Mistaken identity, it can happen to the best of us. In my lifetime, I get mistaken for two things which I've got nothing against ( but happen not to be ) almost on a daily basis. People think I'm Hispanic, and they also routinely ask me if I'm a lesbian. Apparently I have a certain "look". Seriously, what does a lesbian look like? I'm five-foot-nine, stocky and somewhat muscular, with a toned, bronze-skinned body. I am into bodybuilding, lots of women are. My black hair is short and spiky, and that's just the way I like it. I just wish people would stop getting the wrong idea about me.
I'm fond of Latin culture, especially the music and cuisine, so I've got nothing against Hispanic people per se, and I also fully support gay rights, but I do get tired of folks asking me if I belong to either of those categories. My name is Karma Suleiman, and I'm a Lebanese Christian woman living in the City of Ottawa, Ontario. School, work and the gym, that's my life. Oh, and FYI? I'm one hundred percent heterosexual. I love dick. Never even given a second thought about hooking up with another woman. I'm all about the fellas. What can I say? I love the flavor of men. I like the way they smell and taste.
I was born in the City of Baskinta, Republic of Lebanon, on November 7, 1986. My parents, Phillip and Eugenia Suleiman moved from Lebanon to Ontario, Canada, in the summer of 1989. I guess you could say I've lived almost my whole life in Canada. I graduated from the University of Ottawa in June 2008 with a bachelor's degree in English Literature, and after realizing that there's no way to make any decent money off that, I applied for the Sprott MBA program at Carleton University and luckily I got accepted. I've been there, off and on, since 2010. Grad school isn't cheap and since I work as a manager at Loblaw's on the evenings, it's going to take me a while.
When I'm not at work dealing with the tedious business of running a grocery store at night or studying in the library at Carleton, I work out. For the most part I use the gym at school, but sometimes I go to one of the many Good Life Fitness Clubs downtown. I like a serious workout. I'm a well-toned, muscular and fit one hundred and fifty pounds and that's the way I like it. As a female bodybuilder I've got an image to maintain, if only to myself. Anyhow, while at the gym the other day I ran into a seriously sexy guy, my old pal Gordon Wilkinson. I met Gordon at the University of Ottawa in the mid-2000s. He's six-foot-one, broad-shouldered and well-built. Like me, he's a gym bunny. Hello stranger, he said to me, and I smiled at the handsome, caramel-colored and curly-haired man in the biker shorts and red top. Long time no see Mister Gordon, I said, and gave him a simple hug.
Like I said, Gordon and I are old friends. Gordon and I met at the University of Ottawa in the library while reaching for the last copy of Intro To Western Literature. He was a second-year student in criminal justice at the time, and the lit class was an elective he desperately needed. For me, it was my major. In spite of our vast differences, we became friends and kept in touch. Like me, Gordon is an immigrant. His father Gerald Wilkinson is white, originally from England, and his mother, Janelle Monroe, is black, originally from the island of Jamaica. He's the same age I am, but moved to Ontario from Berkshire, England, with his parents just before he started high school. He's still got the faintest trace of a British accent, one I found so damn sexy.
You look good, Gordon told me, as he lifted a huge dumbbell like it weighed nothing. I smiled at him as I sped on the stair master. Right back at you, I countered, trying in vain not to look at Gordon's perfectly shaped, muscular ass as he bent down to tie his shoe laces. I love a guy with a tight body and a nice ass. No fat guys for me, and no skinny wimps either. I like a man who takes care of himself. Hey, I'm a fit woman and I expect no less from the men I deal with. Watching Gordon as he worked out, I found myself daydreaming, thinking about the old days. Back when I was, well, younger than I am now, and still felt like everything was possible...
At the time Gordon and I met, we were both with other people. I was seeing this guy named Stefan Abdullah, from Manaus, Brazil. He was half Lebanese and half Brazilian Portuguese, and the stud simply set my world on fire. For the most part while growing up in Ottawa, Ontario, I mainly dated white guys or Hispanic guys since most of the young Arab men in the region were Muslims and I had zero intention of abandoning my Orthodox Christian faith for the rigid rules of Islam. Gordon was with a Jamaican chick named Melanie something or other at the time. Don't remember much about her except that she was nearly six feet tall, dark-skinned and, like so many women from the Caribbean, she had a huge ass...no, I wasn't jealous. Or so I told myself. Besides, I had Stefan Abdullah, a nice guy from my own culture, and he was a devout Catholic. I'd heard horror stories about dating Muslim guys from Arab Christian women who emigrated to Canada from places like Syria, Egypt and Lebanon. At first, the Muslim guy will be charming, generous and the most considerate person in the world. Once he has the woman in his power, he'll reveal his true face and then try to convert her to Islam, through charm if possible and by force if necessary.
I had Stefan and Gordon had Melanie, and we were both happy with our significant others, I think. Still, there was this...thing between us. Whenever Stefan and I had any relationship trouble, Gordon's the one I ran to. I don't know why but I felt safe with him, like I could confide in him. I've always been more comfortable making friends with guys than with girls. Less drama and bullshit, you know? Gordon seemed equally comfortable with me, in fact, we sometimes met to hang out without our respective 'others'. One night, while watching the movie Cloverfield inside the Silver City movie theater in Ottawa's east end, something unusual but altogether fun happened between Stefan and I. We kind of, um, kissed.
I still remember the feel of Gordon's lips against mine, and his agile tongue darting into my mouth. I remember his arms around me, and my heart thundering in my chest as he touched me so firmly yet gently. I remember that I didn't want the kiss to end. Afterwards, Gordon and I sat quietly in the theater, looking into each other's eyes like lovebirds. Yeah, there was definitely something between us but by the time we left the theater, we agreed that it couldn't happen again. For the sake of our relationships with Stefan and Melanie, and our friendship. Interesting rationale, isn't it? Anyways, that was in 2008. Here we are now, in 2013, back to square one.