Judi didn't remember much about how she got home that evening or even what she said to her husband. She went right to bed and slept through the night and late into Saturday morning. The light of day Saturday brought back the reality of what she had done. She tried to keep busy Saturday with shopping and errands, trying not to think about her situation, but it kept coming back to her. She would never have believed it if someone had told her that she would be letting one black man, let alone three fuck her. It would have been even more inconceivable that she would eventually participate willingly.
Judi had a million questions in her mind. Would she get pregnant? If she were, how would she tell her husband? It would end their marriage for sure, but did she care? She felt guilty about her infidelity but on the other hand Judi felt invigorated by all the attention; she felt desirable again. Was that so wrong? Was it wrong for her to enjoy life again?
Yes, the sex had been incredible, but should she feel guilty for enjoying the sex so much? She had never passed out from climaxing in her life. Hell, she was lucky if she just got off once a month over the last ten years of her marriage and it wasn't that good even then.
Judi knew deep down inside, like some women do in that sixth sense, that she would get pregnant. It had been close to her fertile period when her and Derrick had fucked the first time. She could almost feel a new life forming in her body. If she were pregnant, she knew that she had the option of having an abortion, but she would never do that. This was a baby, a human life and after all, she wanted a child with all her heart. Yet this child didn't belong to her husband, it belonged to her boss, a married black man. However, she that knew she would love the baby no matter who the father was. The truth was that it was a secret thrill to Judi that she might be carrying Derrick's baby. She knew that he was happily married and would never leave his wife. Yes, she loved him, even after the rough treatment, maybe even because of the rough treatment. But she knew that Derrick had a softer side and would eventually show it.
Derrick was everything Don wasn't. Don was always so wimpy when it came to sex, never wanting to try anything new or taking control. Fortunately, Don was not truly an obnoxious personality. His greatest sin had been that he had lied about the fact that he was sterile. Had he loved her so much that he had been afraid that she would not marry him if she knew? The truth was that she might have considered that. Through it all Judi still cared for Don, but was probably too late for them.
Too many questions and not enough answers.
Through it all Judi found that she had a new outlook on life, a new bounce in her step, a new life within her.
The next several weeks flew by in a frenzy. It was the busy season at work and no one had much time for socializing. Derrick had been away for several weeks on a trip to the Orient, business and pleasure. Judi and he had not gotten together for almost three weeks. She was climbing the walls. When they finally had the chance, it was a quickie in his apartment. Still great but not long enough. Derrick promised that this was unusual and that he would have more time for her in the next several weeks when things got back to normal.
At home, Judi and Don's relationship had actually improved over the past several weeks. Part of the reason might have been that Judi felt better about herself and less defensive. Don had also found a job and he was showing signs of coming out of the funk he had been in for several years.
Judi still could not feel truly guilty about what she had done; she only felt sad that her marriage to Don was probably over. But the thrill of having the child she had always wanted over shadowed the feeling of regret.
It wasn't a surprise to Judi when missed her period. In fact, she felt an incredible excitement in the pit of her stomach. She knew that a new life was beginning for her. Where it would lead she was not sure but she still wanted to take the journey.
The first day her period was late, Judi went out and bought a home test. The results were as she had expected; she was pregnant! She figured that it was time to go to her doctor to confirm what she already knew.
Doctor Sally Moran had been working with Judi for years, trying all types of treatments to get her pregnant. It had been a mystery to her as to why Judi could not get pregnant. She tried to get Don to be tested but he had refused. It had been her conclusion that it was Don's problem not Judi's. Judi had chosen Doctor Moran first because she was a female and second because she was an expert in infertility. She and Judi had become more than patient and doctor, they had become friends. In fact, they had even cried together on several occasions when Judi's test results had come back negative. When Judi found out that Don was sterile, she had obviously shared that with her doctor. Doctor Moran was as angry as Judi but tried her best to console her friend.
When Judi stopped in to see Dr. Moran and told her about her suspicions, she was shocked to say the least. She did her own test and confirmed that Judi was a month pregnant.
Judi didn't lie to her; she told her that it was not Don's baby and that it belonged to her African American boss. After all, she would certainly know the father was black at delivery.
After recovering from her initial shock, Doctor Moran had a serious discussion with Judi about her options--abortion, putting the baby up for adoption, etc. Judi refused all of these and told her that she was happy and wanted this baby more that anything in the world. The baby would receive all the love Judi that could offer.
Finally, Dr. Moran came around and congratulated Judi then hugged her, telling her cautiously that she had a rough road ahead of her. She offered any assistance that she could provide. They cried tears of joy together.
**** Judi was so excited about the baby that she wanted to tell Derrick right away. However, she knew that she had to control her excitement and tell Derrick at the perfect time. She couldn't just blurt it out in the office one day. Judi was not really sure how Derrick was going to react. She was pretty certain that he would be happy. After all, he had made sure that he always came in her pussy and he knew that she was not on the pill. Still, they had never really discussed her becoming pregnant so there was still a hint of doubt.
Judi struggled to think of the appropriate time and place; it had to be special.
Fait was on Judi's side when Derrick announced that the two of them needed to go to Atlanta to a convention of vendors and potential customers. The company was going to set up a booth and he and Judi would be the on-site representatives. Judi was elated, this would be the perfect time and place for Judi to tell Derrick he was going to be a father: a romantic dinner, candlelight, wine. Judi decided that she would tell Don when she returned from Atlanta.
On Friday before they were scheduled to leave, Judi found out that Terri would be going with them to Atlanta. She was crushed, then furious. She had hoped this was going to be their time--her time to be with her lover, the father of her baby. The pregnancy was already wreaking havoc with her hormones.
Judi stormed into Derrick's office slamming the door. "What the hell is going on here Derrick? Why are you inviting that little tramp secretary of yours on our trip to Atlanta?" Judi screamed, her face red.
Poor Derrick didn't know what was going on. He certainly had no idea Judi was pregnant or that she wanted to share that important news with him in Atlanta.
Derrick sat back in his chair starring at her in amazement. When he got his composure he leaned over his desk toward Judi. "Judi, I don't know who the fuck you think you are talking too but unless something has changed, I still own this company and I will invite anyone I damned well please, anywhere I please. The last time I checked, you work for me. Furthermore, because we have had sex, does not give you the right to come in here and tell me what to do. If it's any of your business, which it is not, Terri is the one who is setting up our entire display and making all the arrangements for us to meet with business clients. She is basically responsible for the show."
Judi sat there stunned. She hadn't thought before she stormed into Derrick's office, she was running on pure emotions. Now she had opened her mouth and possibly spoiled everything.