"Ayat, you're a sweet gal, you know I have nothing against you, it's just that the girls of our Islamic faith are, well, a tad boring, and if we went out, it would be a big deal for both of our families, I don't like the fuss, that's why I date white girls," Farouk Abdallah said, smiling. The young Arab Muslim man stood there, unaware of the fact that he'd just broken a young woman's heart. This is so awkward, Farouk thought to himself.
"I see," Ayat Khazen replied, and she simply nodded, while Farouk mumbled something barely intelligible before walking away from her like she had the plague. When I thought of sharing my feelings with him, I envisioned something a little different, Wallahi, Ayat thought, shaking her head. It was a windy day, and she readjusted the pins holding her hijab into place.
Ayat looked out at the sunlit quad, which was the de facto center of Carleton University. Everywhere she looked, fellow students were enjoying this unseasonably warm day in mid-September. The City of Ottawa looked like it was in late summer rather than early fall, and if Ayat closed her eyes while soaking up the sun, she could almost make herself believe it was still summer.
Ayat desperately missed the summers back in her hometown of Douma, in the Batroun District of Lebanon. The town was small, slightly more than a village, and everyone knew everyone. In Douma, the various religious and ethnic groups of Lebanon, the Muslims, the Maronite Christians and the Druze, actually got along. The same couldn't be said in the rest of Lebanon, or the Arab world for that matter.
When Ayat first moved to Ottawa as an international student, she was blown away by the Canadian Capital. The young woman was surprised by the size and diversity of the place. There were so many Arabs there, and most of them hailed from her country. At a meeting for an Arab student club at Carleton, Ayat met Farouk, and from that moment on, her life hadn't been the same.
Tall, handsome, dark-haired and bronze-skinned, Farouk was ruggedly handsome like a true son of Beirut, and yet he carried himself like a true Canadian, rather than the son of immigrants. Farouk played hockey, didn't smoke, and had bold and unconventional opinions for a young Arab Muslim man. Farouk thought Muslims ought to do more to integrate into Canadian society, felt that the hijab was not mandatory, and strongly supported the progressive conservative party of Canada.
At first, Ayat and Farouk clashed, then she found herself quite taken with him. They became friends, and started hanging out together, on and off campus. Ayat found Farouk's ways strange because he openly flirted with her, and he liked to drink alcohol, and didn't much care for the more conservative Arabs that they ran into when they looked at him disapprovingly.
"Ayat, I'm an Arab, true, my parents came from Beirut but I was born in Ottawa, I live my life my way, fuck the rules and traditions," Farouk told her as they walked around Gloucester after watching a movie. Ayat smiled and linked her arm with Farouk's, feeling smitten with this wild, handsome young man who was so different from the conservative types she'd grown up with.
"Farouk, you're strange but cute," Ayat said with a sigh, fawning over him. Farouk grinned and then kissed her. Ayat, a prim and proper, pious young Lebanese Muslim woman, was quite shocked when Farouk pressed his lips against hers. It was her very first kiss. Farouk grinned when they came up for air and Ayat blushed, stunned by what he'd just done...and secretly pleased. She returned his smile, and Farouk nodded and winked at her.
Ayat and Farouk had their not-quite romance for a while, and in the end, he did away with her because she was not his type. Like a lot of young Arab Muslim men, Farouk found the women of his faith and culture quite boring, and was lured by the mysteries of western women. The lure of the forbidden fruit, Ayat thought bitterly.
"Hey Ayat, Hi-Ya, why so glum?" came a masculine voice, snatching Ayat out of her gloomy thoughts. Ayat turned around and found herself facing literally the number two person on the list of dudes she didn't want to see. Jaleel Abrehe, the self-styled Prince of Eritrea, stood there with a big grin on his face, a fork-like implement buried deep inside his Afro.
"Salaam, Jaleel, I've got to go," Ayat replied, and she headed toward the library entrance, but Jaleel hastily blocked her way, and he winked at her slickly, like a man who truly thinks he's all that. Ayat rolled her eyes, and shook her head. Jaleel bowed his head gently, and offered her his arm, as if he were a courteous gentleman from the old days, instead of an annoying classmate who was wasting her time.
"Ayat, my dearest lady, I sense trouble, tis sadness I see in thy noble countenance," Jaleel said, imitating the accents and mannerisms of Shakespeare's time. Ayat nearly burst out laughing, remembering that he wouldn't have passed Western Literature III last semester if she hadn't helped him. For a fleeting moment, Jaleel's eyes met Ayat's, and she was surprised to see sincerity in those orbs.
"Alright, I'm not having the best of days, and if you must know, a representative of your gender just dumped my ass," Ayat said forcefully, and with that, she practically stormed into the Mac Odrum library, brushing past a bewildered Jaleel. In no way did her behavior or mood deter the grinning young man, and he walked with her all the way to the elevators. There were about ten students waiting for the elevators leading to the fourth and fifth floors, and the slow, stupid machines were working even slower than usual.
"Ayat, on behalf of my gender, I apologize for the lout who offended thee, now, please, tell thy friend the tale of woe," Jaleel said, and Ayat grinned, shaking her head once more. I can't believe he said that with a straight face, Ayat thought. Fellow students looked at them, some grinning, some puzzled, and some bored. The elevator doors swung open, and several students rushed out. When the others rushed in, Ayat and Jaleel found themselves waiting for the next one, as this one was packed.
"Alqarf ( shit), this isn't my day," Ayat scoffed angrily, and Jaleel looked at her pensively. Puzzled by his sudden silence, given that it was completely unlike the motor mouth to ever shut up, Ayat looked at him. Jaleel simply looked back at her, and he wasn't smiling, or smirking, nor was he posturing. The brother was not acting like his usual self, that's for damn sure...