It started when I was in junior high - my excitement whenever I saw a hot black woman. There was a Playboy special issue I somehow got my hands on, with cover to cover photos of girls from all around the country. While I loved all the Playmates, my attention drifted to a few - black girls. Playboy, then and now, specializes in white girls, so it was always a nice treat when they showed girls of color, whether they be black, Asian, hispanic, etc. The issue I had showed a beautiful black woman, sprawled on a bed with golden satin sheets. The contrast between her ebony skin and the golden satin was remarkable. The look on her face was pure lust and confidence. Her hair was an Afro cut, as this was probably the late 70s or so, and she awoke something in me.
I kept that issue for years, as any young man would do with his precious Playboys, and jacked off countless times to that particular ebony goddess. I was hooked. The sexy black girls I saw in that issue, and others, would be my little secret. I never imagined I would be with a black woman, being a dorky white teenager at the time, but I figured I could always jerk off to the beauties as I came across them in magazines (this, of course, was pre-video, and especially pre-DVD or online porn).
I would admire the black women I saw on the streets, riding buses, shopping, girls at school, etc. I used to get my hands on those erotic newspapers they sold at the corner stands, the ones with the prostitute ads in the back. It was another vehicle to see black women, only in those they put black lines, or circles over the women's breasts. Still, to see a sexy black girl's face, with pouting, full lips and pure sex in her eyes, drove me crazy. Besides, this was one step closer to reality. There were phone numbers for many of these girls. While I was too young, and too broke, to do anything about it, in theory I could call and arrange a meeting with one of these beauties. It occurred to me that perhaps the photos in the ads were fake, but I imagined there was SOME truth to the ads. If it said, for example, the girl was black, she certainly would be black. And if it said she had huge tits, she most likely did. So that information was enough to provide adequate fantasy material for my jerking off - having a very active imagination always has come in handy.
As I grew up I dated a variety of women, but sadly, none were black. I think the problem was access, as well as confidence. I just didn't run into that many black girls, and due to lack of experience and my own sexual interest in them, I would have no idea how to talk to them if I did meet one. So, as technology advanced, I would peruse porn and fall in love with various black porn stars I came across, first and foremost being Ebony Ayes, who I consider the absolute queen of porn, black or white.
Ebony, if you don't know her, you should, was a buxom, purely sexual porn star in the middle and late 80s. What I love about Ebony is how she's a true black woman. My interest in black women escalates the darker their skin is, generally, and more African-American they indeed look. Oh, there are beautiful black women who have long straight hair and light caramel skin, but they seem more Caucasian than black, and my interest, likely stemming from that beauty in Playboy lounging on the golden satin sheets, is more a pure black woman. I love the contrast of skin when a black beauty like Ebony would fuck a white guy. It looks right to me, and in line with my fantasies. So, I watched as many Ebony Ayes videos as I could find, and as the years progressed, DVDs, and thankfully the Internet, which makes everything easier.
There are other black porn beauties I love as well, two of whom are similar to Ebony, complete African-American goddesses, with dark skin, full bodies, curves, beautiful big tits and thick, sensual lips. These two are Vanessa Blue and Jada Fire. No one could mix them up with white girls, or even darker skin Hispanic girls. They are ebony goddesses, with round asses, thick waists, engorged tits and pure sex in their eyes. If you are a white guy with a black girl fantasy, these are the ladies for you. Plus, both specialize, Vanessa in particular, of doing interracial stuff, so imagining you're the white guy she's fucking silly is easy to do. I've spewed gallons of cum for Vanessa Blue and Jada Fire over the years, I'm not ashamed to say.
As the Internet and Internet dating became a great resource for all things sexual, I began chatting with black girls, sometimes exchanging photos and talking on the phone. Many black girls like white guys, which in my earlier adolescence, never occurred to me. People like people who look different than them, and why shouldn't it be exciting for a black girl to kiss or make love to a white guy, just the same as it is for a white guy to be with a black girl?