unfastened a girl's pants let alone pull down her panties as I was very shy. I walked around campus with a constant hard-on and daydreaming mostly about girls I had seen. I was walking in the open air mall between the library and the bookstore in my usual haze when I felt a thud and came to a complete stop. Then I heard liquid running on to the ground.
"Why the hell don't you watch where you are going?" the deep husky sultry female voice said. Quickly assessing the situation I saw a buxom black girl in front of me with books in one hand and a can of soda laying on the ground with its contents running between the bricks. If looks could kill I would have been dead.
"I'm sorry; I wasn't paying attention. I was in my own little world I guess," I pleaded. Her face seemed to soften just a bit.
"Fuck, it was a full can of soda," she complained. I picked up the can and sure enough it had completely drained. I tossed it in the nearby trash. As I looked back at her I could feel myself getting very aroused she was hot.
"The nearest soda machines are in the dorms. But, I'd be happy to buy you a drink at The Shack to make up for crashing into you," I stammered. This was the boldest I had ever been with a girl as generally I had gotten the few dates I had through mutual friends.
"That seems like the least you can do but you might have to buy me two drinks as penance for nearly knocking me on my ass," the words were harsh but the tone was sultry. She said her name was Denise and she was a pre-law student. She was 5'5" tall and likely weighed 150 pounds with brown eyes and although I never asked her she probably had D cup boobs. I know she wore size 8 panties and shoes.
The Shack was just that a rundown shack were students went to eat burgers and drink. It was the only place to drink alcohol on campus as it was the only parcel of private land surrounded by state property. It had grown up around a dilapidated pick up truck and had a unique charm. The best part was that though Denise was 20 and I was 19 we would have no problem getting alcoholic beverages.
My victim led me to a corner table and she ordered something I had never heard of before, a Long Island Iced Tea. Curious, I went ahead and ordered one for myself especially after she told me it would knock me on my ass. We sat there sipping our drinks exchanging small talk.
Strong didn't begin to describe the drink as I had a slight buzz after a single glass. Denise insisted that I buy her a second glass and not wanting to be a wimp I ordered one for myself as well. As we waited she threw me for a loop claiming we had met before. I couldn't figure out where we knew one another from as she finally told me we had a class together.
It still took another five minutes to place her in African American Literature. I had taken the class as I figured it would be the one English class that would help me in my American History major as struggles of black people are central to a very large part of our history and I figured reading black authors would give me a better insight.
But, at the moment my eyes were frozen on my companion in her silky white blouse with the scoop neck. The brilliant white contrasted so sensually with her deep ebony skin drawing my focus right to her stunning cleavage. I had to force myself to look away before she caught me staring.
My entire body ached with desire for this girl I had met less than two hours earlier. It was getting dark and being the gentleman, even though our campus was pretty safe, I offered to walk her to her dorm or apartment. We were getting along very well sharing similar political philosophies and love for sports but there was even more that I couldn't place.
We got to her apartment much too quickly and spent the next half hour talking on the steps to the door. Then the faithful words escaped my mouth that were both the best and worst thing I ever did with her as I invited her to my place to a small party Friday evening. To my surprise she accepted the invitation and I told her I'd come by for her at 7:30.
It wasn't exactly a date but it felt a bit different knowing that my companion for the evening would be a black girl. Back then you never saw a inter racial couple out in public. But, logic easily won out as I really enjoyed talking with her and it certainly didn't hurt that she was one of the sexiest women I'd ever met.
When my friends walked in there was a bit of uneasy silence and awkwardness at first. But, in less than ten minutes everyone relaxed and Denise seemed to fit right into our little circle. Only one friend pulled me aside and commented how unusual it was to have a mixed crowd but said nothing more than that.
We had a lot of fun listening to records and watched a movie. Everyone thought it cool that I had gotten this new thing called Cable TV and you could watch a movie without commercials. As we watched Denise and I sat hip to hip on my old sofa as there wasn't a lot of room. Gingerly I put a hand on her knee and she did nothing to move it and I did nothing more to move it any further.
When everyone finally left after 1:00 I escorted her back to her apartment. I stood there flustered and nervous not sure of what to do. If I tried to kiss her would I be slapped for thinking the relationship was anything but friends. And, if I didn't kiss her would she think I was a wussy or wonder what my problem was.
So, carefully I scooted closer and closer to her as we chatted. Gently I placed a hand on her shoulder and she looked over at it curiously but did nothing to move it. Then, slowly I leaned into her giving her a chance to back away and pressed my lips on hers. To my delight she wrapped her arms around my neck and pressed letting her lips open slightly. Our tongues met briefly flicking across one another.
Looking into the whites of her eyes I asked if she wanted to go out with me the next night after telling her that she was beautiful. Now, I think, for the first time it really hit her that she was about to date a white guy. Nervously she answered that she would love to. Breaking our embrace I reluctantly agreed to a 7:00 date on Saturday night.
My heart fluttered the entire day wondering what I had gotten myself into. My main thing was not that she was black but rather that I would embarrass myself with this gorgeous lady that I wasn't even in the same ballpark with. She totally outclassed me in every way I thought. Excitedly I knocked on her door exactly at 7:00.
It wasn't until she answered the door that I realized that I had no idea about what we were going to do. The first step was simple at least as there was a pretty good moderately priced restaurant in easy walking distance. I had a lump in my throat as her outfit accentuated her beauty perfectly.
She had on a pair of tight fitting jeans that cut her ass in deeply in half. Her v-neck blouse seemed to bunch up underneath her breasts causing her boobs to point straight out. We had a wonderful dinner and had consumed at least three beers a piece in the hour and a half we were there. After our meal we walked around downtown and checked the three movie theaters. None of the movies appeared to be any good and we decided against the bars as it was a home football weekend and they would be jammed.
Denise suggested that we see what was on TV but that we go to my place as two of her roommates would be at her place. As we walked I hoped that I had straightened the place up. As I opened the door I looked all around and was relieved that everything was in its place. Offering her a drink we finally settled on something on Showtime that turned out to be a bit dirty.