The following week went by and I had not seen Julie or Tra'mon.
Many thoughts of texting my wife crossed my mind, but by now I was more timid than I ever was before since I discovered Julie was "with" the black man. I also knew the young black stud would become angry if I tried calling or texting Julie, and I was afraid to get beaten up by him yet again.
In desperation, I confronted one of the other white husbands in the condo building to see if he had seen Julie or Tra'mon lately. I went to Mark.
Mark told me that he had heard about them going on a vacation together to the Bahamas. He sympathized with me and the humiliation I was feeling. Then, he hesitated and admitted to me that the young black stud had slapped him when he didn't want to invest in his business, so he gave in and willingly agreed to.
"Wh-what?" I asked Mark.
"I-I didn't know. Oh my gosh." I replied.
Mark's eyes lowered in defeat. He informed me that the young black man had "bullied" him and all the other white husbands as well. He admitted that Tra'mon had also told them all not to show their faces around the pool area, and that they were all afraid and intimidated of him too. This explained why I had not been seeing any of the other husbands hanging out in the pool area we loved so much.
"Geezuz, Mark. I-I'm so sorry." I whispered.
"My wife and I are separating too. I think you should know that I'm leaving tomorrow, and I won't be back." Mark announced.
"What? Are you serious? Wh-why?" I inquired.
"I'd rather not say. Listen, I better go now. Maybe I'll call you in a few weeks and see how things are going." he explained.
"Gosh, Mark. I'm really sorry. Please call me." I replied, watching in disbelief as he walked away with a sad look on his face.
By that weekend, Mark was gone and his wife Karen stayed behind. I couldn't imagine them being separated and ready to divorce, just as I could have never pictured Julie and I being apart.
This realization of this one 5'9" tall black man intimidating and bullying all 13 of us 6' tall or taller white husbands in the condo building humiliated me. We were all so afraid to confront him as he continued to show off his overpowering black masculinity in the most rude and obnoxious manner possible.
The black stud was rudely "rubbing our faces in it" and we knew it. Yet, all 13 of us were too weak and cowardly to face him. I was, perhaps, more afraid of the black man than anyone else.
That Saturday morning I woke up with an uneasy feeling in the pit of my stomach. I wasn't exactly sure why but then I suddenly heard the sound of the black stud's voice. It came from afar and that is when I looked out from the window of my now lonely condo apartment kitchen and down to the pool area.
Tra'mon was sitting in his regular spot on his personal chaise lounge chair, which was positioned across the pool as always. This time, my wife Julie was with him and my eyes opened in utter shock and amazement.
Like all the other white women we had seen with him since his abrupt arrival into our community, Julie was kneeling on the ground at his feet. She was dressed in a black bikini bottom and topless, and she was obediently massaging the young black stud's bare feet. He just sat back confidently with his shades on and his head tilted back as he relaxed.
"What the hell?" I gasped in humiliation.
"Now he's making Julie do the same thing as the others?!" I shouted in silent disbelief.
"How could he be doing this out in the open, and right in my face like this?!" I screamed inside.
"Why doesn't Julie have her top on?!" I screamed even louder inside.
The black man's "in your face" attitude truly demoralized me. He was being so obnoxious and rude as he flaunted his conquest of my blonde wife in plain view. He knew that I would never be man enough to say anything about it either. I also knew that I was far too much of a wimp and timid to approach him.
In humiliation, I just stared at my white wife kneeling at the black stud's feet with her supple breasts exposed. There were no others in the pool area, but Julie would never have exposed her breasts like that before she met the black man.
"Julie seems so different." I admitted to myself, in shame.
"She doesn't really look happy either." I tried convincing myself.
"I've got to find a way to talk to Julie again. I need to." I continued telling myself.
But, I had no idea how I would accomplish this.
I was terrified to approach her now that she was "with" the black man. I knew that he would "kick my ass" even worse than ever before if I made even the slightest attempt to engage her in a conversation. Sometime soon, I began to wonder if she would be filing for a divorce. It was this thought of possible divorce that caused me to panic miserably.
I just had to know.
I certainly did not want a divorce myself. I was still hopelessly hanging onto any meager thread of "hope" to get her back.
It was later that same Saturday when I noticed the young black stud walking out to his car without Julie. I couldn't believe it, and I shook in fear as I watched him drive away. That is when I began thinking that this could be a chance to finally talk to my beautiful blonde wife.
We had been separated for a little more than a couple of weeks by now, and I thought maybe there was still hope of convincing her to come back to me.
My hands trembled as I wrote a long note and then made my way to the black man's apartment. I knew Julie was there alone.
As I moved to the door I heard the sound of her vacuuming. She was now obviously cleaning his condo apartment when I timidly tapped on the door. She wasn't answering and I knocked a little louder and waited. But, there was still no answer.
"Maybe Julie can't hear the knock?" I thought to myself.
I thought about knocking again, but I was feeling rather afraid and insecure. Cowardly, I bent to one knee and slipped the note I had written under the door. When I did so, I realized just how ridiculous of a decision this was.
"Geezuz. Why did I do that? What if he comes home and sees the note before Julie does?" I said to myself.
My thoughtless decision stemmed from my total and complete intimidation of this black stud, and I began to panic more. Frantically, I bent down even lower on both of my knees to look under the door. I saw the note I had just slipped inside and tried to retrieve it. In desperation, I managed to grasp the folded paper with two fingers.
The sound of the vacuum continued.
Just as I was able to pull the note out with my stretched out fingers, I felt his strong and intimidating presence.
When I looked up and then down the short hallway I noticed Tra'mon standing there holding his car keys in his powerful hands. My mouth hung wide open in shock as he peered at me from 25 feet away. His face was stern and his dominant glare consumed any shred of masculinity that may have remained in me.
"Oh my gawd!" I yelled to myself in fear, as I stood up holding the note in my weak hands.
I was literally caught "red handed" as I stood in the hallway before the black stud's door. My entire body trembled like it had never trembled before as I stood there watching him step closer to me.
His short strides were slow and calculated, and as "cocky" and "commanding" as one can describe. It was as if the black man was making me stand there and wait for him to increase the intensity of my fear. He seemed to be doing all this deliberently.
Humiliatingly, when Tra'mon got to within 10 feet of me I unintentionally "wet" myself. Yes, it was true. I was just so afraid of the young black man's anger and getting beaten up again that I completely wet the front of my pants, and it was right there embarrassingly in plain view. The young stud just smiled, amused by the taller white wimp in front of him.
He stood before me with this grin upon his face and took the note from my weak grip like he was taking candy from a baby. He read it right before me, in silence, then tapped the side of my face three times as he laughed to himself. His stare further intimidated me before he casually turned and decided to head inside his condo apartment.