"Alice..." was all he could manage before turning around with her and pushing her against the wall, lifting her hips, spreading her legs, and entering her smoothly, hard. "Ah, God...Alice..."
"Yesssss..." her breath came out in a hiss and they were bucking together, frantically, almost as if they would be caught. One hand braced against the wall, the other holding her thigh high on his hip, spread wide open while he thrust in and out of her. She held on to his shoulder, his back, moving with him, moaning and writhing.
"Oohhhh....Michael...Oh....oh...fuck...."
She came with a loud cry; surely her neighbors outside the half-shut door could hear her....The thought sent him over the edge and he slumped against her, hips still pumping, slower now. She was still cumming, her slick walls fluttering around his cock. They remained still for a moment...two....five...? Just breathing, holding, relishing the feel of each other, slick in each other's arms, panting and the smell of their sex wafting around them to be remembered, held in dreams, regrets.
"Alice...." What could he say? He could feel her slipping from him, her warmth, her cocooning comfort easing away.
"Thank you." the flat voice again. She wanted him gone before she could shame herself by begging, pleading for him to stay.
"Alice..." Plaintive now. He had no such shame.
But she was pushing him away, closing herself to him, drawing her legs together and folding her arms. He stood looking at her, wishing he didn't have to leave. He wanted to explain. He wanted to tell her how sorry he was, how he didnβt love Katherine, how her uncle had seen fit to help him along in his βmarriage plansβ by having it printed in every newspaper, rag, and free paper space in Savannah. He wanted to tell her how much she meant to him, that he would give up everything he had for her, that he didnβt give a fuck that he was white and she was black. He wanted to tell her that he wanted to be inside of her again, with her again, love her.
She smiled ruefully and made her way to her bathroom, stumbling slightly by her couch, ass bobbling slightly with the movement. She was careful not to look back.
"Thank you and goodbye Michael..."
He gathered up his clothes and put them on slowly, trying to keep his eyes off the discarded t-shirt on the floor. His keys jangled in his pockets when he put them on, reminding him of where he was supposed to be...
The tears didn't come until he shut her locked door behind him. He could hear her latch the door as he walked away, thought he could hear her sob even through the red door that he knew was barred to him for good.