**** Friday morning
What the actual fuck?!
Slack-jawed, eyes wide, I just sat, staring, staring with mounting anger at the offensive document in front of me.
I looked up at Claire, my wife sat on the other end of the table, the morning light seemingly focusing its attentions on her, making her look somehow angelic; the paper I was reading certainly gave lie to that. She had her arms crossed, a sickeningly smug, self-satisfied smile on her face.
She must have been out of her mind.
"Are you fucking kidding me?!" I shouted, feeling the hot, sharp bile of rage rising up from deep in my belly.
I couldn't believe my wife had the plain cheek to even print the thing out, let alone ask me to read it, to sign it!
She just sat, watching my face grow redder by the second.
"Fuck you and your anger," she said, calmly, icily, "it's because of your stupid decision that I can't see Samuel."
"No sex?! Ever again? What the fuck Claire? You think I'm going to sign this?!"
I held the piece of paper up in front of me, waving it angrily, as if shaking it enough would make the ridiculous words fall loose.
"You've got another thing coming if you think that's ever going to happen!"
Having seen those videos, I know now that it was pretty much a verbatim copy of what the unfortunate Charles had signed; I was damned if I was going to follow the man down that particular path.
My wife had clearly figured that this was the best way to be able to make me serve my 'penance', for her to be able to see the bull again. That, and that alone, seemed to be her whole focus, her only want in the world. Fuck me, fuck her husband, she wanted to fuck her bull. That was all that mattered to her.
"If you don't sign," explained my wife, calmly, borrowing word for word from the other woman's playbook, "I'll divorce you tomorrow."
...Holy...
It felt like I'd taken a heavyweight's blow to the gut. I just sat, mouth open, staring, stunned. After what seemed like an eternity, I finally managed to string the beginnings of a coherent sentence together.
"You'd... you'd..."
"Yes," she said, answering my unasked question, "yes, I would divorce you. I love you, I really do-"
"I should bloody well hope so!"
"-but I need to be with Samuel again. You saw what he did to me. You saw the incredible orgasms I had-"
"You value that, your own selfish pleasure, above our marriage?!" I asked, incredulous.
"Yes," she replied without hesitation, "yes. I won't deny myself those feelings, that fullness, the amazing sensation of being truly taken, truly fucked. I want to be your wife," - she leant forward, over the table, almost beseeching me - "but I have to have Samuel fuck me. I have to feel like that again. Again and again."
How I was regretting ever getting us involved in this. It had only been a matter of days, and it seemed like my wife's priorities had shifted, a 360 turn, her whole raison d'Γͺtre now to simply be bulled.
I already knew she wasn't going to relent; Claire was nothing if not goal-driven, even if the goal was getting fucked senseless by a man I had to pay for the privilege of doing so. Nonetheless, I couldn't, I wouldn't voluntarily agree to a life of enforced celibacy.
I stood up, mind set, pushing the chair behind me, the squeaking sound of the legs running across the hard floor jarring in the otherwise silent room.
"Well," I said, defiant, "then I guess you'll have to divorce me!"
I turned and strode out of the room, slamming the door. Claire heard the front door slam shut a few seconds later.
****
**** Friday afternoon
"But what should I do?!"
I was imploring the man, desperate for an answer, any answer, any way out of the hole I'd dug for myself.
"You said you've seen this sort of messiness before - what should I do?!"
Deejay was looking out of the coffee shop window, apparently admiring the shapely backside of a young tourist, the girl holding her boyfriend's hand.
"You see that girl over there, the one with the nice ass, with her boyfriend?"
Damn him, I wanted answers, not gawping at hot girls!
"Deejay, my question?!"
"I'm getting to that Neil," he said, as if he explaining to a particularly slow pupil.
"What do you see, what do you think, when you look at her?"
Where the fuck was this leading?
"Er," I started, genuinely stymied, "er, I guess, I'm thinking she's got a nice ass?" I offered.
The smile on Deejay's face was particularly grating.
"That, that right there Neil, that's the difference between men like Samuel and I and men like, well, you."
"I'm looking at her shapely little bouncy cheeks and wondering just how much they'd wobble as I had her over my lap, spanking her, while her little boyfriend there thanks me for showing him how a real man handles an ass like that.
He looked round over his shoulder, seeing the queue lengthen as the pretty dark-haired barista he was bulling smiled at him, ignoring the angry customer waving his card in front of her face.
Deejay reached into his pocket, retrieving his phone, taping a button.
"9pm," he dictated, "spank the coffee shop girl and have boyfriend film whilst thanking me."
I looked around myself, nervous that some other patron might have overheard. Deejay just smiled, as if this was all the most normal thing in the world.
"Diverting as this might be Deejay..." I said, eyebrows raised, trying to coax the man into giving me something, anything that might help me.
"Well," he said, "that difference between us, that's why you're in this position. Your wife has met a real man, a real bull, and now she knows what it's like to be taken, to be dominated, to submit herself to a big, powerful black bull. In my experience, women find that... addictive."
Not useful. I already knew that. I already knew this was my own doing, a painful bed I'd made and now would have the unenviable experience of lying in.
"Besides," he said, an amused grin on his face, "it strikes me you shouldn't have gone behind your wife's back in the first place."
"Thanks a fucking bunch," I snapped.
"I'm sorry," he said, his large smile belying his words, "but I think you're - if you'll pardon the pun - fucked."
"Wow, I'm so glad I called you."
"Yeah, so why did you call me?"
Deejay checked his watch; he'd already mentioned a 4 o'clock he had to be back for.
"Who the hell else can I talk to about it? You're the only other person who knows."
"Fair," he conceded. He carried on, a more somber expression on his face now. "Look, do you love your wife?"
"Of course!" I replied, offended the question could even be raised.
"And you want her to be happy, right? I mean, what's the expression - 'happy wife, happy life', right?"
I was getting increasingly exasperated.
"I got her a fucking bull, right?"
"Sure, but how much of that was for your wife's benefit - I mean, purely for her - and how much for yours?"
"Fine, I take your point. So I want a happy wife. But I want to be happy too!"
"And you can be happy Neil," he said, putting a big arm around my shoulder.