Many thoughts ran through my mind as I remained sitting on my knees and the backs of my legs before young Alexis Barron.
The hardwood floor beneath my shins was cold as I held the tube of lotion in my weak hands. I simply gazed upon it, lost in thought, and wondering what Alexis Barron had in store for me. It caused me to drift further into my humiliation.
The manner in which this beautiful, young black teenager tossed the lotion to floor before me was so rude and insolent. My face was sore from her firm grip of my cheeks, yet it was the utter humiliation and defeat that I felt at this moment that seemed to dwarf my soreness.
It seemed so long ago that I was this mature 40-year-old struggling business owner who had options. Despite my struggles and failures, I still had my own life and my own decisions to make.
In reality it had been only a few weeks since Alexis Barron walked into my office, and into my life. Thoughts of her studying me from afar entered my mind, but I quickly dismissed them. How could she know that I would simply "cave in" to her youthful beauty and immense inner strength? It seemed impractical and unreasonable.
Now, I was kneeling at the feet of this beautiful black teenager feeling intimidated and embarrassed. I was humbled as she directed me without words to massage her size 5 bare feet.
More thoughts of how she had casually strolled into my life and taken such complete control of me and my failing business humiliated me. I felt like a huge coward, demoralized, defeated and embarrassed by how intimidated she made me feel. It was demoralizing how much weaker I had become around her in such a short time.
As I held the blue and yellow tube of lotion in my hands, I glanced upwards to Alexis. Passively, I looked at her as she glared into her computer screen.
She was so beautiful. The 18-year-old black woman was not even 5 feet tall and merely 95 lbs., yet she possessed an astonishingly firm and proportionate 32c-21-33 figure that had been tightened to perfection from her many years in gymnastics. She was the most feminine young woman one can imagine, yet she was also remarkably athletic and strong for her small size. Her beautiful, youthful face and flawless ebony complexion made her look even younger.
Her unique beauty could easily rival a slightly darker skinned Halle Berry. Yet, it was her intelligence, bold determination and dominant personality that weakened and humbled me the most. I struggled to speak in her presence and found it absolutely impossible to stand up to her.
Alexis was sitting on the sofa above me as she tapped away at the keys on her lap top computer. I simply cowered on the floor beneath her. Still dressed in merely a bra and the flimsy zebra-print nylon bikini panties she had worn all day, she appeared comfortable and confident. Her well-manicured bare feet were propped up onto the edge of the glass coffee table to my right, and crossed at the ankles in an almost arrogant and authoritative manner. Her young, gorgeous face appeared more determined by her task. Her stern eyes stared at the computer screen with laser focus.
Carelessly, I squeezed a large dollop of lotion onto my hands. I had been lost in thought when I looked down and suddenly realized this dollop of foot lotion was far too excessive. It had to be more than ten times the amount that was needed to massage the black girl's small feet, and more than I had intended to use.
For a moment I was confused and flustered by my carelessness as I looked down at the enormous amount of lotion in my hands, and then to the young black girl's feet set off to my right.
Without giving it much thought I simply placed both of my lotion covered hands to the black girl's left foot. This was her foot that was crossed over the top of the other, and at the ankles. I began to disgard the excessive globs of silky foot lotion onto her toes with both of my hands, thinking that I would eventually have to use it for a longer period of time.
Quite honestly, I did not know what I was thinking at the time.
Suddenly, young Alexis stopped clicking away on her keyboard. She must have felt the difference of the inordinate amount of lotion on the toes of her left foot. The enormous amount of foot lotion placed on her bare toes must have become very obvious and very unusual to her.
The silence when she stopped typing was deafening to me. Nervously, I withdrew both of my hands from near her feet and closer in towards my body like I was child caught with my hands in the cookie jar. My face turned bright red.
The young black woman simply and casually peered around the right side of her computer screen towards me. She looked directly into my eyes with a strange and curious look, then to the massive amount of white lotion placed onto the tops of her dark toes, then back to me again. Timidly, I removed my eyes from hers and looked down to the floor embarrassed. I felt the strength of stare and swallowed the lump in my throat.
My careless, yet minor mistake must have been so obvious for her to feel it on her toes like this. I almost felt scared to disappoint her in this manner and I sensed she was about to scold me for this careless action.
"I-I-I'm sorry." I whispered, nervously.
My eyes remained to the floor, and away from the young woman's piercing eyes. Feeling truly hapless at this stage, I quivered as I realized that my palms were covered with just as much of the silky foot cream as her toes were.
I found myself sitting there on the backs of my legs before her with my hands full, my palms completely saturated and now facing upwards as if I were in some sort of prayer or meditation position. My face burned a deper red from the embarrassment of my error as I continued to kneel before Alexis in silence. My quivering began to increase and I was terrified to look back up to her.
The eternal silence to me was, in reality, merely seconds. Yet, it caused me to slowly bring my eyes upwards to her meet her beautiful face. Her youthful look was stern and all-knowing, and I watched nervously as she shifted the lap top from her lap off to the left side of the sofa. The young black woman reached for her cigarettes, casually grabbing one of them and lighting it for herself. She leaned far back into the sofa and looked at me cowering on my knees before her. Alexis took a long drag of the 100's length Virginia Slims cigarette and blew a longer stream of smoke up into the air as she stared back at me.
The 18-year-old black woman seemed to be studying me closer, contemplating her next move. This smooth and callous delay intimdated me to the point I began to feel faint. My fear of the unexpected overwhelmed me. I could feel the coolness of the excessive lotion on my hands as they remained before me with my palms up in this defeated position.
In total silence, and with the utmost arrogance, the beautiful young black woman gently swung her left foot over to my face. Unbelievably, she began wiping off the large dollops of silky lotion from her black toes and onto my pale cheeks. She literally swiped the lotion from the bottoms of her toes onto my right cheek as if I was a door mat. Then, she swiped the excess lotion from the tops of her small toes onto my left cheek.
Defeatedly, I sat there looking into her stern eyes as she cockily began smearing the creamy lotion all over my face with the toes of her left foot.