Being Bred - white girl reunited with her first black boyfriend
It is a continuation of "How I got my first BBC." This story continues with the theme of adultery. If you are offended by stories of cheating, please don't continue reading this story.
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It was time. Matt loaded my away bags in the car and raced back in the house to help me to the car. My stomach was huge, and I couldn't wait to bring the precious cargo that had been growing inside me into the world. My contractions made me scream; Matt responded by driving faster.
An eternity later I lay on a hospital bed being routinely inspected by a nurse. When Dr. Tabber arrived, he was just in time for me to be moved to the delivery room. Matt stood beside me holding my hand, as we rolled down the barren hall of the hospital.
This was our first child. I had read every book on pregnancy, changed my diet and attended classes to prepare me for this day; but I was still not prepared. I had been in labor for hours and it was finally time to give birth. Matt stood beside me, looking pale, as I crushed his hand in mine.
He had started at my feet, anticipating that he would watch his baby enter the world, but the moment I began to crown, he lost all color, and made his way up the bedside to hold my hand instead. After a final exhausting push, I heard our baby crying out over my own screams. The nurse quickly turned and stepped away to clean him off before returning to present our baby to us. I watched through watery eyes, waiting for her to show me my new baby.
"Congratulations Grace, it's a healthy little boy."
A baby swaddled in a blue blanket was lowered to my chest. My heart raced when I looked at his beautiful baby face; he was clearly a black child and there was no denying it. I will never forget the horrified look on Matt's face when he realized he was not the father.
Matt's eyes moved between the child and me, "I don't understand Grace."
The nurse and doctor could sense the tension and busied themselves with the final stages of child birth while Matt and I stared at each other in silence. The hospital was not the place to discuss the events that led to me having a black child.
The next day Matt drove me home, but refused to talk to me. After carrying my things up to the house he turned and headed back to the car.
"We're getting a divorce Grace. This is bullshit." Matt drove away.
Matt must have gone home and packed immediately the day the baby was born. Most of his belongings were already gone as I looked around the apartment. I sat on the couch cradling my new child reflecting on my situation. All through my pregnancy I knew there was a chance the baby was Osa's, but I was praying that it wasn't.
Here I am at 23 years old; a single mother with a pending divorce after only 8 months of marriage. Sitting on the couch I thought about the events that took place weeks before my wedding; the events that led to the birth of by beautiful baby boy.
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I had always wanted children and with our wedding so close, I thought it would be alright for Matt and me to start trying and went off the pill. Matt was indifferent about having children but was not opposed to having sex with me as often as possible.
It was two weeks before the wedding when I went for my final dress fitting with the girls in my bridal party. On my way back home I decided to stop at the Starbucks to grab a chai latte.
Standing in line I heard a deep voice boomed from a close by table, "Grace?"
I turned to see a black man smiling at me. It took a moment to recognize him. Osa was not the young black boy I dated five years ago. This was a full grown man with a confidence about him. He seemed bigger than I remembered too and had clearly spent considerable time in the gym.
Before I could respond he made his way to me and hugged me, "I can't believe it's you!"
I gave him a friendly hug and broke it off, "Long time no see."
"Do you have time to catch up?" Osa motioned to a nearby table.
I was dying to know what had become of him after we broke up. We had been crazy in love; unfortunately the grief of dating a black guy from my family was matched only with his family's feeling about him dating a white girl.
Needless to say, Osa and I went our separate ways and I returned to the familiar...Matt; his mother loved me like the daughter she never had. I did love Matt in that he was safe and predictable, but mostly because both our families supported our relationship.
Osa's big hands covered mine, "I still think about you Grace. Wondering where you are, what you are up to, and if you're happy."