Alexis Barron now sat in the passenger's seat of my BMW just outside my house. It was close to 6 o'clock by now and we had just spent the past five and a half hours shopping for her selfish needs.
The entire time I felt demoralized to the point of tears. The utter humiliation that I was feeling from this unfathomable experience could hardly be described. Many will find this experience at Oaktown Mall difficult to believe. I'm quite sure they will never be able to understand just how ruthless this young black woman was as she so casually and discreetly humiliated me. But, it was real and I sat there for just a moment trying to gather my thoights and comprehend what had just happened.
I was truly scared and intimidated by Alexis Barron. I was also quite embarrassed by my own inability to stand up to this much younger black woman.
The 4'11" tall, 95 lb. black woman was just 18-years-old, yet her youthful beauty and natural dominant nature conveyed such an undeniable aura of inner strength. She seemed to convey this message to all those she would encounter. Despite her dimunitive size, Alexis was one of the most beautiful and perfectly-proportioned women that I had ever met, or anyone else could ever imagine. Her beauty can be described, by many, as "off the charts" and she used this gift to attract or lure anyone she desired to engage.
It was more than her physical beauty that weakened me. Her 32c-21-33 figure was, indeed, perfect for her small size. But, Alexis Barron was also embarrassingly intelligent for her young age and horrifyingly wise above her years. Her mere presence and piercing lighter brown eyes unquestionably overwhelmed me.
Above all, I was beginning to learn just how discreetly and boldly sadistic this young woman could be. My feelings of ineptitude and intense intimidation had never been so high before. These feelings I was experiencing at the time were even beginning to frighten me.
I began thinking that it had to be obvious to the young black woman that I had no "fight" left in me at all. None, whatsoever. She had to know by now that I felt totally defeated by her. There wasn't an ounce of resistence left in my body as I conceded to her unreasonable demands.
Perhaps, she had known this all along? Or, at least since that very first day we met at my office when I pathetically "caved in" to her stern words and her firm almost obnoxious attitude.
Yes, it is true that I had always found Alexis to be quite attractive. It's hard to imagine that anyone on this planet could think otherwise. Her physical beauty was on such a high level that it would make any woman feel less attractive than they really were. But, it was her qualities of confidence, self-assuredness and natural dominance which she so proudly possessed that truly humbled me. I was starting to notice that she humbled others as well.
These were the same qualities in a woman that I had always admired, from afar. During my entire scholastic career I almost envied women like her. They were qualities that were simply admired but never physical. Now, they seemed to be a thousand times magnified and on an entirely different level. I truly had never been actually confronted by a woman like Alexis Barron before, and this feeling continued to confuse me.
Exiting the car, I walked around to the passenger's side door and then opened it. I stood there holding onto the door and waited for the young black woman to emerge. But, Alexis Barron remained sitting. She was completely ignoring me while she stared down at her cell phone to review the new text messages that had just "chirped" her phone. She didn't seem to be the least bit concerned about making me stand there in the driveway of my own home as I continued holding the car door.
This long wait was excruciating to me.
Not once did she ever acknowledge my presence as a full five minutes went by. I felt even more embarrassed and my mind began to wander as I looked over the top of my car and out into the distance towards the driveway entrance. This was about 90 feet away. I was simply waiting and watching the light flow of traffic go by and I felt nervous and humiliated by my new role.
The neighboring homes and the road weren't very close, but they were still close enough for anyone to notice me if they cared to look in this direction. This kept me on edge as I continued waiting for young Alexis to step out of my car. My face felt warmer by the added embarrassment she seemed to be causing. I could now feel the thicker dried up dirty and muddy toe prints from her feet on my cheeks beginning to set in. They now felt like some sort of facial mask I once used to clean my pores.
Mercifully, the young black woman finally stepped out of my car and began walking towards the front door. Not once did Alexis remove her eyes from her cell phone as she continued to act as if I didn't exist. For some unknown reason, I was still holding the car door open. I don't know why. I was awed by her arrogance as I watched her step up to the front door and stop. She simply stood there at the entrance of my home with all her attention focused on that little phone.
I closed the car door and dutifully ran to open the front door to let the black girl inside. She stepped inside, gracefully, then finally turned to me as if I were merely a second thought.
"Go get my things. Bring them inside." Alexis ordered, waving the back of her right hand in the most condescending way imagineable.
"Y-Yes, Ma'am." I whimpered, embarrassed.
As I walked back out to my car to fetch all those bags from Alexis Barron's day of shopping, I began thinking more about what was happening. Thoughts of how I got myself into such an embarrassing situation like this had consumed me. Things were happening so fast that I hardly had time to contemplate my own options. I was scared and I felt that I had been caught off-guard by the 18-year-old black woman since that day she came into my life.
"Maybe I could just walk away from this whole situation." I began thinking as I stood there before the opened trunk of my car.
But, that is when the sound of her firm and extremely youthful sounding voice rang through the air. Her words snapped me back into consciousness and pierced right through me.
"Where are you?" she screeched, yelling from inside the house.
Nervously, I gathered all the bags from the trunk. Frantically, I grabbed the remaining bags and our purses from the back seat and then ran inside. I was incredibly intimidated by the young black woman's more serious tone of voice, which seemed displeased by the amount of time I was taking.
The black teenaged woman stood at the counter of my kitchen, her elbows resting upon it and still manipulating her cell phone.