I HAD reached a decision. It wasn't easy coming to a conclusion and I didn't reach it without much heart and soul searching. The step I was about to take was immense but I knew I couldn't waste the opportunity. The big black cock of my fantasy was no longer a dream. It was here, only a few feet away and available for my gratification.
The monster which I had for so long yearned to hold, taste and have probing deep inside me, was barely an arm's length away, lolling regally on Justin's right thigh.
I was hungry for it. I needed to satisfy my curiosity and finally discover exactly how it felt to be impaled by a foot of thick, human flesh. Forget my rigid 11inch silicone dong, I wanted the real thing, not a toy.
Such was my overwhelming crazy desire, I was prepared to cheat on my loving husband. Yes, of course I considered Tony and the extremely happy sex life that we still shared and loved after 12 years together. And I knew that I was technically preparing to commit adultery. But this wasn't an affair, not something to jeopardize our marriage: it was me selfishly planning to feed a craving, to fulfil a fantasy and embark on a journey of sexual discovery. And, afterwards, I would get on with my life again. I would be able to stop dwelling and obsessing about the unknown. One lifetime's experience, that's all I needed, and Justin was here, on hand, for that purpose.
As a professional escort, he was an ideal partner and there was absolutely no loose ends to worry about, no strings attached. We both knew what our impending union was all about: he would supply the physical solution to satiate my desire. What could be more simple?
"I'd like something to eat, what about you?"
Justin's question broke into my thoughts. "Yes, that sounds like a good idea," I said. "But first I need to powder my nose."
"Okay," said Justin and stood up from his lounger. His meaty member flapped inches from my face as he offered his hands to help me rise. Somehow, I resisted the temptation to take him in my hands and feed his glorious plum head into my mouth. Instead, I held his hands and stood up.
"Thank you kind sir. You have perfect manners. Comes with the job, I suppose."
"I've always tried to be polite, especially with gorgeous women," he said, looking from my face down to my proud breasts and their pink nipples which hardened under his steady gaze. "And yes, you're right, an escort must pamper his lady friends."
"I look forward to being pampered," I said, "and being properly served." I looked down at his super dark man-tool which hung heavily between his lean thighs and then I turned and walked towards the house. You brazen hussy, I told myself.
Justin strolled at my side and rested an arm across my shoulders. "You know I get all kinds of women to serve, all shapes and sizes and ages," he said softly. "They want all different kinds of things. But it's rare I come across a beauty such as you. It'll be my pleasure to do whatever you desire."
My heart pounded and my knees weakened at the thought of his mighty wand working its magic in me. "That's very gallant of you again," I managed to say. "You sure know how to make a woman feel desirable."
"But you are desirable. It's not just words or flattery, you are a very attractive woman and your husband is an extremely lucky man."
Oh dear, why did he mention husband? Let's be honest, what was coursing through my mind and body didn't make Tony a lucky husband at all.
"You get your food and I'll pop up to my room and freshen up. I'll be back in a few moments," I said and headed for the patio doors, sensing that Justin was watching my wiggling rear end.
The bathroom was cool and I sat wondering and debating whether I was doing the right thing. What if Tony fucked another woman? What if he had a fantasy about fucking a black woman or a woman of any other race? Japanese? Chinese? Or what if he had anal sex with someone, an activity I didn't fancy at all? How would I react to his infidelity? Could I merely accept it because he'd fulfilled a fantasy? Would it be a test of my love for him? If I let him satisfy a craving would it prove my love was strong? If it made him happy, gave him pleasure, should that be good enough for me, too? Or would I be jealous and feel cheated?
I dribbled a few drops of pee and wiped myself. As I pressed the tissue between my legs, I thought: My pussy has got a lot to answer for, hankering after giant cock and not being content with Tony's fatter-than-average 7incher. Many women would love to have him penetrating their channel. Oh dear, what am I doing?
I flushed the toilet and swilled my hands under warm water, looking at my reflection in the mirror above the washbasin. I had a golden tan, my luxuriant fair hair which framed my face and ended at my jaw line was a little lighter thanks to weeks in the sun. My teeth were straight and white and my lips . . . well I needed to add some colour. I applied lipstick and, buffing up my hair with both hands, said: "It's up to you, Jen. Now or never."
I walked into the bedroom to the sound of my phone ringing. Caller ID told me it was Tony.
"Hi, darling, how are you doing? What time is it?"
"Hello, Jen," he said and paused. I imagined he was checking the time on his wristwatch. "It's just after 6.30. Are you having a good time?"
"Yes, yes, I am. I got here okay, no problem finding the place. Oh, Tony, it's a lovely house, really enormous and the garden is beautiful with a pool and manicured lawn. It's only a small party, about nine of us I think, mostly Gaynor's and Charlie"s work friends. Fact is, I've just come into the house to have a pee. My room is lovely and has a balcony overlooking the pool."
I opened the door and stepped out and leaned my elbows on the balcony's outer wall. "Everybody's getting something to eat now. They've got caterers in, none of this do-it-yourself lark."
"The escort business pays, then," said Tony.
"Yes, but I'll tell you more about that when I get home tomorrow. So, how's the golf? Are you winning?"
"Not winning no but I'm in the leading group. Just a couple of shots adrift but we'll see what happens tomorrow. But, Jen, I've got good news."
"Oh, what's that?"
"I played with Geoff Thomas today, you've met him at the club."